Longsuffering

Opening the Past

I'm not worth it to you

Genuine and pure

True in the heart

- Vishnu

Bandung, Vishnu-Lanis

Vishnu Pov

My encounter with the man I've always referred to as the 'bitter' man named Tara made me feel dwarfed. So am I quick to draw conclusions? I must admit, the charm of Wita then or now so occupies the top position in my life and. He admits out loud about his interest in Wita who has a million attractions that no woman has. His friendship with his underclassman - Wita-haves a hidden love. One day he tried to dare to declare his love for Wita, then got a similar answer rejection. Wita admits her friendship with Tara is so pure and sincere, Tara tries to persuade and keep making sure until she finally gets a conclusion, “Wita is waiting for someone”.

Tara's ridiculous willingness about asking Wita for time to prepare for everything in her marriage matchmaking with Citra clearly invites my blind jealousy. Lala never explained to me that her cousin Tara was married to my underclassman, not Wita. And my stupidity clearly explains that I am a loser man who never dared to ask Lala. I just couldn't bear to hear the fact that my Lady had been with another man. I chose to leave Indonesia after 6 months of searching for Wita.

Until the day of my meeting with Tara, like a trance I drove my vehicle to Jakarta. Wita became my biggest goal that day. My god of the day will even hurt my daughter and my beloved brother. I am that stupid guy!!!. ****!!

Upon arrival at the Convention Hall hotel, I found Wita singing a song that hurt my heart. How hard have you been to want your departure to be an antidote to your pain? He looked at me with anger, love and longing.

My shock that day doubled as my little girl ran to hug Wita so longingly. I am that selfish man, who has separated my beloved daughter and Wita the moorings of my heart spread the distance and longing that I can see with my own eyes. Then they showed me things I never imagined before. Wita plays the guitar with charm, accompanying Adhis singing and moving agilely expressing all his happiness. I heard and saw clearly the audience singing and dancing together. How happy is my daughter to be next to Wita? I didn't feel like my lips were on their backs just giving me a happy smile that day.

But my happiness was only for a moment, because Wita suddenly disappeared. Organisers said he asked for permission to return home early on the grounds of urgent need. I could not have foreseen before that the urgent need that Wita meant was to get treatment at this Hospital because of typhoid.

However, my feelings are now crumbling dimly when listening to a long story of a woman who mentions herself as a friend of Wita.

“I have no clinical medical records on behalf of Wita, Mr. Vishnu. Because Wita never checked the symptoms he experienced it to the Hospital. But I am a person who acts as a friend and doctor for him who continues to follow the health journey of Wita until now”.

“i, decided to talk this to you, because for the past few months Wita again experienced serious things and have not a little solution since meeting with you. Maybe Wita has a hard time starting to open her past with you, so I will ask for your help to stop all the guilt she experienced. Wita must have a life like any other woman. Married and have children according to his dream it”.

I sighed, comprehending each Lanis said. Imagining Wita who had tended to be silent and never open communication with me made me understand it. I'm the cause!!!

“I have not been able to fully understand doctor Lanis, is my relationship with Wita used to be the cause of trauma experienced by Wita?, he means. Our relationship is a bad memory?” many doubt. Determine what exactly is the cause of the trauma experienced. Am I the bad person who became unwilling to connect with others so that he experienced the trauma that Lanis meant? Wita even disappeared from me without any news and news.

“What is there to expect, Mr. Vishnu. Bad memories become a trigger for the emergence of trauma experienced by Wita. Post-traumatic stress disorder or PTSD makes Wita's mental condition not good. He often has panic attacks, nightmares, excessive stress triggered by past experience trauma. Experiencing a traumatic event is a difficult thing for Wita. But what trauma Wita experienced you may be able to conclude it after I tell you what happened with Wita 7 years ago”. Lanis's statement and gaze this time made my heart beat erratically. Is that what happened?

“Wita had an accident in front of the Wedding Organizer You and Me building, shortly after contacting someone via her mobile phone. You probably know exactly who Wita is calling". My face stiffened at once considering that, on my bike, I received an incoming call from Wita after several times I gave him a message.

“The accident experienced by Wita was heavy enough to require him to be taken to Jakarta Hospital. Wita was taken to the capital in appalling conditions. Wita undergoes various stages of surgery with no small cost. His father decided to sell everything he owned including the house they lived in in Bandung. Then while waiting for the long treatment that Wita lived, they settled temporarily in my house in Jakarta, while his sister Salim lived with uwa Bambang in Bandung”. Lanis's statement surprised me. I was deep in guilt. I should have been by her side by that time. Or. it should not have happened, if... Astagfirullah..

“For one month Wita was in a coma, and was aware of a condition that made her father have a heart attack and died. For a father who loved so much his beloved daughter to have such a hard time making it difficult to accept and survive”. Lanis continued.

“What Wita is natural?” tanyaku.

“Amnesia, the hard impact on the head experienced by Wita caused him to lose his memory”. Lanis's statement really hit my heart ache. My wife who I hated for 7 years, my wife who I will give you a birthday and a grudge all this time, my woman who I never gave a smile miss all this time, in fact, I experienced pain caused by my anger and blind jealousy. Humiliated me, because with the love I have, I forget what my mother always echoes in her lectures in mosques during my teens, “deally prejudice is a lie to the word”. I now understand why in my religion prejudice is juxtaposed with the consequences of sin. Astagfirullah..

“Lucky, his memory gradually recovered within a year. And, the first thing he did was look for you. Mr. Vishnu!”. Tell me I don't know myself, but I'm very sad to hear what Lanis said to me.

“Wita then decided to study in Jogja majoring in Psychology after she learned the news of your wedding in Switzerland with the daughter of the country's official”. I can't help but shake my hand now with tremors. May I scream at this time.. Wita?!.

“I found out the symptoms that Wita experienced after he discussed his decision to choose the department he chose. He wants to know all the ways to overcome the mental symptoms experienced through the knowledge he has been involved in. He is more religious since the bad events he experienced 7 years ago. He decided to hijab and control all his emotions neatly and neat”. Lanis.

“But your meeting with Wita lately, re-triggered her traumatic symptoms that have been missing for the past few years. And I think, you are the trigger.. Therefore you will also be the antidote”. I cupped my face and rubbed it rough. I took a breath that had been heavy since. What punishment do I deserve?. Allah.I have left a thick and blackened stain on the life of a man whom I should have so much love.

“Wita has to continue her life normally, she may soon decide her mother's wish to accept her neighbor's son's proposal. And you.., also may be going to continue your life as it should.”, Lanis uttered a sentence that made my mind mess up, too, because his gaze was fixed on my phone that I stored on the cafe table which had previously displayed an unceasing video call screen, displaying the name LASTRI. I can guess what Wita's best friend thought.

“But I still hope your presence can help the Wita” recovery process, continued Lanis asked me with great hope.

“What should I do”, I shrivel.

“Company Wita, remove any trauma in his past”. Lanis replied with a look of confidence.

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