Longsuffering

Finish it!

Let me spend some tears today

So that tomorrow there will be no more

I wrote it in my heart book

I'm done!

-Wita

Bandung, Lanis - Rani - Wita

“I only guessed so far”, Lanis started her conversation with Rani. At first Lanis hesitated to discuss this with her best friend. But don't call Rani if she doesn't fight to the point of blood. Hahaha, Lanis sometimes feels funny himself seeing the action of his nimble friend. After many times he was showered with messages via chat by Rani, phone and video call, and, Lanis finally gave up when the friend looked at his residence with a bag of avocados that he could estimate about two to five kilograms. Ah Rani, you always have been..

“He's our best friend Lan, not listed as your patient right?” that sentence became one of the considerations Lanis had thought of for an entire night. He knew very well that he could not see Wita for the duration of time owned by Rani. He will certainly get a lot of help from Rani, to make sure that Wita is okay. Rani has even made herself aware that she has no right to hide this. Of course, because Wita is not a patient of hers. Although in fact, he is a doctor who always upholds the confidentiality of patient data. But still, Wita is not his patient, he is just his best friend who has been lost as a new figure full of grief.

“Wita has long experienced some kind of trauma after the accident”, Lanis continued their conversation with a bag of tea and biscuit dishes that he just bought from the minimarket. “At first I thought that accident was the trigger, but after various therapies that I did, yes.outside my clinical room I mean, it did not produce results. I tried to associate it with what had to do with the accident, the wedding organizer building, the red car, or his mobile phone but there seemed to be no causal connection between it and the trauma he experienced”.

“I can not solve it at all, what is the trigger of all the reactions of Wita's body during these 5 years. He did not even open himself to be able to solve the problems he faced”.

“his family knows?” ask Rani.

Lanis took a deep breath while sipping her own warm tea in her living room. “sadly no one knows but us. Amazingly, Wita, he can control himself when his mental symptoms come, he has his own home. Yes.. although a kind of small housing that he still cicil, but it seems that place that he made as a hiding place in calming down, without involving his family”.

Rani shook her head, she had already left behind a lot of information about her best friend. “Wita never told me at all about the burden to me Lan”.

“ia only occasionally comes to see me if you experience abnormal symptoms. Excessive anxiety, insomnia, nightmares, or. Maybe you've seen him vomit?” ask Lanis.

“as I remember he likes to occasionally lock himself in his study. Sometimes send me messages so no one can see him for a few hours. But I think it's because of work. Hhmmmmz... never did I think it was a bit strange.” Rani began squinting her eyeballs remembering the incident two years ago. “ roughly two years ago lah”.

“what kind of events?” tanya Lanis was curious.

“Wita suddenly met me, she said her chest was tight, breathing hard. But I'll know he doesn't have a history of asthma or anything else”. Rani explained back. After the accident that befell Wita, Rani was always watching Wita's wiggle room and even pulled her best friend to be nearby by taking her to the Gemintang Dewun school. He was only worried that the recovery of his best friend's health was still not perfect. But he really did not expect that Wita would experience something this bad.

“before the fainting incident yesterday, is there something strange?” ask Lanis.

“you know the cause? What do you mean after what happened?”. Tanya Lanis was impatient.

“I don't know, because the last time I saw him running from the meeting hall”.

Lanis sighed again. Wita from the past was special, its nature that is not easy to complain, easy to accept and simple actually brings itself to a situation like this.

“so the key man named Vishnu?” tanya Rani stops the thought of Lanis drifting into her High School days first.

“I think yes, because his tears that broke yesterday have illustrated a little of what happened behind his burden. All the defensive fortifications that he had built, collapsed when yesterday he overflowed everything”. Answer Lanis.

“what's a good sign?” ask Rani.

“hopefully, because thus he began to be able to open up and be able to forgive his past. Forgive himself”. Of course, after yesterday the two heard a different Wita, roaring at the broken cries with the words that hit the chest.

“I just want to watch him happy, he's happy!!. Because I am unforgivable, unforgivable!!.”.

“you've confirmed it Wita?” ask Lanis.

Lanis, even Rani, can't figure out what happened to her best friend. Really Wita, you are suffering because of something that is not finished?. The pain and grief that Wita felt in fact continued to gnaw. So what he did by looking for the figure of Vishnu after a year paused on his ignorance to become a matter that rooted and hit the chest. Perih and weird Wita felt when a photo on her mobile phone she showed on Lanis and Rani that night. A couple decorated with suits and simple dresses with perched names: Swiss, Vishnu Permana-Alivia Gorgeous Restari.

Hats off, for Wita of the two friends who in a moment shed tears. The decision that Wita has made to borrow the word “ikhlas” in his life. Give the full happiness of Vishnu to a new story with all the dreams and ideals that the man has. Wita has even chalked up the severed decision he lived, wrestling broken hearts through a story that he himself did not know where to base with solitude. Let Vishnu be happy, let him redeem all his mistakes with prayers and longs.

However, it seems Wita has made a miscalculation. Life does not have to be a square printed at a definite size and angled at four pointed corners. The circumstances of yesterday's incident that caused Wita to faint is not something that can be tolerated. This must be stopped immediately. Wita, it's time you got out of that wound. Your guilt is not the answer to someone else's happiness. It is not you who are obliged to give happiness to others, nor you who have the power to give sorrow to others. You just need to look confident that each soul is born with its own destiny.

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dear-sayaang reader all... 🤗hai forgive me new nongol🙈. mas Wisnu actually just keep going around in circles in my direction. let alone that neng Wita has started to want to move on...

it takes a lot of energy to move on to the next episode.😭😭😭

inject me the same positive energy kaliaaan ya... like, share en komeen in each episode. 🙏🙏. later I salamin to mas Vishnu to always come every day🤭🤭🤭