KARMA FIRST LOVE

Then and now

I clawed into the Cafe with a feeling of annoyance that from the morning I held until I did not lust eat my lunch.

"Can't that mouth not lemes rich woman !!!!"

I shouted at the back of Sendy who was still standing tidying up the array of cups on the table.

Sendy did not turn around immediately he held his ear and muttered indistinctly then glanced at me annoyed

"Apaan the hell came - came the rampage !"

No less fierce.

"Do you know ??? because of your mouth I almost..."

I didn't continue my words

"Nearly caught with Roan ?"

Sendy turned around and crossed her arms on her chest

"I said keep your mouth shut !!!"

I covered her mouth with both hands while looking around.

I let go when I saw Sendy's face that somehow got red.

"Know where?"

My words turned my eyes in any direction.

"Roan's name is rare, plus your attitude is more sure he's the pretentious Roan?!"

Sendy said annoyed

"Yes but... "

I let out a sigh of resignation

"Why don't you tell me you're working with him??? he is rich pura - pura not want you also "

Sendy said sharply

"I have no intention of stalking him yeah .. crazy I didn't get there ! I just accidentally met him again, and I really need that job for mom's treatment, I've told you about mom's situation now "

honestly, I bow my head

"You can't be that crazy, if you're that crazy, that obsession"

Sendy grimly, his face stored a million sad feelings from that past.

"I accepted this job because he didn't know me either, so you said you met me from school to him I was afraid he remembered ... if he asks me to pass Yohan to you, it means he knows you too, right?"

Still bending my head didn't want Sendy to see my sad feelings.

"I didn't expect anything since that incident,I know my position.More now I'm just an employee and he's the boss.I just want to atone for my sins - my sins to my mother and father who have been worried about my condition"

I said while holding back the tears that were already in the fertilizer.

"You weren't wrong from the start, why should you run away? if you hide or run away again, she'll think you're really a crazy woman who's stalking her!You can't hide anymore!especially escape!!!"

Sendy grabbed my arm and looked at my face that was still down

"But I don't want to lose my job because of this"

Trembling

slowly shake my body

"I also don't want to be looked at crazy girl again, for whatever reason this happens to be Sen...."

My tears spilled a painful feeling against my heart again after a long time of keeping it tight.

Sendy grabbed me while sighing as if feeling this tight feeling, I who had not cried for a long time even sniffled in Sendy's arms without caring about the many eyes that looked at us.

Sendy rubbed - rubbing my back slowly letting me cry louder.

"You should have been like this a long time ago, so I can protect you Lyr"

Again Sendy's words made my cry unstoppable.

I should have believed, Sandy is a friend I can count on long ago or now.

At least only in the presence of Sendy can I be myself without having to cover anything.

Cover who I am, who my mother and father are...

Sendy never cared about any of that.

"So ? you're gonna say that you're the Lyra she used to be low on?"

Ask Sendy to make sure

"I'm not that brave !!! if he's gonna!"

I hit Sendy hard on the chest until he took off his arms

"What difference does it make now the same? he will know later!"

Sendy's protest didn't accept my wishes

"Let him first, I'll pretend to forget, I'll show him it doesn't matter at all!"

I wiped my tears with a handkerchief from my blazer pocket.

"Well, don't lose this time, okay? He's not that attractive, is he close???"

Sendy grabbed my arm with sparkling eyes looking at me

****

After calming down and talking a lot with Sendy, I went home with a relieved heart.

At least I know the right answer to answer if he asks.

Joints are right, I didn't do anything wrong I just liked it from afar without doing anything.

My feelings past or present are all mine and no one can control them, including Roan.

Roan has to know how I am now, I no longer like him as much as I used to, I ran away because of something I didn't do.

Looking at her up close would probably awaken me to some things including her not being that attractive to me.

Stars only look beautiful when viewed from afar and only an asteroid rock when approached.

Even if I'm not as successful as he or Sendy, I'm not too late...

I can still fix my mass, including the misunderstanding between me and Roan

I hope there is a good time to say it all ...