KARMA FIRST LOVE

Feel guilty

Roan

I ruffled my coarse hair and stared at Lyra's drafts of curiculum vitae in disbelief.

Actually, when I found out from my friend who turned out to be Lyra's upperclassman that Lyra was out of school, I felt guilty.

Especially after hearing him being bullied by Roses every day because Roses are jealous of him.

The decision to just send the message I did when I heard my friend, Johan laughing saying that I was secretly dating Lyra, and Lyra instead approached another man in her class

I assumed Lyra was obsessed with her and all the men, so she made the gossip herself in order to have me too

That way really makes me feel disgusted to imagine the last little face I remember when Junior High did that.

I also felt that Lyra had no self-esteem after approaching another man and still confessed - I was my girlfriend.

But I don't imagine my message could get Lyra out of school.

I asked Lyra several times where Yohan was, but Yohan did not know anything even though she had several times to find out through Sendy, a man who she said was near Lyra

Lyra vanished in the earth...

The number I kept was unlisted when I tried to contact her.

The guilt continued to haunt me until I preferred to close my heart shut quietly to every woman who approached me.

I spent my time studying and building Well's company well.

Although sometimes in the middle of my night, I always dreamt of seeing Lyra crying while dropping herself from a building, I always wished Lyra well - just fine somewhere.

My meeting with Lyra at my secretary's replacement interview today, got my heart in a mess.

So I'm a fool who thinks she's not okay, when she grows up to be a beautiful girl with great !

Back to shuffling my hair pissed.

I looked back at the picture of Lyra in the right corner of the paper.

But I'm sure he dropped out of school because I couldn't stand it after I sent him that message, more than Yohan told me back then.

And it seems like he doesn't like me anymore, it's been ten years since then... I just need to pretend I don't know him and work as usual.At least with him working here I can treat my guilt first

I decided to accept Lyra as my secretary, that was all I could to make amends to Lyra.

****

Lyra

I strengthened my heart that morning, the first day I worked with Roan had to go well.

There was a feeling of pleasure and fear when I received an email from the Well Company that I was accepted to work there.

Roan couldn't have accepted me if he recognized me, right ? she must have hated me so much that she didn't want to see my face forever.

After getting off the online motorcycle, I tidied up the blazer I was wearing and started entering the Well company building.

Roan seems to have used his brain to build this chemical company.

After a front office led me to the door of Roan's room, I stood in front of the door breathing out a few times

He destroyed me first

I planted those words in my heart and mind so many times that I wouldn't start liking Roan again.

I knocked on the door of his room and entered as he replied from the inside, he wasn't looking at me just busy with his drafts piled up in front of him.

"Good morning sir"

My words tried to be as normal as possible even though my stupid heart was pounding hard looking at her glowing face

"Stand by in the front seat of this room, I will call you if I need you.Check also these files while being understood "

He thrust a few drafts to the end of the table, I grabbed him and took a few steps back.

"Good Sir"

I said as I passed from before him.

I sat in my chair, cursing my heart, my brain and my heart were completely out of sync right now.

Before long the phone on the table rang, I quickly picked it up

"With Lyra"

I said fast

"Pronounce your greetings correctly, then introduce yourself"

Roan said on the other end of the phone, I closed my mouth in shock

"Good morning with Lyra can I help you?"

My words are as normal as possible

"Buy unsweetened espresso coffee.Cafe it's opposite the company, use the company's credit card"

I immediately walked towards the elevator after grabbing the company credit card on the table, and cleared my head which was starting to get messed up again hearing his voice.

The cafe looked beautiful with a crowded urban landscape, I entered the cafe and immediately in front of the cashier.

"Lyra ! You're Lyra, right???"

I who was looking at the cafe menu was aghast when I saw the person behind the cash register.

"Sendy?!"

Sendy smiled happily at the name I called out loud

"True Lyra !!!! Where did you go - out of school when Lyr was"

His eyes were glazed - the glass said that, I did not lose the day I found Sendy here.

I never told you about bullying Sendy again since Sendy went berserk on the Roses, especially about the message from Roan.

It was shameful at the time

"I can't tell you right now Sen. I'm working, Boss, please buy me an espresso without sugar"

I smiled wryly at him

"OK! Where do you work, huh?I'm ready now!"

He said as he passed to the coffee machine.

"In Well Company, Sen"

I saw him preparing a cup of espresso.

He took a quick glance at me and returned to struggling with his coffee machine

"You're more beautiful Lyr"

His words did not look at me, I just laughed out loud at his praise

"If lying also has a limit times Sen!"

He chuckled and offered a cup of espresso

"Back work we're talking here !"

Invite him, I nod my head and pass from before him.

Sendy is one of the people I've wanted to meet since he disappeared, he must be confused with me who suddenly disappeared at that time.

At least he should know the truth and be able to become my friend again.

I kept the cup in front of Roan politely and took a few steps back from before him

"Is there anything else I can help you with, sir?"

Ask again.

It's true that I have to be professional, no matter what he tells me I have to do well.

At least if one day he remembers me he won't label me as the woman he's obsessed with and stalk her and become her secretary.

Roan did not answer, just grabbed his essay and looked at me sharply.

"Why seeing you always makes me feel like I know you!"

Glug

I laughed stiffly in front of him covering my nervousness

"Maybe it's my name and my face market sir!"

He put back the espresso cup that he had already drunk a few sips, and looked back at me.

"You don't feel that familiar to me ?"

As if knowing something and being lured to me, I quickly wiped away the cold sweat on my forehead that was flowing from nervousness

"No sir, I just heard the name of the Father and I just met the father in a recent interview"

I scratched my head with my fingers from the momentary itch.

"Oh ..maybe my feelings are yes ..."

Roan was still staring intently at me

"If there's nothing I can help me get back to the front sir"

I said quickly while bowing my head politely and quickly passed without waiting for the answer

Don't remember me! Don't remember me! live quietly, I also want to live quietly!

my grunts in my heart while staring pusill at my computer screen.