KARMA FIRST LOVE

FIRST GLANCE

I nervously walked into my new class after I was declared to be in the 2nd grade of First Intermediate.

I circulated my gaze hoping that someone would welcome me to the nearly-full class.

Sherly waved at me and patted the chair next to her, making me smile happily and run towards her.

"You're from class B, right ?I've seen you a few times"

Sherly said enthusiastically, making me a little awkward but I'm glad someone welcomed me.

Yuri at the table they turned towards me and looked at me fixedly.

"Can't you know us ?"

I smiled and nodded my head

"Sherly and Yuri from class G. .. I know you guys"

I said while taking out my stationery

"We sat down with Lyr..."

Said Sherly embracing my hand, her sweet demeanor made me not want to reject her.

"OK"

I smiled as I opened the book and pulled out a pen from the pencil box.

"You are .. when we were Sher ..."

Yuri protested while pouting

"I'm bored !"

Sherly stuck out her tongue and let go of her embrace in my arm, Yuri just turned forward and ignored the plunge of her friend it made me a little uneasy to have snatched the position of her friend.

When the new homeroom teacher entered all the children in the class immediately sat in their respective places and stopped their noise.

All the students introduced themselves - each including myself even though in the face with a look of contempt by some other friend I strengthened my heart, I who used to - this ordinary was familiar with the treatment.

For me it was enough that the beautiful Sherly with the alluring mature brown skin and the tall Yuri were on my side.

The boring lesson went on making me just play the pen while the teacher was explaining, and it ended when my pen fell under the table next to me.

He didn't budge even though he noticed my pen falling near his feet, I stared at him for a bit.

My eyes and black hair seemed to shine and make my heart beat until time runs slowly around me.

I didn't even dare ask her to help me get my pen, my voice was gone instantly.

"Lyeah!!!"

The homeroom voice boomed until every eye was on me who was still staring at him, he looked at me in wonder to make me shake.

"Cie.. the enchanted one!"

Tapping the friend next to him towards me made the whole class rowdy

"Stop everything!Lyra go ahead and do the problem on the board "

Said the Upholstered homeroom teacher, I went forward with a scared step and a crimson face grabbed the marker from my homeroom hand.

I'm still trying to figure out a math problem that I don't understand.

"You didn't notice from earlier?!"

I looked at the angry-looking homeroom Guardian and bowed my head.

"You when you're in class, pay attention to your teacher!don't even look at your friend's face!"

The impact made me slightly inching backwards

"It's amazing to see Roan that she's mom!"

Crap my boy friend

Roan is his name...

I focused on looking at Roan who shook his head not wanting to hear the noise of his friends.

"Enough!!!"

"Lyra ! You stand in front of the class until the break!!!"

I drowned and stood beside the blackboard in embarrassment,I was actually used to this but for this time I did it in front of the person I just liked making me feel embarrassed to death.

I twisted my finger trying not to look at Roan until the sentence was over.

From that day on I tried to study diligently with my usual brain and limited facilities from my parents so that I would not be ashamed before Roan again.

Sherly and Yuri have gotten used to hearing my ramblings about Roan, until one class even Roan himself knows about my feelings even though not directly, I don't have that much confidence

And it makes Roan uncomfortable, he tries to avoid being near me.For him I am not the girl who draws his heart even a little and he does not want the gossip to continue there, that is what is visible.

I who continued to like Roan like that also finally decided to try not to like Roan because it turns out Yuri likes Roan like me, making our friendship become tenuous.

Until the 3rd grade and we were back apart, I finally chose to study hard and successfully graduated with satisfactory results.

Although my heart hurt when Roan was deliberately courting a friend who likes to bully me long ago, Rani...

I chose to stay, because I realized his feelings were indeed unrequited.

And we were completely separated, even if I went to an actual high school next to Roan's, we only met occasionally and didn't say hello to each other.

Like a stranger...

I'm afraid my feelings are back there when I meet Roan to make him uncomfortable again.

I liked it enough in my heart...

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I grew up to be an accomplished student, now many friends who approached me even though insincere.

My appearance slowly turned into a heart-pulling girl,although my face is ordinary because it is not good at dressing up, but my body that grows high so that every student in his school likes the scene in addition to my habits that like to shrink the size of my uniform shows the shape of my body

I'm really hungry for recognition, my parents who were busy making money never even praised my achievements.

Until I met a boy who was supposed to be my upperclassman...

Yes ...

the boy did not go to class and was still relaxed when he entered his class with other students who should be his underclassmen.

I looked at her worriedly, I was like I was in a mirror that was translucent to my past in junior high school.

Even though I didn't get to class, I understood the feeling of being seen with that contemptible look.

I approached her even though she looked indifferent at the beginning she turned out to be a nice and cheerful person.

Until we were close and became good friends, I did feel comfortable with Joints that were always cheerful until we were often rumored to be dating but my feelings did not waver.

Although my feelings are unrequited for Roan, but I have not been able to find another man who shakes my heart besides Roan.

Without us knowing, his closeness with Joints made an upperclassman who really liked Joints feel angry.

Roses find a way to make Joints and I become tenuous by making a story that he and Jendi have been dating for a long time to mobilize friends to bully me every day.

My beautiful days at school are gone...

Until the thing that makes me most unable to stand is when a message enters my phone

It's me Roan!Don't ever dream of being my girlfriend!you don't even have the right to think about me, your behavior makes me half dead and want to vomit if you see you!!!!do not spread strange things again, especially until I confess my boyfriend!!!I wish we'd never see you again...

I couldn't even walk to the school next door to Roan's,added to the bullying I received from my upperclassman who turned out to be slandering me in front of Roan it made me feel like I was going to hell.

I realized they must have been looking for my weakness so I could really be ruined

I ended up dropping out of school, because my parents didn't have the money to move my school.

I deliberately cut off all communication with the people around me by changing my number and going to other cities, working odd jobs until I had a High School Degree and continued college.

Disappeared in front of them...

I'm more comfortable when people around me don't know about it then, I rarely go home and just send my money to work to my parents I still feel guilty making them worry, I still feel guilty,but I can't tell them that.

That's how I lived my hard life as a cafe waitress and student in that city for years until I graduated

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