KARMA FIRST LOVE

Stare at each other

Officially I and Roan became a couple, after my crying drama of not wanting to leave Dad I ended up in this room alone looking at my suitcase.

The strange feeling of sleeping in this room was even more pronounced when I officially became his wife, I looked at the ring that was coiled on my ring finger.

No woman wants to get married many times, once married they will die - dead keep it until death separates.

Until death do us part?

A day with Roan alone made me remember the worried face of the deceased.

at 01:00 in the morning.

My eyes were not also closed even though I had positioned my sleep in the most comfortable position to make me careless and decided to leave the room.

The sound of the television that I heard made me come closer to the family room not far from my room.

Roan was staring at the television flatly, his mind was where it was at the moment.

I slowly approached him even though there was still a distance of about a meter between us

"Why haven't you slept ?"

He asked, his eyes were still focused on the television screen.

"Can't sleep"

My answer was to stare at the television screen that presented the Titanic film that had even been repeatedly aired.

"Later you will get used to sleeping here"

Say again

"You yourself why haven't you slept?"

I asked for a quick glance, he did not answer just sigh with a sad expression

"We're married, but I've seen your face grim .... You hate me so much, Lyr ?"

Said while looking down

"I don't really hate that much as you do"

My words made her look at me with her sparkling eyes, I could not bear to see her who looked sad.

"I just feel guilty about my mother, because I used to easily ask to leave school just because - because of your talk through the message"

I said honestly while twisting my fingers

"Sorry ..."

still looking down with her own face, made me imagine how lonely she was in this house.

"I got married to you too because of mom's last request, I can't refuse"

I said my face to Mom's face for a moment.

"So you really don't really have any feelings what is it - is it the same with me?"

The sad question made my heart tremble.

No...actually I still crave Roan in my heart, but the guilt haunts me to the point that I doubt if I deserve to still crave it?

"Answer..."

He looked me in the eyes

"No"

I turned my face away, lied ....

Roan grabbed my chin and forced me to look at his two shady black eyeballs

"Say you didn't have that feeling ten years ago while looking at me"

Roan seemed to confirm my words

My face feels hot near him, especially with a soft touch Roan that I have to look at Roan without being able to dodge.

"No"

I closed my eyes not wanting to stare at him for longer making his gaze run around looking for my eyes.

"Why do you always shy away from my gaze?"

Said Roan gently still looking for my eyes.

"I want to make sure once again, do you really not like this marriage?"

Still looking for me who started to fidget in front of him

"I'm going to sleep"

I broke away and got up from sitting

But Roan's swift hand pulled me until I fell into his lap

"If I had realized you were this beautiful and attractive, I wouldn't be able to reject you"

"Passaul"

He held me tight so I couldn't get away.

"Look at me!"

His words made me reflexively look into those beautiful eyes of his.

Eyes that always make me feel shady and comfortable.

I was silent for a few moments exchanging glances, He looked at me as if looking for - looking for the feeling I was hiding in a meeting.

"You're more beautiful when you look up close"

My heart almost jumped out of my body hearing her praise

I looked at him, hypnotized with the perfect face he had.

the first time I stared at each line of his face so clearly that I subconsciously swallowed my own saliva in front of him.

He blinked as if he had found something out of my expression, I immediately turned my face to shame.

He pursued my views again and without warning******my lips gently...

I was surprised trying to take it off, but was silent to see his closed eyes feel every corner of my lips.

Roan's?Roan kissed me?!

My mind was screaming hysterically

My body is no longer even giving resistance just silently staring into the eyes of my Roan who dissolved in his kiss.

He took off his kiss with a breath that began to hunt, and looked at my face with a face that met with red.

"I still have a little hope it seems"

Smiling gently rubbed my cheeks

I pushed him and stood up

This is unfair, an impromptu attack!!!I can't even control my expression!!!

I ran to my room and locked the door.

That night I couldn't even sleep because I repeated Roan's kiss scene in my head.

How could I be this stupid !!!!Mammy?what do I feel right now? happy or sad? to be honest I am glad Roan is so warm, another acquisition I still blame him for that past!!!mother what should I do now?!

I cried in my heart feeling the stifling anxiety.

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Roan

I smiled to see him who seemed embarrassed to receive my kiss and chose to lock the door of his room tightly.

Just a second too late she ran away, I will definitely hit her and ask for my rights as her husband.

I felt so sorry for rejecting Lyra that I used to use words that hurt her heart.

I never realized how much that woman was actually a magnet in my life, she was the reason why I didn't want to date anyone.

Even when I asked Rani to date me, my other intentions besides avoiding gossip also wanted Lyra to focus on learning to graduate without thinking about me or friends gossip.

This stupid me unconsciously liked it a long time ago, but my arrogance made me deny it and choose to push it away.

At that time I just couldn't believe it, I could fall for a girl who looked geeky like Lyra.

His sudden departure made me realize how thirsty I was for the recognition of Lyra who always praised me in front of her friends.

Over time I was tormented in a longing that I could not express because he was gone.

When she returned as a more mature and attention-grabbing woman, I subconsciously didn't want to be away from her to make her my secretary.

Though other prospective applicants have better experience than Lyra.

This race of mine was crazy to know that he suffered so much just because of my impulsive message to him.

I wanted to hold it for a long time and say a thousand words of apology.

His rejection of me made me even more curious, because every time he rejected me he never really looked me in the eye.

When Lyra was drunk and first stayed here too, my man's instincts rumbled until I closed his body tightly with a thick blanket.

I'm a normal guy too!

I feel like I'm a fool when I face him.

Even at this time I could not sleep and still clearly felt a warm feeling while kissing her sweet lips.

The anxiety and desire to have it completely always churned when his face met red in front of me.

All right.your door lock is meeting - Lyra meeting!I don't know how much I can control myself if I keep looking at you like that!!!!