ISTIKHARAH LOVE

Scenario God #20

Pade Suryo once said, "if you leave something because of Allah, then Allah will replace it with a better one" and that is my foundation this time.

sometimes we have to leave something that has become part of our lives that cannot be separated, but without us realizing it is what makes us left behind and only the road in place.

when leaving, sometimes fatigue approaches, the feeling of wanting to give up, the feeling is no longer strong, but it turns out all the feelings are very reasonable.

we must indeed feel tired, give up and be afraid to finally meet happy.

remember that! Heaven cannot be in a free way.

when trying to leave, we also often feel alone, walking alone without a foothold, walking alone without knowing where the real direction is.

we just feel the wind, guessing every inch of the road that passes.

but we forget that no human being in this world is left alone.

we forget that there is still a Creator God who is always in us.

his guidance will always be there, if we ask for it.

his path is always easy if we are willing to obey him.

He comes when we feel dirty and sinful, but not infrequently we also lose HIM when we feel clean and holy.

on a stormy night, on a foggy morning, He always accompanies us, guides us, without ever for a second leaving us.

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after they disappeared in the crowd, I went back to my room.

I walked down the corridors and hallways of the deserted hospital.

no more boisterous sounds of patients, only one or two visitors coming out of each patient's room.

sometimes they greet me, and make a smile.

I intend to see Dion first, which I hear he has recovered.

but when I opened the door to his room, no one was there.

the room was empty, there were only two beds of patients lined up neatly, with the same blankets and pillows.

I returned to my room, on the way I passed Sister Celine.

"excuse me, Sister Celine" I said as I called her who passed by me.

he looked and said

"It Doc? can I help you?" tannya

"Nothing, I just want to ask, Mmmm Dion has gone home??" answer me

"Follow, already from two or after the Doctor took leave Dion was invited by the Panti, and his condition was also very good, so the hospital allowed him to be treated at home" he explained at length

"hmmmm, thank God, I just didn't say goodbye"

"ohhh yeah, sorry Doc, I forgot to tell you"

"it's okay, I'm glad Dion's been accepted into the parlour again"

Sister Celine nodded, and I continued my words

"if you'll excuse me, thank you, sorry to interrupt the time"

"yes Dok is the same"

then Sister Celine walked out from before me.

I walked back to my room.

I propped my head up, a little I massaged as I could, I applied the eucalyptus oil I used to wear.

I rub it around the neck, put it back and I massage.

my body began to feel shivering, until finally I was no longer strong enough to support my own weight.

since that incident I don't remember how it went.

all I know is, now I've been lying on my couch.

I opened my eyes, the time showed at 2 am, I swept all corners of my room, until I found Doctor Kinan who was sleeping with a position sitting under my feet.

I tried to stand up, and I carried Doctor Kinan to the sofa where I was lying, and I covered him with my Doctor's suit.

he was still asleep, his face was very tired, his cheeks were not red anymore, but a little pale.

I went out to look for maybe there is still a store or a shop that is still open in the cafeteria, I just remembered that I forgot my lunch, and had not had time for dinner.

I followed up that night, but the results were nil.

I sat on the bench waiting in front of one room, keeping my eyes closed trying to fall asleep.

but soon someone came out the door and rebuked me.

"Good night Doc"

I tried to smile and reply.

old Man may be around 60 years old.

"Good night sir" I replied

he sat next to me

"my wife who is sick, has been treated approximately 3 days, Alhamdulillah now has improved" he said

I understand the nature of parents, they do not need to be provoked to be able to tell stories.

"What's your mother sick, sir?" much

"ahhhh usual diseases of the elderly, yes uric acid, yes cholesterol, my wife used to be very fond of eating a lot of food, now only the feeling of the effect."

"mmmm so, I hope you get well soon sir"

"Aamiin, he has started to forget the people around him, fortunately just as I still remember.

"sorry Doc I'm disturbing"

"that's okay sir, I'm even happy when listening to stories from parents like father, I also often hope, I also often hope, if someday I can also age together with people I love, such as my father and mother"

"Doctors have families??" tanyakanya.

"Not yet" I replied, shaking my head

"Father of Doaka may Gusti Allah soon meet the Doctor with his soul mate, so that he can age together" he said while patting my shoulder

"Aamiin, thank you. healthy yes sir, so you can keep Mom"

he smiled, his smile reminded me of my parents.

"then excuse me Doc" said the father, then walked away from me

in my heart I murmured

"o Allah, let my parents, though they are now separated, though we cannot get back together, but I beg them to be happy with their families, to be happy with them in their old age, don't take them away from me once in a while without me at his side."