ISTIKHARAH LOVE
Better to Fail in an Experiment than to Just Shut Up and Cuss the World!
not long after Zahra came to me who was sitting on the bench.
“ada what tooo mas looking for me???” ask zahra.
I kept quiet and answered.
“gini lohhhh, Insyaalloh this week mas the same others want to make mass circumcision for the children of the village here. nahhh Mas ask for help zahra can???”
“hmmmm InsyaAlloh mas, will zahra try”
“okkk deh that..”.
“njeh mas.. if already Zahra saying yes mas.... Assalamualaikum”
“waalaikumsssalam”
I used to feel strange with Zahra's cold attitude this time, but. ahhh already maybe Zahra is BadMood or indeed exhausted with all the activities he does.
I walked back to my Kobong, before I got there.... and it looks like a man is sitting with Kyai Arif. I don't know who he is, which he certainly is not a santri here, but what I salute his voice is very calm heart , I want to feel like I can be like him.
“Assalamualaikum”
Suddenly someone from behind me said a greeting, I reflexively turned around and it turned out to be Zahra.
“Waaa waalaikumssalam... ehhh Zahra”.
“what is it to Mas Jhonatan that rich tips???”
“hmmmmm anu... “ I was confused to answer what, but how relieved when it was zahra directly called Kyai Arif before I answered his question, he said, I decided to get out of there and go back to my cowboy.
Arriving at the kobong turned out no one was there, maybe Ricky was Tadarus the night I thought in my heart, finally I decided to sleep first.
But somehow this eye is very difficult to shut down, I also get out of bed and open my Laptop to complete the Program that we will use at the end of our task later, it does not feel like the clock has shown at 11 pm, but these eyes have not felt sleepy, I see some students start to arrive and start getting ready to sleep.
"Mas Jhonathan doesn't want to sleep yet??" ask a santri
" hmmm, it doesn't seem like it's de.."
"that's why I slept first, Mas Jo"
"yes, please, jangn forgot to read the prayer" I said.
the sound of someone walking towards my cowboy, maybe ricky thought to me, but my guess was wrong.
“Assalamualaikum”
“Waalaikumsalam”
He smiled and approached me, then extended his hand towards me.
“i Ihrom, this is Jhonatan right??” brighten him
“iyaaaa.. know where my name is” tanyaku.
“it...” he pointed to Nametag lying near my laptop..
We laughed and Ihrom spoke.
“by the way, earlier Kyai Arif told me to stay here.I initially refused, but because of the Late time conditions I finally just said yes, and he told me to sleep here, but I was not here, You don't mind sharing a Room with me”
“of course not, but I'm here with my friend so it's okay ya jostling” explained.
“hmmmm it's okay, I'm in the cottage as well as it”
“if you can know this child Pondok also??” my many.
But before he answered, Ricky came to surprise us both.
“wahhhhhhh new temen nihhh, what's your name brooo” ask ricky
“knew gw Ricky” he continued
Then Ihrom answered
“ok ok ok... hoammmm I sleep first lah” said ricky
“Sorry yes Rom... the rich Ricky is very shy.
“hahaha relax aja” says ihrom
Finally we talked for quite a long time until the time had shown at 1 o'clock.
“wahhh gk kerasi 1 hour ago nih...” said me.
“if you sleep first Jo, I want to go to the mosque first”
“ngapain malem-malem”
While walking he answered
“ tahajud”
He hurried to leave me and I decided to rest because tomorrow will be very long.
But these eyes are so hard to shut, I roll here and there but still these eyes cannot be compromised.
“sleep napa joooooo” Ricky's voice is heard and I'm not concerned.
Ricky woke up saying’
“why luuu joooooo???? Sick??”
I just kept quiet while trying to close my eyes.
But all of a sudden I thought I'd better just tell Ricky, who knows he can provide constructive motivation.
“ehhhhhhh ky... you are still literate right???”
“it was brushed, but because of you.. now I can sleep. kenapeh”.
“kalo looo like same girl.”.
“yaaa is the same girl I'm still normal.”
“ehhhhh dengerin first .. nihhh yaaa if you again like the same girl, but you are afraid to reveal because you feel bad, you feel you don't pantes with the doi, you are afraid to make things worse, what will you do??” ask me.
Ricky stood up and approached me.
“nihhhhh jooooo... good definition according to lo is not necessarily good for the girl, and bad looo is not necessarily bad in the eyes of the girl, he said, people who really love you will never care about the bad you, so I suggest whatever you do. just do it, whatever you do, do not be influenced by the stigma that Cowo is good for good girls, do not you identify if you must be better than doi. Everyone has their own positive side, the key is trust, trust and most importantly effort.”
“but I'm afraid of failing Ky...” lamented me.
“yaelahhhhhh... nihhh yaa better you fail in the experiment than you just keep quiet, so the loser and just be a team of applause behind the happiness of your bustle with the other one, laen, do you want to be rich?"
“ya not, erus Iw must how ky???” ask me
“leave everything to God, your task just follow His terms, do not forget prayer and effort ... dahhh that's all, anyway about the soul mate not who knows, right??”
“thanks yes Ky....”ucapku.
“sipppp, anyway I'm sure anyone who now lo again incer if emang already god created lo will not taper jooo”
“gw also hope so Ky.. doain gw ya Ky”.
Ricky got up next to me and threw a pillow in my face he said
“alah Lo slept there Jo”
“nahhhh you go where HARTONO???” much
“kepalang I have fixed will not be able to sleep again, I want Tahajud aja dah, who knows in the mosque I can sleep again”
After Ricky left I tried to fall asleep and tried to temporarily forget about this problem, hearing what Ricky was talking about, I felt more challenged, I felt that I was not as bad as I thought.
for that I will fight for what I want to get.
