ISTIKHARAH LOVE

Scenario God #18

Diverse, not different. Color, not the same.

We are united because of feelings not because we are the same.

Because it is true, my prayer beads are still different from your rosary beads.

LDR furthest away when Assalamualaikum was reciprocated with Shalom.

Love was created to make a difference. Although religion is the difference.

Although happiness has not yet been met, this togetherness is what we deserve to enjoy. As we think about what we will do next.

You, are the impossibility that I have always considered.

Part of me felt pain remembering her very close, but untouchable self.

God is one, we are not the same.

Do not try to embrace something that you have predicted you will not be able to hug.

Tell your Lord I want to love His people. Not taking from him.

If God unites man with love, why does God separate man from difference?

Pray for each other even with different beliefs.

Because the believers will meet at the end of the story not at the beginning of the story like us.

We already know, you and I have a path that leads to injury.

in this heart of only one name is in my heart, I want this beautiful loyalty unmatched only you one fairy of my love, the fortress so high it is difficult to reach, I want this beautiful loyalty, does not the love of grace give me the opportunity to take care of her whole soul.

after my first meeting with both Kinan's parents went against our will, we finally decided to follow what they wanted, a relationship without certainty will continue or not.

for a few days Kinan and I kept quiet not greeting each other, not for what, we just wanted to reassure our hearts and strengthen them again.

Father and Mother Kinan often visited Jakarta after the incident, we finally decided to keep our distance first.

I'm sure this way our love will get tighter.

it was heavy at first, but over time it made us aware of the real word Miss.

"Jo, since your departure to Bandung, Kinan why no longer visit this House?"

I can only answer "Kinan is Busy Mom, later if it is not busy it must come here again, I don't have to worry, Jojo and Kinan are fine"

sometimes she also talked about her desire to see me married before God brought her home.

"each Prayer Mother always asked the Gusti Allah not to be called before Mother saw the beloved son of this Mother menikaj with the woman of her tribe" said Mother.

I just said, "Just pray Mom, hopefully soon".

Mother's condition has begun to improve actually, Kinan's persuasion for Mother to do all the process of Chemotherapy and treatment is finally successful, already a few weeks Mother has been able to do homework that was previously handled by Sumi ma'am.

Ms. Sumi deliberately invited me to Mother's House to take care of Mom while I was in the Hospital.

*kring... cring....*

my phone alarm went off, the clock was at 1:30 in the morning, I was getting ready to perform my evening service.

tahajud then continued with Istikharah, the night air infiltrated through the gap of the window of the room, the breeze brought the unstoppable longing.

the sound of the night beast was earthy without stopping, the city was still sound asleep, that night the middle moon was shining quite brightly, some stars were also visible in the corner of the sky.

that night my prostration took a while, to tell the Creator, when else to tell the earth but be heard by the sky right?

unknowingly these tears flowed without warning.

"Allah is merciful, merciful, and turns over the hearts of his servants, the line of life you have been teaching for my life is very winding, not as smooth as the line of others, not that I am ungrateful, I am very grateful for what you entrusted, born from family, have loyal friends accompany me in all circumstances, the career journey of my Doctor was quite smooth, too, but I feel there is still something lacking in this life that I live, I just ask that in a movement to meet the soul mate that you have prepared, I ask, let me perfect my religion before Mom closes her eyes, I want you to be happy to see me happy with someone who will someday accompany me to old age.

O Allah, if it is Kinan that you mean, then begin our path, no more hindrances, I understand that you are all-knowing of what is best for each servant"

suddenly I remembered Pa'De Suryo, it had been a long time since I had come back to Jakarta, no longer in contact with him.

I was thinking of visiting her later on my leave at Aprove by the Hospital.

and at a glance I intend to invite Kinan to visit my hometown.

Mount Kidul Yogyakarta.