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****a few months later****

04:00

kring... kring ....

The phone alarm woke me up, I immediately rushed to perform the Fajr Prayer Service.

in this house I really live alone, as I have told you before, My mother and father divorced a long time ago, now they both have their own new family, alone, at first it was very difficult to live like this, especially after the death of Uncle.

but what can I do, everything I have to face with all my heart, because my life still has to go on.

after my activities in Gunungkidul were completed, my class friends and I continued their lecture life as usual, especially for the final students like us who were busy.

Activities a few months ago also changed my life a little, which I never really approach the creator, gradually I began to improve myself.

I always remember what Mr. De Suryo said "if you expect a good woman, you also have to be good first, because a good woman is good for a good man".

for that I now begin, but actually not merely because I expect a good "fool" but in this way I feel the peace that I was looking for, and of course, I am doing my duty as a Muslim.

oh yeah, you remember Zahra and Ihrom??

all I hear is that they are already legal to be a husband and wife, and all I hear is that now Zahra is pregnant with their first baby 😊

what am I feeling??

"i'd be a fool to keep expecting Zahra, and I'd be selfish not to let Zahra be happy with anyone else".

Ricky and Citra?

they are still in a relationship, which I see indeed they are happier than before, but after this graduation I and they will soon be separated, because Citra will take Specialists to Germany, he said, and Ricky has been admitted to one of the Private Hospitals in Bandung District.

at first it was sad, but for the sake of each of us' future, back again I must be heartened to part with them.

we have agreed to visit each other, except Citra, because for one or two years Citra must focus on the path she has chosen.

Me??

Alhamdulillah there are several offers to work in Surabaya, Yogyakarta, and Jakarta, but I chose Jakarta and Starting next month I can already work at the Hospital in the Jakarta area.

why didn't I choose Yogyakarta? while there is an offer to enter me to work there, can't I often stop by the cottage? maybe that's your question.

What is clear is that I do not want to reopen those memories, I just want everything to be remembered in my heart, nothing more.

but, someday I will return to visit him, to fulfill my promise to the people there, to Sahil, to PakDe.

After I have fulfilled all my promises, for the next time, I will begin my new life, sail across the vast ocean, stop at the other docks, until I find what I am looking for.

yaaa a Woman who can accept all my shortcomings, accept all that is in me, to jointly build our own Pier, before the Creator.