ISTIKHARAH LOVE

There is always a road

Arriving at the Clinic I still did not see Ricky and Citra, it turns out they went to the cottage.

at the clinic there was only Siti's mother who was sweeping the floor, Some Nurse chatted in the waiting room, and PaDe Suryo who was sitting on the terrace of the Clinic.

"Assalamualaikum, good morning PaDe" I said as I reached for his hand

"Waalaikumsalam, where??" tannya

"from PaDe's breakfast, PaDe has breakfast??"

he nodded and told me to sit next to him.

"here to sit, someone wants PaDe to ask"

I approached and sat beside him, a few seconds of silence created, until finally PaDe opened the conversation.

"After PaDe's mom is with your dad's a good guy"

I nodded without saying, then he continued his words .

"but why did they get this way, to the point that the only child was left like this" he said as he rubbed my shoulders.

"But I do not feel abandoned PaDe, Mother and Father do not run away from their responsibilities as parents, they still give Me Facilities, shelter, living expenses, until education.." I have not finished, I have not finished, PaDe cut my conversation.

"but there's one thing they forget"

for a moment I was silent, and so was he.

"the responsibility of the orantua is not just to provide facilities as you just said, more than that, they should be able to participate in educating you, giving Good Religious Science to you, he said, and that's what they forgot, now PaDe's asking you" he faced me, his eyes were shining sharply, and he said.

"You Love Zahra?? you wish Zahra could be your companion?? but remember son, the soul mate is a reflection of ourselves, now if you still stay like this, yes do not expect Gusti Allah will give way to you to be able to be with Zahra, yes, it started out as small things." He was still looking at me.

"Sholat, draw near to you, ask Allah to make it easy for all ways"

"but I've gone too far PaDe, I'm ashamed, I'm afraid God won't accept me, I repent.."

"it's a recent affair, the most important one from here" he said, pointing to my chest

"if you are truly of the Heart, there is no more reason... PaDe knows you're a good kid, a smart kid, you must understand what PaDe just said.. God willing there will always be a way" he said, patting my shoulder, then leaving me.

I just fell silent and thought about everything he said, I did confess to being Muslim, but After some events knew back, I felt very distorted, I never prayed, Fasting moreover.

one time I really felt lost, I had time to question where God was when I needed him, where He was when I was in distress, loneliness, and loneliness.

I never felt His existence again, as if I were walking in this world alone.

as I was being speechless unconsciously, Citra patted my shoulder.

"Jo??? wh why?? You sick??" tannya

I suddenly regained my senses and wiped away the tears that were about to drip, then turned my eyes away.

"do you cry Jo??" Citra asked while forcing my face to turn in front of her.

"no Cit, I'm okay, just not ready to leave this village" I said, but I know Citra is not sure what I'm talking about.

"mmmmm... Jo, I already know you lamaaaaaa very, automatically I know when you say honestly the same when you boong, I will not make you make a story, but if you need me, I will not make you, don't hesitate, I'll always be there for you" The image holds my shoulder and rests his head on my shoulder.

"Cit.." I said

The image let go of her backrest and looked at me.

"yes."

"is God really there??" much

"ko-lo said that, Jo! who created you if not God??" the answer slightly increased the volume of his voice.

"no, I mean, if there is any, but why when I need it, I never feel its presence, I'm really rich alone, continue if God really exists, really exists, why does God let me be lonely"

I fell silent listening to her every word, then the image continued.

"Why isn't jo?? "

"gw likes Zahra Cit, but think about it so you can expect a woman like Zahra, while I'm a rich gini, how can I take her to the right path, really, there's tar instead I'm not guiding"

"Joe... If you really love and wholeheartedly you want Zahra to be your life companion, yes really live lo, pray again, start earning again, Continue many prayers, ask the same God"

"gw ngerasa if I've already insulted Cit, I've run too far" not finished then Citra cut my conversation.

"yes not Jo, as long as your intention is to really want to improve yourself, no matter how far you are now, God in his millions of ways will still approach you, if I ever read gini

"How to walk to God, then 10 thousand Steps of God approached you, Kalo Lo approached God by Walking then God by Running will approach you"

it is never too late, InsyaAlloh there is always a Way, Spirit!!" said Citra while holding my hand with her hand.

I smiled at what Citra just said,

"Thanks yes Cit, you've always been there for me, just lo same Ricky who can nerima gw with my rich gini conditions, you've been very patient ngadepin gw moddyan, you've been very patient, I'm a guy but cemen, even lo who often I make sprains, I hope you same Ricky will continue like this yes Cit"

"ahhh Jo, ko I'm so melow gini anyway ah.." The image rubbed its eyes that almost shed tears

we laughed together, then Ricky from behind came up to us.

"laughter no rhyming, surely you're on again talking gw ya???" Ricky said while sitting next to Citra.

"hadeuh lu timeingya kaga exactly Ky anyway, so ruined the atmosphere tau tau??" image said as he patted Ricky's thigh

"ohhhh so that's it, now on pinter playing back yaaa, look out lo Jo if macem-macem same Princess gw" Ricky pointed at me, while the other hand embraces Citra, I spontaneously refuted what Ricky was thinking.

"eits.. briefly bosque, this is not all like you have in mind, santuy lah" I said

"jo, you know what?? " ask Ricky

"what the fuck??"

"beb not telling a story?? " ricky said as he looked into Citra's eyes, his hands were not off of Citra's shoulders, then I just realized what Ricky was trying to tell me.

"a little while, are you guys??" ask me with an expression of disbelief.

Ricky smilingly nodded his head, I saw Citra also smiling, the look on her face turned red.

I got out of my seat and hugged Ricky and said.

"congratulations bro, finally your struggle has been fruitful sweet as well, congratulations, congratulations, I doain may last nyampe marriage level, the pokonya nyampe death separate dah"

Ricky and Citra simultaneously say "Aamiin"

"when??? ko gw kaga know?? ko you never told Ky?? " many

"not too long ago Jo, just this morning" Citra replied with a slightly embarrassed face.

"ohhh so that this morning to the princess's cottage turned out."

Ricky and Citra just smiled.

"ko you want Cit?? tar nyesel loh" my candlestick as I close my face to Citra's face.

"ahhhh, fuck you Jo, the edges are still not good"

Ricky replied as he slightly pushed my body.

"but really I'm serious"

"if Love doesn't need a reason anymore" replied Ricky accompanied by a smile Citra who was still blushing.