ISTIKHARAH LOVE

Scenario God #5

"God will not give a test to his people beyond the means of his people."

that speech that I believe, like school, life is a learning process, when we want to go to class, then the exam is one that must be passed, if we want to get a rank, then the exam is one that must be passed, then more effort must also be devoted.

"mom, I'm sorry Jojo ma'am, Jojo can never be a dutiful boy.." I hugged him tightly, tears were constantly pouring in, Mother kept quiet, she said, his cheeks were moist, his hands were not wrinkled, while my stepfather, trying to hold back his tears that were also about to bide his time to surge out.

"it's okay, baby, the wrong mom, since you were little, when you were a mom was more at work than you, you can't be the perfect mom figure for you, even when you graduate, I'm still busy with Mom's work"

mother rubbed my hair, her tears getting wetter.

"maybe this is a rebuke from God, so that Mother spends more time with this Mother's child.. Jojo no need to worry anymore yes, I have submitted resignation from Mother's work, now I want to make up for lost time, even though we can not repeat it from the beginning, but Allow Mother to create a new memory with you yes, before Mother is picked up by God"

"Mother should not say, For what Mother has a son a Doctor, if can not heal his own mother, Jojo will take care of Mother, Jojo will ask for help to other Doctors, if you can not heal his own mother, Jojo will take care of Mother, Jojo will ask for help to other doctors, so that you can be healthy again, be happy again."

"don't have to baby, I'm happy with you like this"

I just shook my head, without a word being said.

I don't know how to respond, it feels like the sky is falling on me, alone.

all the way to the hospital, I was ceaselessly praying that God would give me a way out of what was being faced.

I've tried to persuade Mother to follow all the series of treatment, Doctors experts I've called one by one, they are ready to help me, but Mother was tight with her stance, he said, He assumed that even in vain to treat, the disease was too strong to be cured, which there Mother would only waste money, and trouble me, he said.

Mom just asked me to spend more time with her, that's it, nothing more.

when I got to the hospital, I went straight to Dion, without keeping the bag I was carrying.

I saw from outside Dion lying down, either asleep, or just closing his eyes.

I was about to enter, but Doctor Kinan suddenly restrained me from the side.

"Don't do it Doc" he said as he grabbed my hand that was about to open the door.

I was surprised, and looked at him

"why??" my many.

"the morning Dion's parents came here, Sister Celine called him."

"last night after the Returning Doctor, Sister Celine was accompanying Dion, and it seems like Dion told a lot of stories to Sister Celine"

"why can't I go in??"

"said Sister Celine, Dion had a great fight with his parents, and he asked not to be disturbed first"

hearing that I was only ignoring the words that came out of Doctor Kinan's mouth, I forced my way in.

I walked over to Dion who was still closing his eyes.

"good morning Dion"

but there's no answer

I kept getting closer, I sliding the iron chair beside the bed where Dion lay.

"Dion sleeping??" I asked while stroking her hair

but still no answer.

for a while Dion opened his eyes, then turned to look at me.

"good Morning Doc" he said with a smile

"how?? already meningan??" much

"lumayan Dok, now you can sit, yaaa although not strong for long"

"it's okay, slowly it can be ko"

he nodded.

"Said Doctor Kinan, Mama earlier, papa are you here?? right??"

"iya Dok" he replied as he turned his face away from me.

"Can't the doctor see you??"