I Hate Loving Him!!!

Chapter 89

I didn't come after you when you left

Not because I don't love anymore

But I want to stop

We hurt each other

I'm not keeping you here

Not because I'm not happy anymore

But now I realize

Love does not have to have each other

Better to separate

Than to keep getting hurt

Because I'm always wrong

I was honestly traumatized

There was a song on the radio in my car, accompanying me on my way to the religious court.

The end of this time comes as well, I will carry out my first divorce trial.I have to calm down to face all of this, too,although honest in my little heart there was a deep feeling of sadness that I could not explain.

I'm going to really lose mas Pras.Our marriage really ran aground because of the third person.

Anin, you must be strong.

I let out a long sigh, so heavy was the burden I felt right now.While I had no one to complain to or tell stories to.

Even though there was a nursing home, but still she wasn't my biological family.

I really feel like I'm a kara in this world.

A round of tears forced out of my eyelids, I rushed to wipe them.I must not cry anymore.

Too often I let out tears of sadness.I drove my vehicle slowly.

Before the trial I want to stop by the place of Panti's mother first.I want to ask her to accompany me to come to the first trial later.

I called her last night and the mother of the parlour would accompany me.It's all I have right now.

I want it all to end quickly, so that I and Pras can continue our lives.

And I'm going to roll out a new status, a title that never existed in my dreams.

We can only plan, but God determines everything.

Seen Miss the parlour was waiting for me in front of the parlour.See He smiled when he saw me.

The mother of the home also got into the car.

I also touched her.

"Thank you, ma'am, for accompanying Anin today."I said to the mother of the parlour.

"It's my duty to accompany you.Mom will always be there for you."Say mother of the home again with a smile.

"Thank you mom."I said while holding the hand of the mother of the home.

"Yes son, we're leaving now."Said the Miss of the home again.

I nodded and drove my vehicle.

We left the home and rushed to the court.

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Half an hour drive, at the end we arrived at the court.Before entering the court I had seen the car mas Pras parked in the court yard.

Her appearance mas Pras was present.I tried to calm my heart.

Arriving inside seen in front of the courtroom there is mas Pras and his Mami.See Mami smiled when she saw me.

Me and the mother of the orphanage directly approached her.I also immediately greeted her.

He immediately hugged me.

"Mommy's healthy Mi?Anin misses Mami too."I said to Mami while hugging her.

Mami is a very good mother-in-law.He never differentiates me with his biological children.Similarly with Papi.

"Honey Mommy's healthy."Mommy said to me.

"Thank God Mi, Papi didn't come here Mi?"Ask Mama.

"But again out of town baby, so Papi sends greetings to you dear."Mommy said to me.

"Ehh, mom, we haven't seen each other for a long time" Mami said to the parlour mother.

My mom also cheers on the mother's home as well.

Mas Pras was silent and stared at me.He immediately approached me.

I also touched her.

He greeted her and immediately said to me.

"Can I talk to you for a minute."Pras said to me.

"What are you talking about?"Ask her.

"There's something important that I'd like to talk to you about for a second."His words begged me.

I was silent, there was a sense of hesitation to accept Mas Pras' invitation, but on the other hand I was curious about what he wanted to talk to me.

I looked at Mami and the mother of the orphanage.See they gestured for me to follow Mas Pras.

I nodded and followed Mas Pras.

We sat a little far away from Mami and the housewife.

"What do you want to talk about again with Anin." I asked her.

He smiled at me.

"Mas misses you so much nin."Pras said to me.

"What do you want to talk to Anin about."I said cutting off the talk of Mas Pras.

I don't want to get carried away with her anymore.Honestly I still love mas Pras.But I don't want to go back on her.

I let this feeling continue until it is completely gone from my feelings.

"Mas just wanted to say, if later we really part mas please do not stay away from Mami.Mas do not want mami sad."Pras said to me.

I was silent, there was a feeling of sadness in my heart.Mami was indeed very good to me.

"Yes mas, Anin will often visit Mami.Anin will not forget with Mami.Mami already Anin considered like Anin's own biological mother."I said to Pras.

"Mas happy to hear it, I hope Anin can be so with mas as well.Don't ever hate the mas.Mas still love you very much."Pras Mas said slowly.

"Anin has forgiven mas.Anin will not hate the mas.Anin always pray for the best for mas."Say me to her.

"Thank you Anin, even though it's heavy for mas.But mas will accept it.Mas does not want to make you hurt again.Mas will simplify this process later."Say it to me.

There is a feeling of relief and a feeling of sadness to hear the words of mas Pras.Ia as already resigned to this situation.

"Thank you mas.Anin appreciate the goodwill mas.Anin pray mas can be happy with the choice of mas."Say it while standing.

"If you knew Anin what you are feeling right now," said Mas Pras.

Pras has not had time to continue his conversation.Terdenngar voice calls to enter the courtroom.

Before long my name and mas Pras were called to enter the courtroom.

"As we've been called mas, remember the promise mas with Anin.Mas will make things easier."Say it with Mas Pras.

Mas Pras just nodded slowly and followed me into the courtroom.

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