I Hate Loving Him!!!

Chapter 69

Arriving at home I rushed down from the car and into the house.Hearing the long debate between Papi and mas Pras quite make me tired

Along the way home there was not a word that came out of my mouth or mas Pras.We were busy with each other's thoughts.

It is too heavy a trip that we face at this time.I have to get used to it without mas Pras.

Because soon We will end all her.My marriage and mas Pras will be over soon.

I'm heading upstairs, like her I want to soak in the bath up using warm water.Like her can relieve my stress this time.

"Anin," said Mas Pras pulling my hand.

"What's wrong??"Say me to her.

I was surprised to see He held my hand.Hal which has not been done by him for a long time.Boleh in saying I have not felt the touch of mas Pras.

"I want to sleep with you tonight."Say it to me.

"What mas???you want to sleep with me??"I don't believe what he said.

"Yes, I hope you'll allow it, before we end it all."Say it to me.

What does Pras mean like this??I hesitate to agree to mas Pras' request.I no longer want to get carried away with her.

Because anyway I still love her.

"Like it doesn't work, think about Davina's feelings."Say me to her.

I think by carrying the name Davina must be mas Pras changed his mind.

"Why is he with her??I'm still your husband Nin, I beg you tonight."Say it again.

I was confused whether I should allow it or not.

"Nin, can't you??"Ask her again.

"For what???"Ask me again.

"I want to see you before we part.55t

"Well, but I promise not to do anything wrong to me."Say me to her.

"What does nin mean??Ask her again.

"Yes, I know what I mean."Say me again.

"Well, nin, I promise."Say it while smiling.

I went into the room and took a shower.

I don't know why my mind is chaotic at this time, my chest is very deg-deg an not as usual.

Like his mas Pras was waiting for me in the room.Why I became uncomfortable with his mas Pras in my room.

I came out of the bathroom, I saw Mas Pras was staring at the laptop.Such as he was finishing his report.

I rushed to get clothes and went back to the bathroom.I felt uncomfortable wearing clothes in front of Mas Pras.

"Anin, where are you going??"Pras suddenly told me.

"Eh, I want to change clothes first to the bathroom."Say me to her.

"Why not just here.Are you ashamed of me??"Ask Pras to me.

He was staring at me.

"No, I'd like to put on some face cream."Said I was lying.

May He not realize that I lied to him.

He suddenly approached me.

What does he want to do to me??

It's getting closer to me.

"What do you want with me??"I asked her.

Now my position is very close to her.There is not even a gap between the two of us anymore.

"I miss you Nin," he said as he looked at me.

I immediately threw my face away.I do not want to look into the eyes of mas Pras.

"Please let go of me mas, Mas can't be like this to me."Say me again.

"Why can't it??Aren't I still your husband??"Say it again to me.

"But we've been willing to part, let's just say there's nothing left between the two of us."Say me again.

He tightened his embrace on me.

"Look into my eyes, Nin, tell me that you don't love me anymore."Say it to me.

How is this, I can not do it.I really still love her.But I do not want to continue to survive because I feel pain betrayed by her.

"I beg you, let go of me and don't touch me."I said begging him.

"Why don't you dare look at me Nin??Do you love me??"Ask him to me.

"No, I don't love you anymore mas."Say me to her.

"Is that really???so you look me in the eye, and tell me that you don't love me anymore."Say it to me.

Anin,, calm nin,, quiet,,,

You should be able to do it, you should make sure mas pras if you really don't love him anymore.

"Well, I don't love you anymore!!"I said while looking into her eyes .

He came closer to me, bringing his face closer to me.

And he kissed me, too,,

I just fell silent, and I started to enjoy it.

I do miss her, Whatever about her I miss her.

My God, why is there no rejection from myself when mas Pras did that.

Is it because I still love her, that I get carried away at this time.

I let mas Pras continue my hate, until He put me on the bed.His hands began to strangle my pajamas.So now I'm really almost without a single piece of clothing.

I kept staring at his face, I completely forgot that he had hurt me.

I let Mas Pras continue to kiss me, I also welcome all his games.

He made me so lustful, I was filled with lust at this time.So I and Mas Pras really enjoy it.

"I love you Anin," mas Pras told me.

"I love you too."Say me to her.

Mas Pras looked at me.

"Do you really still love me Nin??Do you really still love me??"Ask him to me.

I just realized what I just said to her.Why I can tell her honestly.

Suddenly my tears rolled down my cheeks.

My heart is really sad at this time, It should be me and mas Pras happy at this time.

"Sorry I'm Anin, if I hurt you."Say it to me.

I kept crying in the arms of Pras.Mas pras kept hugging me tightly.

*I still love you mas,,,

I haven't sincerely left her*,,

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