I Hate Loving Him!!!

Chapter 4

After the incident mas Pras disappeared, Mas Pras more silent.He was often found daydreaming with me.

"Darling, why Mas??what are you thinking??"I asked while rubbing his shoulders.

"It's okay, the mas is just tired.Mas rest first yes," he said as it passed from me.

Why is he so indifferent to me??he even passed by from me.There are no more hugs and kisses I can get from him.

"What's wrong with you??"my question is in my heart.

I followed him to the bed.Then I also lay beside mas Pras.I hug him, there is no welcome from him.I kissed his cheeks.There is still no welcome from mas Pras.

"Mas, can Anin ask you something??"at the end I ventured to ask her.

"What do you want to ask??"answer Pras to me.

"Mas, why is Mas daydreaming so much now??what do you think, right??"I asked Mas Pras.

"I'm lazy to argue nin, I want to rest!!"her words were sniffling while turning her back to me.

Oh God, what really happened.Why did my husband change??even to sleep he did not want to hug me.Nearly two years of our marriage, every night at bedtime, We always hug.But tonight for the first time mas Pras turned his back on me.

Without feeling my tears fell.I am really sad.Did mas Pras not love me anymore??why he changed for me.

Tonight I fell asleep without a hug from mas Pras.Ia completely turned her back to me until morning.

"We will go home today nin," mas Pras told me.

"Why is it so fast??isn't it our week here mas??"I asked Mas Pras

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"No, there's an office business I have to do," he said.

"Okay mas, Anin packing things first yes," I said again.

"Yes if once I go downstairs to breakfast, then you will follow, or later I ask the waiter to bring your breakfast to the room,"Take it to me.

"Mas won't have breakfast with Anin??"ask again.

"Once in a while you have your own breakfast, right??time does it want to be the same I keep??"his face was not happy with my question.

"Okay mas, Anin let's have breakfast here." said I.

Mas Pras also passed from me and headed down to breakfast.Honestly I was sad to see mas Pras like this.It really changed me.Even He was willing to die alone for breakfast.Like not mas Pras who I know my words.Without feeling my tears were dripping again.

I also began to clean up all of our belongings.Either what I feel like at this time.Sadly, its all mixed up in this heart.

Ting tong,,, Ting tong,,,, uh,,,

My room bell rang.I ran to the front, I'm sure this is the waiter who delivered breakfast to me.It turns out my guess is correct, a waiter delivered breakfast to me.

"Excuse me miss, here's breakfast for miss," she told me.

The waiter passed from my room.I really have no appetite this morning.My heart is still sad to think about Mas Pras' attitude to me.Why did He turn indifferent to me??What was my fault that he changed for me.

Because I want to travel far the end of it I only drink warm tea and bread only.Lumayan to prop my stomach.I do not want if later I am sick because I do not have breakfast.At least there is something I eat in this morning.

Pras soon returned to his room.

"Are you all ready, nin??"her word to me.

"Yes, my mother, all is ready.We leave now mas??"I said to her.

"You go to the airport first, I still have a little business here.Let's a driver who takes you to the airport." said Mas Pras who made me surprised.

"What mas???Anin herself to the airport???you're not wrong??"I asked her.

"Yes, why??what's wrong You go to the airport first, not later I will also catch up with you right." said mas Pras without guilt.

"Why Anin is not together just mas, not her Anin can wait like yesterday again," I said slowly to her.

"You're insinuating me???"say it ketus.

"It's not so mas, Anin just don't want to go to the airport itself.Mas know that Anin can't speak English.Anin is afraid of mas,"Taught me again gently.

I hope Mas Pras changes his mind.I hope He pityes me.

"You don't have to be spoiled, don't you just usually be independent, right??you are currently not able to."Said Pras again.

"Well mas, let me alone to the airport.Then Anin does not understand Anin can go to google" I said again.

"Well, it's smart, it's gotta figure out what the husband says."Say it while smiling.

"It's so fast coming downstairs, the driver is waiting for you." he told me.

I also walked down, Mas Pras also came down with me carrying Kami's belongings.There was a sad feeling when I saw my mas pras.Imam, my husband who is currently completely changed on me.

"Bye Nin, be careful on the road.Wait for me at the airport ya." mas Pras told me.

"Yes mas, Mas be careful also yes, quickly come yes mas."I said while saluting him.

My heart felt sore when I died, Mas Pras.There was not the slightest feeling of anxiety from himself to see I went alone.Malah his face looks happy to let me go.

I stared at him, without feeling I shed tears.He looked at me, and the driver passed from him.

What happened to you mas, what are you hiding from me mas??Why don't you tell me a story I said while crying.

I don't care when the driver sees me crying.My heart is really sad at this time.I want to quickly get to Indonesia want to meet with the Mother of the orphanage.I want to hug her.It's where I complain and tell her.It's like my mother by oneself.

Dad, Mom, suppose you're still here, maybe Anin can tell you about what Anin is feeling right now.

I miss my parents.I need their hugs right now.

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