Heart Note

THE THIRTY NINE SECTIONS

It's been a week, Mas Leo has never called me, nor have I, ever told him again.

I don't want to hurt Rio any deeper. Enough of my farewell and Mas Leo to hurt his heart, I will never again incur the wound of his heart due to the disgusting deeds between me and his father, Mas Leo.

Sunday morning like this, usually Mas Leo has come to see Rio. But, for some reason today has not seen the trunk of his nose come home.

"Ma.." said Rio to me who is busy struggling with office work in Bude Sri's room rooftop.

"Yes, baby" I replied.

"Rio wants to leave with friends, today want to watch a football match at the Stadium" he said.

"Well, Agus isn't coming?" I asked the grandson of Bude Sri.

"Follow it too" Rio replied.

"This.." I gave her hundreds of thousands in cash.

"Thank you Ma"

I'm nodding.

"Papa also did not come today Ma, last night he contacted Rio" he explained.

"Oh, why?" I asked, pretending to be busy with eyes staring at the laptop.

"She said there was a sudden business"

"Oh that" I replied.

"Rio go first Ma" he said.

"Yes, be careful on the road, baby" I asked.

Rio pointed his thumb at me.

And I was again busy with work, even though the mind was not focused because it was thinking of Mas Leo.

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"I'm sorry" he said.

I looked at her face, tears were hanging in her eyes.

"Well, speak, say anything about me, curse me" he asked.

I still can't speak.

This sunny Monday morning, I was required to leave for Yogyakarta, there was a sudden job that I had to do there.

I also accidentally met Mas Leo at one of the famous restaurants in Yogyakarta. He's with a woman. My heart was pounding, my breathing was irregular. We met in the car park, he and the woman were just about to get in the car, while me and my work team just got there. Our eyes met, mouths silent, even smiles were not among us.

Leo called me back 1 hour later, and he asked me to meet. We met at the station this afternoon, before I left for Semarang.

"I don't know how Ayu should be"

"You don't need to be confused" I said.

"Jeez, but I don't love her"

"Love will come as time goes on, though we love each other but we can't be together, me and your mother can't be together, can't be one family, can't be one, let's not make the same mistake Mas" I said long.

"Error? Our old marriage was not a mistake" he said.

"Whatever it is Mas, if we get back together, I'm going to destroy it again Mas"

Leo was silent.

"May you be happy Mas" I stood up, and passed away from Mas Leo.

"Well, what about what we did yesterday" Mas Leo approached me.

"Forget it Mas, I will forget it, slowly, I want to go home to Semarang yes" said I.

With tears in my eyes I walked quickly to the toilet. I threw all my disappointment in the toilet. I can no longer afford to hide my sadness. With a slow cry I blew it all away.

I went out of the toilet to the sink, washed my face, so that it didn't look as if I was crying. Soon I'm out and looking for a drink.

"Well" Mas Leo's voice startled me, it turned out that he was waiting in front of this woman's special toilet door.

I'm turning.

"Why haven't you gone home yet?" my many.

"I'm worried about you Yu" he replied.

"There's nothing to worry about, I'm fine, just calm down" I patted her shoulder gently.

"You lied"

"liying? No" I smiled with force.

"That's why your eyes are red, your face is swollen, you were crying right in the toilet?" abugn.

"No, this is how I sleepy Mas, so it's my red eyes" I lied.

"Well, I will refuse Mom's request to marry that woman, I will wait for you until you are ready to come back to me, and I will convince Mom, in order to accept you" he said long.

"Don't Mas, don't be like that, follow your mother's request, don't think about me, I'll get used to it later, and don't be like this Mas, huh?" my door.

"But.."

"I go in first, don't worry about me" I said.

I passed, regardless of Mas Leo's call.

I returned to Samarang with a feeling of being blown to pieces. I realized this from the beginning, if we would not be together again, there was me who was not ready to accept Mother Mas Leo as my Mother-in-law back, I was afraid the cruelty of the woman back I felt. And I'm sure, Mother Mas Leo also did not want me to return with Mas Leo, I'm very sure that, as evidenced by the matchmaking between Mas Leo and other women.

But, the ego has enveloped my heart and mind and Mas Leo. We're back in a relationship that shouldn't have happened, we've crossed the line. The longing and love we still feel has blinded everything. Now, I myself am the one withholding the wound, enduring the pain, holding everything back.

This time, I really had to forget about it, forget about everything.