Heart Note

SECTIONS NINETEEN

The sound of Papa's antique clock waking my sleep. The sunlight had entered my room through the window forcing me to open my eyes due to the glare.

I lazily woke up from my sleep, and washed my face in the bathroom. I saw the clock perched on the wall of this room, it was eleven o'clock in the afternoon, I hurried out of the room, quiet.

I brewed my favorite cup of capucino coffee, from the kitchen I saw Bude harvesting my hydroponic vegetables in the backyard. Ikusul Bude who was busy harvesting vegetables, I sat in the gazebo not far from where Bude stood.

"Bude" call me

"Aren't you awake?" bude replied as he turned towards me.

"Yes, bad luck" I said embarrassedly.

Bude just smiled.

"Whatever else where is Bude? Very quiet" I said.

"Mother's father went to check up at Non's hospital"

"Rio?" ask me again

"Den Rio and Agus went with Den Leo, he said he wanted to buy school supplies" Bude replied.

I nodded while enjoying the coffee that soaked my esophagus.

"Non's okay, right?" bude said sitting in front of me.

"Well" I replied.

"Bude don't tell anyone, Bude, let alone Mama and Papa" I asked, holding Bude's hand which began to wrinkle.

Bude smiled and stroked my hands gently.

"Bude understands Non, but it's better Non explain the same parent Non slowly, more painful if Bapau Ibu know from others Non" he explained.

"Fear Bude"

"Trust me, Non's parents understand" said Bude.

"Bude Ayu's heart hurts so much when I remember it all, it hurts so bad Bude" I looked down.

"Yes Non, the patient is Non" Bude gently stroked my hand.

"Let's not want all the sad Bude" I said.

"Non, Non also have to think about himself Non also, Non must be happy" said Bude.

"How Ayu can be happy Bude, if they know, everything will be messed up Bude" I'm still as excited.

"Run according to Non good, if this is a good way according to Non walk Non, only one key is Non, Ikhlas. Non has to be sincere with everything that happens, and Non has to be sincere to forgive Den Leo. However Den Leo is Non's husband, it is obligatory for Non to respect him, therein lies our paradise as a wife, especially if now Den Leo has changed" at length Bude advised me. I cried even more at Bude's advice.

"Bude?" erased airmataku. Bude smiled to see me.

"I'm sorry Den Leo with a sincere heart, no human being does wrong, at that time maybe Den Leo can not think clearly because it is related to the life of his mother, because it is related to the life of his mother, if indeed Non wants to stick with Den Leo for the sake of happiness everything" Bude still stared at my face gently.

"Yes, Ayu understood Bude, thank you Bude" I approached Bude and hugged him tightly. Bude stroked my back gently, to calm down.

"Where are you going?" asked Mas Leo who saw me dressed neatly in the room.

"You see an old friend" I replied, looking in front of the mirror.

"Who?" ask again.

"School, girl" I replied.

"Go home and don't be in the mood" said Mas Leo following me out of the room.

I nodded in understanding.

After saying goodbye to Mas Leo, and asking permission to use the Pade Johan motorbike, I also left the house to my appointment with Karina.

After almost taking 15 minutes, I finally arrived at the cafe that Karina promised. After asking the cafe waiter, it turns out that Karina is waiting at the rooftop cafe.

I saw Karina looking straight ahead, she was daydreaming.

"It's been a while?" I asked to disperse Karina's daydream.

"Mr... Not new either" he answered wrongly.

"What do you want to eat?" tawar Karina's.

"Just like you" I replied, opening my jacket.

We just quietly dissolve in each other's minds until the food we ordered arrived.

"Let's get eaten" asked Karina to me.

"Where do you live?" ask pleasantries.

"Karina lives not far from Kok Mbak's office, ngeKos" he replied.

We went back into silence, only the clinking of the spoon clashing with the plate sounded. I saw Karina's face, which was like a lot of burden. The Karina I knew was very cheerful and chic, but now look at her being a quiet girl.

"Karina" I said as we finished lunch.

Karina looked at my face. The eyes are not as bright as they used to be.

"Are you okay?" I asked while gently stroking his hand.

"Mbak" said Karina, her eyes reddened and prepared to let out an outpouring of sadness.

I took her hand slowly, to calm her down.

"Sorry Karina yes Ma'am" he said. Collapsing was already that defense, tears fell drop by drop into his pink cheeks.

"It's okay Na, why should I apologize" I said and thrust the tissue I took out of my sling bag.

"Karina feels very guilty to Mbak, really Karina does not like this situation" he explained with a cry.

"Are Ma'am and Mas Leo okay?" Karina's been making sure of my relationship with Leo.

"Well, but it can't be what it used to be" I replied and sipped my ordered orange ice.

Karina looked at my face.

"Sir.." he said holding my hand tightly.

"Everything's happened, there's nothing we can do anymore, right?" my spoken.

"Their relationship is over, and Mbak feels our relationship is not okay, just waiting for the time bomb to explode" I explained again.

"Is that why Rio wants to continue his schooling here?" ask Karina.

"No, Rio does not know at all, Mbak tried hard to hide it, Mbak also asked Mas Leo to be ordinary if in front of Rio" explained me again.

"Why Mother?" ask Karina.

"Because of all this Mbak did for the sake of Rio, Mbak does not want Rio sad, Mbak does not want Rio hate Papanga, Mbak does not want Rio to grow without a father" I replied trying hard.

"Aren't you willing to sacrifice for all that?" ask Karina.

"Yes, you have to sacrifice feelings for Rio"

"I'm sorry Karina, Karina should have been more assertive so that none of that happened" he regretted.

"It's all happened" I said briefly.

"You yourself how's Na?" I asked Karina.

"Oh Ma'am, Karin seems to have been very angry at Mom and Mas Leo, although Karin knows Mas Leo was used by Mother, but Karin did not have the strength to fight Mother Ma'am, so since that incident Karin left the house, a house that for Karin a place of death full of warmth, turned into hell" he explained.

"So yesterday was very embarrassed by Mother's behavior" he said again.

"Did Mom and Mas Leo ever call you?" my many.

"Often Ma'am, very often but Karin hates them, hates their behavior" Karin said emotionally.

"Find your Mas he's so worried about you" I said.

"No Ma'am, Karin won't" he replied.

"Until when? The blood is thicker than water, until whenever you are Leo and Mom are still one" I advise.

"Sunday is not ready" he replied.

"Karina, everything has happened, there is nothing you need to regret anymore, Mas Leo and I must be very worried about you. They're where you came back" I tried to persuade him.

"What about Ma'am? I feel guilty for you" he said in tears.

"The mother will remain like this" I said with a smile.

"Until when?" ask Karina again.

"Come" I answered briefly.

"Will you divorce Leo someday?" ask Karin.

"Divorce is something you think about every day, so hard to live in the household after that betrayal, how very heartbroken Mommy to Mas Leo and Mommy, making Mbak really unable to live it. But, Mbak will keep trying until the deadline that do not Mbak know when, if in some time maybe Mbak can forget all the problems that occurred, and, or vice versa Maak will suffer more with this situation. If it really can't be maintained anymore, hopefully Rio can maturely understand. You just pray for the best for the Ma'am household" I explained.

"Today will always wish Mbak, Rio and Mas Leo all the best" he replied.