Heart Note

PART TWENTY

"Well" Papa called me when I helped Bude clean up the dinner table, after dinner. I left Bude for Papa and the others who were relaxing in the family room.

"What's the matter Pa?" I answered and sat down next to my mother.

"There's something Papa wants to talk to you and Leo about" Papa said, which made me tick.

"It's about Papa's company" Papa said.

"Why Pa?" manya curious.

"Father is old, now is the time for you and Leo to dedicate yourself to Papa's company, Papa it's time to retire, and Ayu it's time for you to resign from your job, you're Papa's only heir" Papa looked at me and Mas Leo took turns.

Me and Leo just kept quiet in my mind.

"You Papa gave me a month to think about it" Papa said.

"For Leo, Papa will help open your office branch here, Papa is sure to succeed, is not now your business in Jakarta is not good, because the competition is getting tighter" explained Papa again.

"Papa, Leo is only troublesome Papa" said Mas Leo lowered his head, I know there are still many regrets that he felt.

"Papa does not feel bothered, Papa believes in you" said Papa. I looked at Papa, how much love and trust Papa had in Mas Leo. I bit my lip and held my tears down.

"Jeeze, how?" Papa surprised me.

"Just think about it first Pa" I replied.

"Yes, Papa hopes a lot for you Ayu" said Papa.

The conversation continued on a light topic. Papa and Mas Leo were very busy discussing the topic of news on television. Mama and Bude were arranging flowers for a vase, Rio and Agus were playing a game together. How happy I am, I do not want this happiness to be ruined because of that problem.

"You don't be naughty while here with Eyang, don't bother Bude with Pakde" I told Rio when I was leaving Semarang.

"Yes ma" Rio replied with teary eyes. I tightly hugged Rio's body, I held back my tears so Rio wouldn't get sadder.

"Remember the message of Mama yes, and do not forget worship and diligent study" said Mas Leo. Rio immediately hugged her Papa body tightly.

After saying goodbye to Mama Papa and Bude, with Pade Johan we headed straight to the airport, before it was too late.

Mas Leo clasped my hand tightly as we walked towards the plane. Although I really don't want to but I will try to open my heart again like before. Mas Leo smiled at me, will only reply with a flat face.

Without Rio at home makes the atmosphere more quiet. During the day I and Mas Leo are very busy working, but if the night at home, it just feels quiet and quiet without Rio.

My relationship with Mas Leo is still like yesterday, I still cannot open my heart to forgive him with all my heart. What I felt for Leo was bland. Although Mas Leo tried to be a coolant but I always brushed him off. The shadow of betrayal was always dancing in my head.

Sometimes a small commotion can not be avoided from us, either because tired of work, or tired of the situation.

"Well, until when are you going to be like this" Mas Leo said as I watched television.

"I don't know" I replied of origin.

"Well, I am your husband, sinful if you continue like this" he said.

"No need to discuss sin, do you not sin do it all behind me and Rio" I said without looking at him.

"Rio Rio Rio, you always carry Rio around, even Rio doesn't know anything" Mas Leo replied rattling his hair.

"Do you want Rio to know your rottenness?" my many.

Leo was silent.

"Yes thank you for your kindness Ayu, but all that has passed, it's been a long time, why are you still this cold to me" said Mas Leo with a reddened face.

I'm silent.

"Do you still love me?" ask Leo to me.

"Come" I answered briefly.

"Why do you survive if you don't love me anymore Ayu, what for? For Rio?" said annoyed.

"Yes all this for Rio, I don't want Rio to be sad, and growing up without a Father, I want Rio to always be happy" I'm no less upset.

"But we are not happy Ayu, me and you are both in a bad situation" Mas Leo sat down and lowered his head.

"I love you so much Ayu, love you so much" he said.

"Here you go, I'm tired" I stood up and wanted to leave.

Leo pulled my hand and locked my body against the wall. Sharp the look in his eyes at me, a gaze full of hurt and regret.

"Deliver Mas, loose.." I asked in revolt.

"What must I do so that you can forgive me, so that you can love me again Ayu" he asked.

"Nothing, and you don't have to do anything, do what you think is good" I replied.

"What's!? What am I supposed to do? What!?" he screamed in front of my face.

I just kept quiet. I looked into his eyes sharply. Stare full of anger.

"I did wrong to you Ayu, but I did it because of Mom, because Mom made a fool of me!!" shouted again.

"No conscience to me Ayu, I am your husband, your husband!!" the stronger Leo held my hand.

I tried to escape, but the stronger Mas Leo held me back.

"Let go of me Mas, loose.." I weakened.

"I'll make you love me again!!" said Mas Leo.

Leo tried to kiss me, I kept avoiding him. I kept crying, Mas Leo did not despair, he violently kissed me and pulled me into the room.

My energy that began to weaken was defeated by the powerful power of Mas Leo. Mas Leo kept forcing me to serve on the bed, my cries and pleas were not heard at all.

"Please don't, please Mas" I asked by clasping the hand of Mas Leo who had touched every curve of my body.

I resigned when Mas Leo would undress my bottom. I close my eyes in my cry, I am exhausted.

But, I no longer feel Mas Leo above my body. I opened my eyes slowly, Mas Leo stood looking at my already tangled body. Leo was silent, not taking any words out of his mouth.

"Ma.sorry me Ayu" he said. Leo pulled the blanket over me.

I curled up behind the blanket. My heart is breaking, the tears are dry, the pain and the pain I feel.

I heard Leo closed the door leaving me in my room alone.