Heart Note

EPISODE THIRTY SEVEN

"Aaaahhhhh"

We released it together.

This morning. In the same hotel room.

I'm drooping down.

"Should I ask for additional leave?" kataku limp.

"I'll take you home, get some sleep" he said.

I crawled towards his body. And hugged him tightly.

"Stay here, Mas. I will come here again" I said tired with my eyes closed.

"Father..."

"I love you so much Mas" I said withstanding a cry.

"I miss you so much, Mom" I broke out in tears.

A drop of water fell on my forehead.

I'm looking.

Leo was crying.

"I'm going to go to Yogya Ayu, we can't continue like this" he said.

"But Mas" I said.

"It's Ayu's fault, we're no longer a husband and wife" Mas Leo's remark made me sit staring at her.

"But we enjoy it Mas, you enjoy it too right?" I said a little upset.

"Yes, I know, I feel it too, but it's Ayu's fault" he said.

"Yes, I know" I stood covering my body with a towel.

"Come back to me Ayu, be my wife again" Leo approached me.

"I'm not ready yet" I said.

"But you love me right, we still love each other, we are both tormented withholding longing, withholding love, withholding this feeling" he explained.

"But the pain still feels Mas, I still can't"

"Can't why yet? What's got you not?" ask Leo.

I'm silent.

"What Ayu?"

"Your mother" I replied briefly.

Leo was silent.

"I'm going to take a shower, you don't have to take me Mas, you also have to be ready to visit your mother" I explained.

Leo just gave me a glance.

"I left first Mas" said after getting ready.

Leo gave me a cup of coffee.

"Drink first, let's not get sleepy"

"No need to be"

Leo pulled my hand to sit on the sofa.

"Sit down, drink this coffee, so as not to get sleepy later in the office" he asked.

I nodded in agreement.

Leo looks busy, takes care of all the equipment, and puts it in a suitcase.

"Mas.." call me.

Leo saw me.

"Later if you're going back to Jakarta, can you come back here, see me" I asked.

"I try" he answered.

"Be careful on the road" I said slowly.

"Yes, don't worry" he replied.

"Yes, we go down" he asked.

Leo put his hand on me. And with a hand we walked up to the elevator and down to the lobby.

"You want to go straight to the office?" ask Leo.

"I want to go home first Mas, to change clothes"

"Hmmm Mas come with me, and I'm anterin to the station"

"But" said Mas Leo.

"Just wait in the car later, I'm not long to change his clothes" I said.

"All right"

After driving Mas Leo to the station I went straight to the office. Fortunately today I have no meeting schedule, and my work is not too piled up, so I can take a little rest today. My mind doesn't stop thinking about Mas Leo, and everything we've done from yesterday to this morning. There are some that make me smile, but there are things that regret me. How, we were blinded by this feeling of gentleness. To be honest, I still wanted to be in his arms, but Mas Leo was right, this was a big mistake. But to get back to him I was not ready. Not ready to have that "woman" in-law again.

Dret..

My phone's vibrating.

One message came in.

Rangga: Let's have lunch, I wait in your office lobby.

I was a little surprised to read that message.

"Rapain he's here" I muttered.

I pulled my bag, and quickly headed for the lobby.

"Haii, what?" my broom.

"I've got a job here, let's get me lunch" he asked.

I nodded in agreement.

"So early in the morning, there is work, tomorrow morning already back in Jakarta again" he replied with eyes focused on the road.

"Such a deal" I said.

"The work is done, it should be back this afternoon to Jakarta again, but there is a tormented heart if I go straight back to Jakarta" he explained.

"Whose heart?" my many.

"Yes my heart dong, the pounding in this chest beats erratically, if you do not meet you this heart will stop beating" she resounded.

"Lebai nyaaa" ledekku.

Rangga laughed with satisfaction.

"Eh, Rio how is he" she asked.

"Rio, another holiday to Singapore"

"Who's same? Leo?" tanyakanya.

"No, same Mama Papa, and the rest of the house, actually Mama and Papa want to check up on his health, but all you just take Rio and Agus for a walk, can take another vacation" I explained.

"Wiih fun really yes" said Rangga.

"Yes that's how it is" I replied.

"Well after this, you set a schedule so that you can vacation too, with me" he asked naughty.

"Ah ah ah, later I repotted again with you, instead of vacation instead of just taking care of you" my ledek.

"I won't bother you dong" he said.

"Udah already, so now we want lunch where it is" asked me to shift the topic of conversation that has begun to digress.

"Where do I know, do you know this area better" he said.

"Yee, speaking of dong from earlier" I said.

Rangga laughed off.

"So, has Leo been in Semarang for a week? Now he's going to Yogya?" ask Rangga.

I'm nodding.

"How do you feel now when you meet him?" ask Rangga.

I looked at Rangga.

"It's a habit" I said a lie.

My heart said, so happy and joyful. Even if it's a big mistake.

"It's good if he wants to improve his relationship with his mother, it's not good too long to hold anger against Mother herself" said Rangga.

Yes Rangga is right. Even though I don't want that. There is something that is stuck if considering the relationship Mas Leo and his mother returned well.

I sipped a glass of water, easing my calm mind.

"Father..."

"Yes.." I replied.

"Hmmm... In my opinion, you also do not hold too much hate on someone, so that your life in the future is light in walking" explained Rangga carefully.

"Yes, I hope" I'm back to feed my mouthful lunch.

"Alright" Rangga seemed to know, I was not in the mood to discuss the woman anymore.

We enjoyed our lunch.

"What are you doing?" ask Leo, over there.

"I just want to rest Mas, you disturb" I said.

"Oh so, you rest" he said.

"Eh, don't be killed"

"Did you call me gini nights?" my many.

"Nothing, just your thoughts" he replied.

"Oh so, which other one? How lonely?" my many.

"Mother and Karin seemed to have gone to sleep" he replied.

"Oh yes, I haven't heard from Karin for a long time, last met when she said she wanted to go back to Yogya" I explained.

"He's fine, I'm lucky he can come back here again, so I have the friend" said Mas Leo.

"***Thank God"

"I also want to move to Yogya only from Sekolah**" he said.

"Can you?" my many.

"Not yet, hopefully" he replied.

"Hmm what do you mean Mas? You want to resign?" many confused.

"You don't know yet, if my school in Jakarta, now open its branch in Yogya, still some classes anyway for SD and Junior High School, if for High School does not exist" he explained.

"I don't know" I replied.

"I want to move, let's not go far anymore to come with you as Rio" he said.

"***Yes..."

"You agree not***?" tanyakanya.

"You think for yourself" ledekku.

"Yes, yeah, bring it" she said.

"Yes, you sleep yes, tomorrow you have to work, later bad luck, dadada.." he said.

Phone disconnected.

Heard that Mas Leo wanted to move to Yogya. My heart is pounding, whether it's the thump of happiness or the thump of worrying about something. I'm rattled.