Heart Note

SEVENTEEN SECTION

Days and weeks keep changing, I'm still like this. Maintain marriage for the good and happiness of children only. My relationship with Mas Leo is getting bland, let alone to talk, look into his eyes even I am reluctant. So much pain I feel.

We'll pretend to be fine in Rio's presence, but if Rio's not there we're like oil and water. When it was midnight I would move into the guest room, earlier I would make sure Rio slept well.

"Well, you sleep here, let me sleep in the guest room" Mas Leo held me back as I was about to leave him in this room.

I just kept quiet without answering a word. Leo is sleeping in the guest room tonight.

My heart is cold as ice. I no longer felt the warmth.

I keep working as usual, no matter what problems I face I have to stay professional at work.

The house that used to be occupied by my mother has been sold.on Ms. Fatma, the proceeds of the sale have been handed all to the place of the Course. The same is true of car sales.

Ever since that day I never knew about Mom and Laras. Leo never talked to me.

"Ma, Pa , Rio wants to talk" Rio said as we were casually watching television.

"What are you talking about?" answer to Leo.

"Rio will soon graduate, Rio can not continue his school in Semarang? Sama Eyang kakung" he explained carefully.

"Why?" manywould be surprised.

"Leo has long wanted to go to school there Ma" Leo looked down.

"Are you all thinking carefully?" ask again.

"Yes Ma..Leo really wants, in a big city like this is really boring Ma, besides there is Agus his grandson Bude Sri" he explained again.

"Mama is up to you, if it's all your decision, Mama supports" I agreed. Rio and Mas Leo saw me, Rio smiled happily, while Mas Leo was confused.

"Thank you a lot Ma, Pa" Rio looked very happy.

"But there you can't take Eyang well" Mas Leo gave advice.

"Yes Pa, trust Rio"

"Well" said Mas Leo, as I was about to move towards the room. Rio had already entered his room first.

I'm turning. And don't care about it.

"Father" Mas Leo was already inside the room.

"Are you sure?" tanyakanya.

"Sure for what?" tanyaku.

"About Rio" he said sitting on the bed.

"Yes" I replied briefly.

"Rio's grown up, I'll always support whatever he wants while it's positive" I explained.

"Why? You don't agree?" I asked Leo.

"It's not that, it's just that I'm worried about you that Rio's far away" she said.

"Are you worried about me or about yourself?" I'm a little sharp.

"What do you mean Yu?"

"Yes you are worried about our relationship if Rio is far away, obviously we pretend that nothing happens in front of Rio" I explained.

"I mean not so" he denied.

"For me it's better Rio to Semarang, so that he doesn't know the problems that are going on between his parents" I looked sharply at Mas Leo's eyes.

"Well, can't we be like we used to" Mas Leo said to me.

"It's not as easy as you think" I replied.

"We try again, we try again from the beginning" he asked.

"The pain is still embedded, even if we try again" I said.

"I can't keep you quieting me like this, you better curse me, you hit you slap me, let you be satisfied, but I beg you not to be like this" obviously Leo again.

"You think I'm willing to go through all this, I'm devastated Mas, broken not restless" I'm emotional.

"But this is all long gone Ayu"

"If our condition is reversed, if I betray you and your child what? How you feeling? Do you easily forgive me, do you easily accept everything, huh how?" I'm getting more emotional. I kept trying to control my voice so Rio wouldn't hear.

"Well, I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

"You know, surviving after being betrayed is not a good solution, but I'm doing all of this just for Rio" I explained slowly.

"Why don't you just explain it to her?" Leo looked at me sharply.

"I want Rio to be happy, I don't want Rio to grow up without a father" I said in tears.

"Until when are you able to hide it Ayu, until when?" Leo covered his face rough.

"Leave it like this, until later or forever" I'm weakened.

"How about me Ayu, should I accept all of this forever" Mas Leo lowered his head.

"If you survive working with me, don't sue me like you used to, if you can't, I won't stand in your way" I said and left Mas Leo alone in the room.

My tears broke even more when I was in the guest bedroom. I don't know, I feel really empty, honestly I really can't stand it. But if we part ways, Rio is the first to become a victim. I don't want that to happen. I will survive this destruction for Rio's sake. For Rio's happiness.