Forced to Marry a Teacher

33. My Memory (My Wounds are Increasingly Increasing)

Janus was shocked by what Luna said. Asking for the relationship to end over the phone, Janus could not believe what he heard. Janus rushed to Luna's house. His heart was too agitated, Janus did not accept the fact that his relationship had to end just like that.

Arriving in front of the house, Janus just pressed the bell repeatedly. And before long the bell at the press, the gate opened. Luna stood in front of Janus with her eyes as puffy as after crying. Janus was immediately clutched tightly the body of his lover.

"You tell lies" said Janus.

"No," Luna firmly with a flat expression.

"Isn't our relationship okay. Why do you want to end our relationship?"

Luna let go of Janus's hold. "Because you're the daughter of a mistress. My father doesn't approve of our relationship, he prefers Bayu to be with me."

Janus was made to not dwell a little, he did not expect with what he heard. The son of a mistress, a forbidden sentence she did not want to hear was spoken from the sweet mouth of the woman she loved so much all this time. Now the wound in his heart was growing, the woman he thought of as medicine. Now it has become a sharp thorn. Luna was the second woman to leave Janus after her mother.

Janus went out from before Luna, walking home with his body immediately feeling weak. By the time he got home, the sky was already dark. Adit may have come home from the office, Janus was in a hurry to go to his father's office.

"What do you need to do here?" ask Adit.

"Is it true that Bayu will be betrothed to Luna? ask Janus again.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Me and Luna have been in a relationship for three years as lovers. Why should my relationship be destroyed just like that" said Janus who immediately shed tears.

"Then forget him." Adit left his office. He left Janus, who was crying his tears.

One month has ended the relationship between Janus and Luna. During that one month, his psychic disease reappeared. Post-traumatic stress disorder is a disease that Janus suffers from. A disease that may have been the result of trauma in his past that was too painful for Janus. Anxiety disorders and insomnia continued in Janus for days. Janus had to go back to a psychiatrist to treat his illness.

Three months later, Bayu and Luna get engaged. Janus prefers to go to a nightclub rather than going to the show of his sister and ex-lover's fiancee. It hurts too much to watch the ring finger of the woman he loves so much be tied up by a ring.

Returning from the nightclub, for the first time Janus finds a violent slap from his father.

"Plac...

"Sister? I never had a sister. He is just a person who has taken what is valuable in my life. Including a father," said Janus raised his voice.

Quarrels including a slap from a father were Janus' first. His heart is now wounded. Janus stepped away entering his room with his head bowed. Then he sat behind the door of his room. Waking up all night and thinking long, after being stayed for the second time by the woman he loved. Janus will firmly close the door of his heart to any woman.

Janus will only focus on his studies, which he has spent a year. The education he took was a mathematics major. A child from a business family, instead of majoring in Business Management. Janus preferred mathematics education. Initially, his grandfather and father had opposed the decision of Janus who chose the department. Perhaps also because of the threat from his mother and brother, Janus prefers an education that is not concerned with anything that deals with the company.

For years Janus had been depressed and unhappy. The next day Janus decided to leave the house. He decided to live alone in one of his grandfather's apartment units.

Baskara looked sad when her second granddaughter decided to leave the house. However, another case with Bayu and Yeni, who smiled happily with the decision taken Janus. While Adit was still with his flat expression, acting cold without saying a word. Ignoring and seem indifferent to what his youngest son decided.

Very used to it, ignored by his father. Makes Janus not too sad with his father's attitude.

Three years on, the over-intelligent Janus has completed his education in college, including one year completing the Teacher Education Profession. And at the age of 20 years Janus has a profession as a teacher in one of the leading High Schools. The results achieved with his efforts make Baskara very proud of his second grandson.

However, on his first day of teaching, Janus even found a bad news. A news that left him half-dead in shock. He was too agitated when he found out that Baskara Sayuda in agnosa blood cancer late stage.The only family he loved very much, likely his age will not be long. How could someone who was the most precious in his life, most likely would leave him.

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Thirty minutes Janus told me about his past. He was a little calmer after a long conversation with Astrid. His hand still held tightly to his wife's hand.

"What if I fall in love with you one day?" ask Astrid.

"Never put your heart on me. I will never open the door of my heart to anyone. For the next two years, you will leave without a trace in my heart" replied Janus. Which then he leaned on Astrid's shoulder, then closed his two eyes that were already heavy due to his sleepiness.

The words that Janus uttered made Astrid's heart ache. Her plight grew tighter grasping her husband's hands, with both corners of the eyes slowly letting out a water circle. His mind was confused, I don't know what he felt. Astrid did not understand her heart. Why could she be afraid of losing Janus, while all this time she never put her heart on her husband.

"I just hope that this feeling only stops for a moment in my heart" Astrid murmured.

Shortly thereafter, the power outage was over. However, Astrid had not the slightest intention of going to her room. He continued to grip tightly the hands of Janus who was sound asleep while leaning on his shoulders. Her husband was already sound asleep, now Astrid also closed her eyes with her head leaning against each other.

"Just for now, I want to be around you."