Behind the Beautiful Smile

Work at the depot

The owner of the food depot call it mother aini, he was good friends with his mother first. But he did not respond with me, because I was young according to him still unstable to work.

He gave me a wage of 3000 per day, just like the others, he said do not tell others my salary is the same as other employees. Same with my snacks a day, the difference here I have breakfast and lunch is available no need to cook anymore. Even I rarely because I want to mourn.

But mother aini rebuked me.

" you don't ask me again, if you've worked here don't snack again"

I just say yes, I think it is enough to make the cost of books and other costs.

I want to answer but I am ashamed of just working. How could he have told me so. 

I also still ask for the same aunt only three times a week, want to buy books etc.

As a result mother aini knows everything, maybe she went to aunt, I was embarrassed to be discovered by mother aini and listened to other officials.

I think I just want to stop, is this a reason for me to stop working well, because from the beginning aunt does not allow. Who invited me mother mother aini. 

But mother Aini wanted to reject me not good at hearing the same me. As I walked away I heard the conversation of mother aini and her mother.

" Ma she is still young, still unstable should not work here, this mama-anything" whispered mother aini.

"Let's just, we help her to know your business here help her school costs too, she has been selling hijab to mama even mama is given a cheap price" said her mother.

I pretended not to hear when I heard. I was easily seduced by his mother aini. At work Aini's mother is no longer there because she has returned to live in her village.

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My job is to do the dishes from school to night at 21:00 pm. I also take plates of people's food.

Sometimes as a waiter. But so the waiter has to have a strong memory, a lot of customers make us forget, so just go back to washing the dishes. I feel comfortable because of my many friends. I am only the youngest. I feel like they treat them well.

There is a brother imah, he once liked Ihsan's brother, whom he asked Ihsan mulu, but he was embarrassed to tell me that he liked Ihsan. I know from the mother that Imah Kaya likes Ihsan from childhood, because they are friends from childhood.

Just last one month I work there is experience and wisdom behind everything I have a lot of friends, there are customers, reprimands, and meet friends sd and smp, as well as meeting my older friend Ihsan whom I once admired, it turns out that he stopped by with his female friend to eat at the depot.

"Eh kaka, and eat here too?" Ask me

"Actually, just talk to him" replied a friend ka Ihsan

"Yah ka's boyfriend? Hehee "Task me

The two of them just smiled as they wrote the order, I stood waiting for their order.

"This is already well, do not let the taker with the others" said friend ka Ihsan

" Good ka" I said

I'll take my order to the kitchen. I stared at them talking.

Kok ka Ihsan can stop by at this depot well think me, does he already know I work here think I

Ka Ihsan's friend turned to me, looking at me. I also immediately threw my face while darkening the table so wrong behavior. I thought again how he looked at me so did he miss me the same I used to play almost every day with Kaka Ihsan at home. 

I started to baper, but there's no way I'm starting to slowly self-conscious about the woman in her cool and pretty.

I also have gratitude from this job, even though I volunteer aunty. But I was so embarrassed by my mother and the closest aunt also defended my aunt who admonished me not to work here.

Regret is later, but take wisdom from every incident.

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Remember once in the capitali aunty selling ice Limus while keeping the rental game kak malin, I only lasted one month, the capital is not enough anymore to make a sale. Turns out Brother's niece took my money.

When he told me to grab a drink, I picked it up, it turned out he was drinking, rushed home, I suspect he took my capital money.

Again I was scolded aunt, the capital was only 15000 profit even a little.

I turned back to repay the debt by selling bottles of used drinks my aunt sold, even less. Yes, I have been asked to collect the debt of aunty customer, even though it is far from his home, but I can not get results, which owes fiercely. Though his son's style in high school, his mother likes to owe hard on the bill.

I went home empty-handed, told aunty to go back and forth, I did not refuse for money, but I was not deterred by his encouragement, until he said.

"Basar don't know shame, I have said later I inter-debt your aunt's trade, I'm embarrassed to see the others, understand not the hell" Impact of aunt customers

I was very polite too.

He closed the door tight.

From there I refused to be asked again by aunty debt, I was humiliated his customers were said to be shameless.

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I want something to help them, if I refuse I get nothing. But sometimes I think I have tried to help even not paid or paid is not appropriate, indeed I was asked to know myself, already in school right.

Very different from our own parents, sometimes we reject their wishes, they just mengedumel ngomel to the child, not disfiguring the good name of his son to and fro.

In contrast to live not the birth order itself, it has been helped it is still blamed, let alone reject the good name we are tainted until it is said that is not worth hearing.

But I think we have to dare to refuse, we also have another job that he must understand even though he wants him to understand. Maybe in the view of people around you who do not know yourself. Dare to refuse your aunt or brother's request.

Well it is seen as if I do not know myself, try in my position, I want to do pr or there are other school assignments, required to do other work. Moreover, we are told to be healthy like a maid. 

I do not like it a lot because it is slow and dare to refuse, but I have a body to rest right, let alone I have a history of asthma.

I was said to be spoiled, not knowing thank you, but I would not have a snack if I refused. I am willing to have no savings despite refusing the request of others, for me sanity is self-identifying.

Rather than diligently helping, often blamed, still in words of hurtful things like oon, stupid, or ****.

I am also not good at talking but I do not like lying, although rarely lying will be revealed by myself, I am easily forgotten or lost.

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The reason for quitting work at the depot all want to repeat the semester up the class, so I can focus on studying at night.

Since I went to 8th grade, I looked for a friend rather calm, it turned out that the calm was initially good at being friends even long jutek because I told him he liked someone. 

He himself revealed I like someone too, yes I also revealed. He's a pretty handsome but rather arrogant class Kaka.