Behind the Beautiful Smile

Adolescence 2

Aar also he started to approach me and shoot me, I also felt that he fit there was attention, but he was different from Hardy look cool, if aar talk a lot of profanity. I also sometimes send a rude short message, he always sends a message as if I am considered cheap.

He's not angry I say rude, maybe because I just dated. For about a month he started to get upset with me. He said I was rude. Though it's wrong he said filthy rich people are married. If you imagine disgust.

I also began to feel affection, but I asked him not to say indecent or slovenly, thought later I would be a cheap woman.

He himself was still in contact with his ex-girlfriend riri when mts, I was not thinking suspiciously. Said aar he vent rarely in contact with his girlfriend Ezra because his girlfriend is busy with college and other affairs.

I'm in the bodo period they can't reverse it either. Riri has certainly chosen Ezra an achiever and quite handsome.

Unlike the aar, large fat bodies and faces already look mature, even though the age is still young adults about 20 years. But because of the large stature he saw his face was wasteful.

While Aar is only a oddball worker who dropped out of school, because his ort in the know rich died. He's a lot of brothers, some of my father's age so less know the problem of sharing their inheritance. It's likely that Aar might have relented on dropping out of school for his sister, who is still in high school.

He started slowly, more silent. But his silence was so funny. I was so confused at that time, yes let it be that he should understand if I do not like to hear indecent.

When he's cleared out of town, if he's gone, here he starts to call me less often. He has less effort to contact me.

Usually she hangs out every night at Lisa's boyfriend's place, even if only once she contacts me when she loses her phone, the next day she doesn't call anymore.

I was right traumatized by this incident, how many times broke up because Miss communication rarely love Khabar. Because suspicion must be raging.

I called Lisa's boyfriend her name maman, with a short message. It turns out that the word maman, aar is somewhat different maybe dizzy because his cellphone is gone, indeed every afternoon he plays at the maman house. But don't borrow maman's phone to call me.

I try to call again tomorrow afternoon through maman contact, he can be contacted, said he wanted to work at his family's food stall.

I feel relieved, if he has a job, but it has been 1 week I let without his news. Shame it feels to ask maman continue, while aar no effort to love the news, can borrow his brother or his friend to give Khabar to me.

Maman also if asked maybe he does not know what I think, because aar works. So I let it go. Until I asked for certainty from him. I'm not good to break up first. It will go wrong.

I still send a short message to him, even though his phone is damaged, who knows he has an open message from me. It turned out that it was read by him with a read notification, but he did not reply to my message.

I was curious, asking Maman through a short message. Maman said like his aar there's a new hp, maman did not ask kira maman I must have in contact during this time.

I said frankly to the maman by a short message for one Sunday not in his contact, want to contact my maman afraid to disturb maman and aar work.

Maman said from a short message he saw aar in the distance telephone with someone, maman thought the phone call with me. Let alone aar call back sms even he does not exist.

I asked Maman for help with the certainty of my relationship with aar that hangs there is no communication, and asked maman to ask who was the phone call yesterday when maman saw.

I tried calling aar, the number was on sometimes and sometimes off, maybe it was turned off.

From there I began to ask for certainty through a short message.

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Aar, your number I call sometimes active do not you lift, sometimes inactive do you turn off? Who are you minjam hp? But didn't call me. You must have read dozens of my SMS. To ask your news, but you have no response.

****** My short message

Just read it, but don't reply.

I tried to call again, again not active number. Active is not lifted. Maybe he wants me to mutusi, I don't feel good that mutusin, because the previous incident cut Nono, still feel bad. Although my reason is clear because just as aar is difficult to contact.

Tomorrow afternoon, I try to contact maman, who knows if there is aar to his place again. It turns out that Maman gave Khabar that aar was close to a woman outside the city when he yesterday left town with his cousin. I am shocked to believe it or not. I must believe because there must be certainty from aar.

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I tried to contact Aar again.

But there was an incoming message on my phone from hardy. He asked me about my news. I also because of loneliness there are no SMS friends, I just reply.

Hardy began to pay attention as before, I just asked him if not jealous of his girlfriend dian, hardy said he is now single.

I also do not believe, the new period two months ago disconnected me and then turned with the lamp as soon as it broke with the lamp.

I also want to ask that later, want to solve my problems with aar. By sending another short message.

******

I still don't understand why your number is active and my text is not answered, I just ask for certainty and clarity. Said your maman had a phone call with whom?

***** My sent message

Again, only he read. I also started calling because it must be in his cuekkin.

A woman's heart does not hurt, is not given this certainty. I don't like this kind of relationship. Later even there is no communication at all with the obscurity of dating or not, I want to be close to other men later in my guess of cheating.

I also need attention not knowing who to tell. Even to my friends, I am ashamed.

I ventured to ask hardy why he broke up with dyan. Her word can not continue her relationship, because dian will soon be married to graduate school. Mean hardy like his made into the second? I thought, why would hardy? Hardy himself already knew that he was engaged.

Want to ask again, why he and dyan lied is already fiancee, I fear he is offended. Yes I have concluded the possibility of hardy miss his ex dyan, when they meet again they reverse.

Same me with ferdy I miss her, but meet again I was empty because of his attitude I just realized his maligned and then afraid of being invited not really I left without direct clarity no longer no communication.

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I also call with ernis, want to tell the incident with ferdy and others, during this time ernis also difficult to call or on the phone because he was busy with his schoolwork.

"Assalamualaikum er, hello what is Khabar? You haven't played in my house for a long time" I said

"Hallo, Iya ren, busy doing school, the name of vocational school so busy, I'm good ren" said ernis

"How are you doing yourself?". Ask me

"Alhamdulillah good, but a little dizzy cold" I said

"Ah you, certainly not far from the cold" said ernis

"Hhee, that's how I er alergian, but I'm used to fighting" I said

" You're the same Ferdy how are you?" Ask erniss

"How's er??" Ask me back

"You're multiplying, right?" Ask ernis

"Do you know er?? " Ask me

" Well you keep asking for a ferdy number with me, you want to try and reverse it?" ask ernis astonished

" Yes, but only for a moment er, after that there is no communication anymore" I said

"What's not active anymore, ferdy's number?" Ask ernis

" Actively, we just don't communicate with each other anymore" I said

"Can I ren??" Tanya ernis was astonished

"Over the story er, that's why you play at my house" I said

"If I'm not busy, I want to play at your house" ernis said

"It's good that you broke up with Ferdy" ernis said 

" How good is it??? " Task me wonder

" I want to ngetes you doang, so much you like the same ferdy kaga obviously so" said ernis

"What do you mean er??" Ask me more confused

" Ferdy told me he already had a girlfriend, whose accident was his girlfriend so Ferdy's cheating on you, so he's not active his number" ernis said

"I was lied to all this time dong er, why did you just say anyway, if that's not going to happen like this er, I will not approach ferdy" said I a little high note

" What happened ren??" Ask ernia

"Over the story, I was slandered ferdy. Attacked hardy and dyan" I said

"Who else is ren??" Ask ernis

"Later I tell you, again not the mood discuss them, you also why just say, already well, I want to sleep my head quail so later the language" said my emotions want to explode, I want to explode, but it's not good to be expressed

"Yes GPP" said ernis

Immediately I turn off hp, I want to tell you about all of them, even sontak samput equally ernis even he said he wanted to ngetes me, what am I using in the all test?? Am I stupid, supposed to be a conversation?? Thought me.

Am I always the victim or am I stupid or innocent??

why is it difficult to get people who are right, and not neka neko. They just want to test me ??? My mind that does not even make my head dizzy. I also fell asleep to relax my mind.

I was just able to get along, maybe it seemed strange I was still plain can be fooled, especially I was happy to be invited to hang out in group , even though my group was just ordinary people.