Behind the Beautiful Smile

Assisted by the homeroom

Every day hear stories of ria and lisa who like to heat up. I who have broken up with uzin always told his story close to other women.

I think Lisa is just as dislike me, affected by ria as well plus I rarely go to school because I am sent home. I kept her close to Lisa well, but kind of kept the friendship distance.

If with ria from the first I keep the distance because it does not reject me.

I also tried to find a boyfriend again, but I do not know who, I searched randomly through the mobile phone who knows there are people closest to my area, so they can meet. And I don't want to lose having a boyfriend status also from Riri, Ria, and Lisa.

But my luck is less fortunate, dating different religions. He swore to convert to my religion, so that I would love virginity.

I was confused, by including him in our religion. I got a great reward, but I got a great sin from loving virginity.

I also did not want to, until only lasted three months of courtship, communication break.

The number is no longer active.

I think I already liked her true love. People say they love monkeys. Because he tried to seduce me not to leave me and wanted to marry me I wanted him to convert. But I still do not love virginity. I fell in love with his promise to marry after Ma's graduation.

I have no communication without breaking up. I am hurt, I cry and daydream. Not long after my dad broke. I am sad that there are no communication friends.

I don't want to go to school anymore, because I'm sick of it all. Fed up with the friendship, the boyfriend does not want to be contacted again, the father is broken, the order often quarrels and Kaka is always angry, the school rules are very strict.

I was tired and cape, waiting for sister hesty and ka Ihsan to come home at night.

Go home alone, afraid to be home alone. But since I locked myself in the house so dare to stay alone at home.

I did not go to school for a week without clarity in school. Dad started intervening and then beat me mercilessly. I felt the pain of the whole body. I told my mom I was embarrassed to go to school because I hadn't been to school for a long time.

I cape the same rules at school too strict, I asked mom to put me in a cottage outside the city.

"Mother, may I not enter the cottage, I so that discipline there, eating was prepared together" my pinta

"Are you ren, you enter the cottage to repeat again from the beginning, mother has no money for you to enter the cottage, try you talk to your Kaka there" said the mother snapped

"I'm ashamed Ma'am, sis hesty would not want to" I said

" That's why you start school tomorrow" said the mother

"I'm ashamed Mom, I'm confused what reason?" Ask me

" You said it hurt, I'll talk about it" said mom

Not long after, the homeroom teacher came home. I told my mom to come out, I was embarrassed to talk and face. Thank goodness I came when my mother had not yet gone to the shop.

Tok tok tok tok

"What's up" said the mother.

"Renna has a Mom? I'm renna's homeroom teacher, so renna's not going to school for a week, renna still has a chance for her school, if she wants to go down tomorrow, school, but if he doesn't come down, please tell him, ma'am, 'cause he didn't go to school?"

" I'm sorry sir, I as his mother a lot of apologies, renna stories he often late for school, often at home right. Renna I've woken up in the morning, like her ketapean wake up early, wake up while she's asleep again. I try to leave it. But he never said he was returning from school, I asked him to go spend time to the cafe. Please come inside sir, we chat more casually while sitting down"

I entered the house and sat with my mother in the living room.

"Emm yes yes it's okay Mom, her name is also she is still unstable, maybe she wants to go to school in return it depends on the teacher who watches the school gate. But every day is different, the supervisor. It just so happened that he got a very disciplined supervising teacher" said the father

"So I called renna, let her listen to my father's and me's advice" she said

"Yes please ma'am" said the father

"Renna, let's go to your homeroom father, he wants you to drop off tomorrow" said Ms. Slowan

I came out of the room, went to the homeroom teacher directly salaman. I apologized with my father for the plan to quit school because it was cape.

" Renna you if you want to survive your grades and attendance, starting tomorrow you go to school, then you start talking to other teachers, so you want to go to school again" said the father

"Honestly Renna was embarrassed, as well as other friends and teachers sir, renna actually wanted to go to school" said renna

" Yes later you talk about keguru to convey to other students so that you are not ridiculed them, the father actually rarely enters the class, because there are affairs outside as well" said the homeroom teacher

"It's not a problem to be taunted or not sir, but I'm ashamed of it Lo sir, if they mock I just accept sir" I said

" You have to be brave and pede alone, you deserve to go to school again, you deserve to fight to continue school ren, mumpung alpa you not much" said the father

I cried and thanked the homeroom teacher, I didn't expect the homeroom teacher to still care about Renna.

I wanted to cry too, but I was embarrassed and I couldn't be held back by tears, so come out.

"Renna, pay attention to your father, still give you relief, do not waste his kindness" said the mother

" Yes ma'am, sir if I don't go up, I don't mind sir, because my mistake is troubling father and mother" I said

" God willing you go to class, as long as you can pursue your grades well, while you help" said the father

"Thank you very much sir, for your attention" I said

"Thank you very much sir" said my mother.

"I said goodbye because there was business too,

Assalamualaikum yah Bu" said the father

Waalaikumsaalam, we say.

Mother's tears were still falling from earlier, between moved and sad. Maybe the shame over my attitude or my homeroom father still gives me leniency.

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The next day I had to look brave and brave. Although the shame still exists.

I went in slowly, with a flat face and they looked at me strangely and like they wanted to ask. But they applauded and then just kept quiet.

I was confused, and immediately sat in class.

During school I managed to continue and go to class.

Just because of the pity of the homeroom teacher, neither I nor my mother asked for mercy to the homeroom teacher.

Surely friends changed drastically to me, his attitude was partly better, some were more indifferent.

But grateful they partly understand, life is hard not as beautiful as their shadow of me.

But because of his kindness he wanted to help troubled students.

Now in 2020 the new horror of Khabar he died, may Husnul khatimah.

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This incident embarrassed me, but it was hard to change for discipline. Fathers from childhood like to scold the mother trivial things, finally the mother fought with the leverage.

I need attention to be spoiled by my mother to take care of me at school but my mother is busy taking care of stalls.

I was embarrassed at school because I had no friends during the school. Less disciplined behavior until adulthood.

My angry father did not want to go to school again Elementary school first, ever lift me up and then slam my body into cement, thank God I am still strong and alive.

Now it's repeated my father beat my body as a teenager. I don't want to go to school anymore, how stupid I am.

I just want to need the attention of my mom and dad just like everyone else, but I'm always a victim. Why do other children do more brash than me just let go of not being bullied or not beaten by his ort or his friends? The more mature they become, the more insolent they become.

Before I went to school, when I put myself away. Until my aunt found out, and talked to me over the phone.

"Halooo Ren, you go to school well, if you don't want to be there, the school where Aunty will again, Auntie will buy a motorcycle well" said aunty

" I want to rest aunty, I don't want to. Cape school is mostly a rule" I said

" You who can't be arranged times, will Aunt Carikan you boyfriend here want?" Auntie

" Don't tan, I want to go to school here" I said

" Yes, but you come here every year with a aunt" said aunty

" Mommy didn't leave I didn't leave Tan either" I said

" Why ren?" Ask aunty

" Said mother does not have tan money, aunt if you want the cost of transportation we want it" said aaya

" Alright, then you join mama Wiwi just well, if full of rides should not just need to" said aunt

"Yes aunty, insha Allah" I said

"Tante, lonely here, didi rarely look aunty, also the same ka malin rarely look" said grievance aunt

" May be busy tan them" I said

"Where's your mom, auntie wants to talk, give her cell phone to your mom! " aunty's orders

" Yes tan" I closed the conversation by giving the phone to mom.

I also went to WC, while I was shitting, thinking about aunty turning around so changed I wanted to go back there again. Yesterday was disturbed by my presence. Do I have to believe aunty bought a motorcycle, which there was a didi and ka Malin later jealous with me, they just do not have a motorbike.

Make me eat only red cooked chicken every day, want another menu is not in love. Ah... I can't easily believe the aunt's lure. The trauma of raging is still there so I if offered again to the village house, ready to refuse.

Didi she often lives where ortu om or ex-husband aunt first.om her good person, although didi Not the biological child she loves like her own biological child.

While sister Malin was married to her ex-boyfriend at that time advised me not to be used by friends.