Behind the Beautiful Smile

Move schools

Two months I had been in school in Mts, my mother suddenly told me to change schools on condition that I did not need to move schools.

I know the school there is too free because the alumni mother there but the mother did not graduate, afraid I became lazy to learn even wandering, as told by others or the experience of friends of the mother.

Many mts children who wander unclear when the teacher is not there. Though my friend and I just stay in school alone, when the return quickly stopped by a friend's house, just telling stories and doing pr.

Mother was worried that I was wrong, because the mother was also a alumni of the school there, the mother only lasted until second grade, in addition to the possible psychological cost factor of people around me consider the school there too free. Though the school in mts is the cheapest cost, only the capital of clothes and books only.

"Son, you just move, well, the school there is rarely a teacher, mother does not want you to go to school" said the mother

"What's wrong, Mom? There are ko teachers, only rarely enter, the school there is also official right?"

" Yes official, but the quality is different, you enter the state Junior High School only, later I send money. But you asked to take care of Wiwi, I called for help. He wants" mother's orders

"I'm just in, do I have to take care of the transfer letter?"

"You don't have to take care of the complicated resources, try your reason for getting sick or what goes into Junior High there? Like you just entered school, not much is left behind"

" I don't dare say mom, it's a lie"

" Later mom said to ka Wiwi yah" said mother

Ka Wiwi is a distant mother's family, but neighbors with aunty, I often play at her house to befriend her sister Hana, because hana asked to be metemeni at her home. Hana's adoptive sister is very different from her brother's treatment more assertive, but Hana does not know she is an adopted child.

I was also confused, whether to lie to other friends when entering class to become a new student again. That I'm not a transfer student, just late entry.

Maybe the mother is also embarrassed, the school is known to be a bad school, even though it depends on the students, but there is less supervision of the behavior of students and not discipline is not a problem.

When I entered a new class in Junior High, it turned out that one class with a friend system first, in the classroom less close to just going home from school just befriended together and the others.

He does not have the same respect for me, but either I feel comfortable that he is the child of people or I do not understand he wants to keep a distance with me first. If to his house feels comfortable because of the big house and there are food treats, although he often bully me but I feel comfortable near him.

But when this Junior High he and his friends really made me more embarrassed and added in the bully, when there are subjects going to the library, the library, his friend, a gang man, likes to mock me, even though I only approach the system, others lack respect. Just as I remember approaching Ani back when SD was Nunu lacking respect.

I was still late sometimes, sometimes not because the teacher was late. But I impact from the beginning of the bully system friends I call his name Kiki and Koko, they are cousins.

Syndir kiki "there Lo sissy in the complex , joget-joget strange, so joking material, he is old but has not changed- fox also "

Hahahhahaha another laugh.

Want me to fight but embarrassed, it's my own kake, his sister's father (Kake) from my mother.

I want to be angry but embarrassed and only from there I do not approach the system anymore.

Kake transvestite who helped her granddaughter a lot including me, I met every time I loved the old man crying. I understand kake crying because my mother's story is a victim of feelings and her granddaughter is less noticed. But kake shy stay with aunty may not want to disturb the privacy of aunty because aunty likes to stay in the room only, rarely interact.

There has been a lot of bullying against me. I was dropped from the chair, it was like chasing after Kiki but embarrassed to have been mated other friends, they would not defend.

I can only smile richly. Without the seeming burden.

I am still patient because I remember the goodness of the system although not much but imprint, but even make other arrangements and friends uncomfortable I approach.

From there Koko sindir kake I also away from the gang tata, but they are like happy only.

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Reza who likes to tease me ugly first, it turns out school in Junior High but different classes. He greeted me, surprised for sure. Who used to be cynical looked at me, now greeted with a beautiful smile. I smile back because I need friends too. Although many consider me less considered. Although not near I also want to be considered as well.

" Hy Renna" with a smile.

" You're Reza?? " I pretend to forget to stiffen with a slight smile. Rada's weird as her changes.

" Yes, time forgot me" replied his smile as sincere

" Ouh" I smiled wryly back, while running into the classroom.

Is Reza good with me. What is this, does he like me??

It is not possible, like me falling self-esteem. Every hour of rest cannot be separated from greeting me. If other girls must think she's charming. If I am even uncomfortable, it looks like he is getting a pretty teenager.

I was friends SMP arguably began to dare to change friends or try, rather than once still around who want to be close to me. But yes they still do not respect me until I am in the bully.

I stayed away because I was uncomfortable, I found another friend just the same. Up until now it was like trash, but I face the wall. Different was still shy.

Until I fought with Nori, he was the school's front-door grocery store sales boy. But his style is haughty and exorbitant. Until I accidentally spit on him, I want to throw spit on the window, because phlegm comes out, I if cough easily sputum out because of a history of asthma. 

In fact, there is a wind blowing instead of falling down the window even hit nori, until nori scolded me want to plunge too, I apologize not digubrisnya. Up to the office we both called me crying can not answer, because embarrassed to answer the problem I did not deliberately throw spit.

"Ren, is there a problem are you fighting with nori?" Ask mom Bp.

"Jawab ren, I also don't know ma'am, the head of the class was dizzy so he told me to drop off to mom, so Nori didn't mess up Rena's hair again, embarrassed to hear the next class" answer my friend who drove me to Bp's room.

I was confused what to answer, just a hiccup crying.

" Yes, call her Nori here, like her trauma is difficult to answer" said Bp's mother

" Why don't you say the hell ren, rich gini confused so, even ntar called Nori you got wrong, which is wrong he attacked directly to you" said Ika.

I just kept quiet crying. I was escorted back to class, many friends asked me to Ika, because I just looked down at the table while crying a mouthful.

Even Nori approached me, I was shocked.

" Ren sent me to WC Yu" Nori said sweetly.

" Kok tumben invite-tak, do I also alone have no friends, you approach me," I dare to be outspoken because I no longer care if he's enemies or friends please, please just go ahead, the important thing is that I feel okay too

" My chips are kebelet ren" said nori

Other friends on the bells and bells thought they I was stupid to be used Nori.

It turned out to WC his mother's store, we went out of school secretly, I easily owe to his mother also to make shopping what sangu power is only enough.

Even Nori secretly paid for my snacks, if the look of his mother, his mother must be angry.

I feel happy to be friends with him, but the stupid period is used which is important I have friends everywhere.

He used to truant, to his mom's stall, but I wanted to. I was tired in class too.

Friends started gossiping about one school knowing I was being used by Nori.

Until my own step-kaka girlfriend knows and step-Kaka too, "you want to be used by your friend Nori, once you fight ren don't just shut up, said Nori who ever gripped your face and hair ren?"

"Yes, brother, but he's starting to do well" I replied

" I heard he was just using you" said Kaka's step-girlfriend

" How well brother, later I start away he slowly but I am not good, he is good kak often payin jajan I diwarung his mother" said I

" You want her to be told to, too, right?" Ask my step-Kaka girlfriend

" So, I'm not good" I said

" You're stupid what's so good, ren? Find another friend you" said Kaka's girlfriend step-step

"Emang Kaka know where? How can I know?" Ask me

" Your friend who often you go with school" replied my Kaka step-boyfriend

"Oh Diah well brother, he sis, he once told me, just me confused ka, Nori is good now but others consider it beneficial"

I'm ashamed to tell Kaka's girlfriend that I'm not good at hanging out, just staying in class just the same friends nori, others lack the same respect I often bully.

" He's oon say, Lo says he'll be confused, let it be his own business say" said Kaka step-step.

I don't dare to fight, my step-Kaka is fierce, if angry sinister.

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Aunty also moved with her husband to the contract because she was disturbed by the business of renting a sister game, because noisily disturbing the existence of new om coming.

Aunty and om contracted not far from home, so I also often play there. Because I was lazy to keep the rental.

Aunty told me to let Kaka step by myself.

Only the night I went home to Auntie, I came home was surprised, I called Kaka Malin, Kaka stepbrother is not home.

The rental join one house was quiet, I knocked the door to the room was locked aunt, I think brother malin inside, it was not.

" Sister Malin open the door sister, why a quiet house" I shouted no one nyahut

I tried to peep in the door hole, I know there is a door hole made didi in order to see the room, he said, in the room aunt cuek just pretended not to hear didi want to ask for money so less pay attention to didi.

Apparently not Malin's sister, it was Malin's friend who kept the rental.

I was surprised, he brought many friends to the room, they were on hisab straws filled with smoke in the bottle. I know that sabu often see on TV, there is a slashing his hand with a cutter. Astagfirullah adzim thought I was. They seemed to pretend not to hear. I tried to pretend I didn't know if he opened the door.

" Sister Malin open sis, I broke down one, two, ti..." Reprove me. Opening the door, half closing his body only half his body.

" Rena you disturb people to sleep only" said assistant ka malin

" Loh kok sleep in the room, should keep the rental outside" I ventured even though trembling a little

"Ssttt, my friend is also sleeping" said assistant brother Malin his eyes until glared

"Where is Malin? I want to come in. Take care of the rental outside" I said

" Look at this, my friend, there is no brother Malin" said assistant ka Malin dare to open the door

"Astagfirullah adzim, is this you?" Ask me to pretend I don't know

" You just shut up, look out" said assistant brother Malin

I was silent and pretended to be whitewash and pretended to pack things, I left for fear of being there for a long time.

I must immediately tell Auntie, otherwise this is a place to be left behind for a long time, must be brave with them, if they threaten to be threatened in return to the police report.