Behind the Beautiful Smile

Don't know yourself?? and bullyan

I go to school with the habit of being late, some teachers tell me to come in some do not, so I wait outside , while waiting for the next lesson hour.

When the teacher was out, I smiled at the teacher's mother, there were cynical characters who returned a smile.

Before the teacher came to the next lesson, Reysa approached me, he wanted to invite me to talk again.

Even told me about his boy friend.

I am just a listener. Since I was also lazy to date or be near men, I was still a child. You could say we got along, there was no problem with yesterday.

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During the final semester, the father of sports invites a vacation to the zoo every week or Sunday before the exam, pay him 10 thousand. I think it's my chance to hang out with the others, all refreshing.

Trying to ask for the same money aunty, dues every holiday week, well aunty allows, but I make clothes just that.

Sometimes I do not notice. So the material of the boys every week.

The teacher's car is only one so it will fit 10 people more, and sometimes mix with the younger class. Who quickly list, he first who comes, sometimes every week must be a list.

I went to the zoo looking at snakes, crocodiles, parrots etc. Definitely rame-rame. When you rest, split up.

 

I tried to approach risa, only she tried to get close and registered for the holidays, but she kept my distance even though I was tailed, I tried to chat. But no matter what, he was with Mira, the famous younger sister of his wealthy parents at school.

I want to blend in another just as not considered. I myself sit down to eat ice cream cut, do I have to continue his vacation later in fact this way, but I do not give up I approach who wants to hang out with other underclassmen. They want to talk.

I continued the 4th week of vacation, well I was told to sit in front by friends. Sitting with a boy well a classmate named Reza. Since they were full first to mingle with their gangmates, I sat in front with Reza overcrowded.

They made fun of me with Reza, I just kept quiet

"Za you're just like Renna, is it a good fit??" Said his friend used to play with him

"Fool you are, I see Mira, I'm ashamed of that, why do I like this same child, don't go to your gr!!" Reza said cynically to me and his friend.

"Mira, did you hear what Reza said earlier? "

Said Reza's friend.

"I didn't hear brother, did you say, Brother Reza? " Reply Mira.

" Don't be a mir, you're still a kid don't beat Reza, hahahhahaha"

"Your Sontoloyo yes" said Reza

You are just a listener to the babbling of children, not so reprimanding them. Focus driving

It turned out that I moved a little crutch my pants were torn, how embarrassed I was the same Reza and father. I took off my jacket and covered it up.

From there I was deterred not to join his vacation, maybe they were happy without me.

But it's okay I'm relieved to know their character really does not want to hang out with me.

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Me, hanging out with reysa and marimar at school.

Marimar used to go home because he liked the same assistant aunt who was a boy, he was young and his name was olic.

This ignorant oli likes to disturb me while I sleep and I walk a little, like to joke in me, I am angry because I am afraid he is talking about me. Especially when I go on a bujang.

I often fuss with olik, my automatic aunty angratin than olik. Aunty also likes our becandain.

"If you guys keep fighting, aunty wants to? Auntie talk.

" I don't wantuuuuu, how my aunt is confused at her constant annoyance "Say me

" You just shut up, what a hard thing" said the aunt

" the disgust I'm in disturbing her keeps Tan" said my

Aunt laughed out loud.

I can't be silent, because I'm an olic, love kiss, disgust I see. I have to fight and be angry otherwise he's getting more ignorant.

Fear of unwanted events I thought.

Marimar came, surely marimar see me different from in school pendiem and kalem, in my house the same storm of olic.

But it's not a problem for marimar that it's important he can see the olik. Even he sometimes chatted with olic, I let the important thing marimar want to hang out with me.

I also sometimes say to Olik, he is ugly, so he does not bother me anymore. Olik got angry and chased after me.

I shouted "Aunty please"

Olik just stayed away. Speak while

"Review you later" he's really angry.

I'm glad to make him angry. Auntie screamed in the room,

" I'll make you the same old man, wait a minute"

" I don't want a aunt, I want to go to school and be young" I shouted.

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I see Reza tomorrow at school, he's staring at me sharply. Then say .

" What is this, my goodness is this ugly, you ugly son of a bitch" Reza looked at me.

I just keep quiet and smile, reza's talk is probably because of my karma, I like to say to the olik and dad used to be ugly too.

I'm relieved, karma is in cash, don't get to posterity hate me.

I was once feared by my mother, if I dare to be with my father, my son will be brave, I do not want to , inget it would cry like my treatment to my father.

Every time Reza meets, he's disgusted and says I'm "ugly"

For a long time I was angry, but I resisted emotions so as not to throw tantrums. I smiled at him, he ran away.

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While at home I also treated bully aunt, her adopted son, and my stepdad. I am often asked to buy something I sometimes refuse, I want to rest first.

I told my aunt to buy something she didn't want, I was in a bully oon and laughed.

Since the aunt split with om, aunt so much to my orders and often ngatain me.

Up to all one house that I oon. Maybe because I sometimes refused, asked to slow down and bought inappropriate. But I have gone back and forth less appreciated as well, want to be angry still afraid.

"If you cape don't be forced, later you are exhausted, you have to dare to refuse what your aunt told you was unnatural" said datu.

" But my mother told me to obey Aunt" I replied

" May you obey, but in the fight if Auntie commands do not want to know if you cape"

I was silent and confused while smiling at the datu.

From there I thought that sometimes I refused aunty's request, aunty didn't want to know and make fun of me. But sometimes I ask, do I not know myself?? Thought me.

" Oon buy me a fried food that spicy sambal understand?? If you don't understand Lombok you will buy!!" Aunt commands while bantering.

I can treat it so just silence. I want to tell you the truth I don't like it said oon but I'm scared.

Aunt's adopted son is not too taken care of anymore his name is didi. His school also stopped first grade because it often did not rise because of lazy school and difficult to read.

He went back to the family om and aunt. He's in the family place om handled with spoiled, where his foster mom or my aunt is not so concerned.

Didi shower was lazy and liked to play games a day out 50 thousand.

Aunty is so weak to reprimand him, should be a strict aunt but aunt even can not bear. By letting him play games, and not school. Aunt people are.

I often told her to boil instant noodles, but I was not in love in the slightest. If I am slow to do what he wants, he screams loudly.

" Mom.... Oon doesn't want to make noodles" Didi shouted

" Ssttt didi, I said for a moment, you were not impatient, your mother woke up" I said

" You go there, go home, this is my house, you like to volunteer what I say, I drive you out" Didi said

"Hahahhahaha, you're modallin I'm coming home to my house." Reply me

" Oon you, usually troublesome at my mother's house" said didi

" You say I oon, don't I make Lo her noodles, you make it yourself" I was angry with Didi

"Mamaaaaa" Didi yelled unheededly at her mother.

I let go while mocking his tongue out, so that he does not call me oon again.

It turned out unexpectedly, a child as small as he was 9 years old, didi took a kitchen knife wanted to kill me. I chased Didi, I entered the room and shouted

"Tante didi brought a knife, didi naughty"

" You better die, don't be in my house anymore" Didi threatened

I laughed because it was funny, my body was big he was small, so I was able to hold the door so that didi did not enter, his knife and his hands had entered first a little hole door.

" Didi you will be arrested by the police, want to be in prison?? Shame in prison" I said

" Let the important thing you die in my hands"

" You go to hell, hahhaaha" I laughed.

" You go to hell first, I still have a chance of repentance"

" Do you if you want me to go home to my house, I make noodles, put your knife or I take it? "

I grabbed the knife from Didi's hands between the door clasps, and he cried out loud. I didn't listen and I made noodles.

He threw me a toy, I didn't mind it anymore, just his mother came out at that time

" Didi you are angry with Renna, mama kawinkan same Renna want? " Aunty try to melt the atmosphere with a joke.

She smiled and hugged her mother.

" Aunty does not know what, didi bring a knife chasing me, fortunately I can snatch" said I

" Therefore, if Didi is hungry, make her food immediately" said the aunt

" I said oon continue, I'm offended" said aunty

" You are not oon, anything is not immediately done, even wrong you do" said aunt

I just kept quiet and went into my room, I was crying and crying without anyone knowing.

Sometimes I ask why it seems like everyone doesn't like me. But I'm wasting my mind not to stress. I went out to play with the neighbors.

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Breeze in the cool and beautiful river.beware of the sight of children playing with their joking joy. I often play.

We used to go to the river to swim in the afternoon. My friends are a lot of boys the same age as didi, girls sometimes two or three. One tomboy.

They were friends with me no prestige, because they were not a school so do not know my shortcomings.

I love boys because I like to smile rather than talk a lot.

They call me a beautiful renna. But for a long time my skin blackened because I like hot-panassan.

Arriving at my aunt's katai this lutung. I'm not offended I like it. Let Olik not bother me if I'm black maybe he's uncomfortable with me. Aunty keeps saying I want to marry the same olik or didi even though it is joking, I do not want it to happen really.

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Before the aunt divorced. I'm glad there's a distant cousin, catch my place. He wanted to stay on my same roof for 1 month, because his sister died. 

His name isifat, ifat before his stay in his city with his aunt and om his father's family, he lived indeed in his own house, he told his aunt can be rough treatment. Ifat and his sister Aim rarely play out of the house, told at home to study. Ortu ifat also works abroad but has become a citizen there.

Ifat nginap time at the aunt's house, ifat like me to play around and sometimes take aunty and om outing.

Ifat is good at telling stories and talking, I often take a swim as well, if he wants me to participate, I do not dare to argue, ifat also want to learn to swim. 

He was also black like me because of the sun.

A month already he's at his aunt's house, ifat go home to his. Ifat then went out of the country following his ort.

Not long time aunt and om depart umroh, I was told my aunt often invited to play ifat so black. I felt guilty or blamed.

I live in a village with my family, I have a niece's friend who is an orphan.

Assistant at his ornate house. He doesn't like me, he's angry with me. Maybe he envies me in his sister's affection om.

" It's big to play, you should help in the kitchen" said assistant om

I also continue to play with nephew om and Didi.

I'm at the family home om, in sinisin assistant om. My aunt said she was stressed. So it's just diamin. He is old too, and I can't resist.