Behind the Beautiful Smile

I miss my mom and dad

After the departure of Ortu abroad became a foreign energy.

I lamented the passing of my mother, not actually wanting her to leave me alone. A 10-year-old must resist longing, still needs attention and affection. 

Forced to leave us for our good because of economic problems, I hate my father and conflict to my mother-in-law

Parting with ortu and siblings. Two brothers live in the city we live in.

Beautiful and spacious city to look at, memories were also once close to father. I was crying and conscious too.

It turns out true in the words of mother, will remember the goodness of father. Dad who teaches riding a bike, learning to teach, the same way dad around the city. Remember very close to me first.

Mom, I'm close with my late mother when I hate my father.

Mom used to be busy working, so mom often left me to the assistant or father.

Where did my conscience at that time hate my father?

I slowly regained my senses and improved.

Lamenting the photo of Ortu while hugged for only up to a week.

Aunty starts to say hello, before her aunt is indifferent to her efforts.

"Your father ren, hugging the photo of the mother continues, do not be too remembered, later you are sick aunt scolded your mother" said Aunt

Even more broke my tears.

Aunt try to calm down

"cup cup later try Aunty call om for a walk, do not be moody yah ren"

Finally got some attention from aunt. I'm very happy. Still shy cat same aunt.

Good om, he is so attentive when at home, om busy so rarely at home. Because often out of town deliver his trade orders by raising. The effort is advanced, but he is tempted by other women. Here begins the beginning of the mystery problem there is a connection to the death of his aunt and mother.

The woman we call Pelakor, has black knowledge so it is easy to win the heart om, om who is aware of Pelakor has black knowledge but can not be separated because of the betih marriage bond. Om started to love that actor.

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Mother already knew before leaving for LN, even mother and Aunt came to the woman, it turns out the woman even looks like a messianic, because it is smart to string words to be kasiani.

Mother still firmly attacked the woman not to disturb the aunt's household, but the aunt only silent a thousand languages even stiff in front of the woman. That's the mother's story.

Aunty wants to separate, but the family of the om broke up so as not to separate, who knows if you realize one day.

It's been two years since there's been no change. Finally dropped the talaq.

Before dropping talaq, auntie crying not because.

I approached aunt so scared.

Trying to keep your distance, afraid aunt won't be disturbed.

Aunty never told me if she was sad or maybe I did not dare to approach.

But remember mother's message, always obey her. At first he was obedient but he was happy and entertained.

Aunty if the order is chatty, if the groceries do not match he asked for , send him back again, if no one should meet until he can, at that time did not dare to fight. I should have known myself for a long time.

"Ren bought auntie lipstick yah! lipstick aunt runs out, buy it at the store nene bubu" aunty orders

" He's aunty" I just agree between understanding or not.

When we arrived, the shop closed.

I went back home. Said the store was closed. Aunty still wants to order her tree must be able to other stores.

" Try in the store next to her, you sell a lot of cosmetics" said aunt.

"It's Auntie" I said

I tried to go to another store, but I didn't find him open.

I'm trying to ask the store not sell cosmetics.

"Aunty shop where else is there selling lipstick? " ask me to a store that sells pharmacies.

I ran, told the shop at the market to close.

" There are still other stores selling, try in the front store well near photocopying!" Auntie 

"Tomorrow Aunty, this will be a bedug, I want to break the fast" I said

" Bentar aja just in front not far, the rest buy fried food, while you buy fried first if it's bedug"

" Yes aunty" I was running.

Even though I have not given the red cooking seasoning of chicken, I have boiled. Wanted to send aunt but was scared. Aunty eats he bought himself by telling Kaka step, step kaka get a commission from aunt, I do not share or get a commission. But it's okay than me to be scared.

" Try from earlier aunty said it was in front, not far to the target" murmured me while on the road.

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Aunty assistants always see black shadows coming in the aunt's room. The assistant worked only for a short time because of divorce aunt and om, she was dismissed from work.

I also have an older brother from a son father can be called a step kaka, My mother is just a connecting mother.

Aunty also has a foster child and aunt, they live with aunt. At first they got along well. For a long time I was a rich stranger at the enemy.

I was thrown by the remote and kicked slowly on the fall.

" Don't look at the TV mulu while laughing crazily, I'm disturbing sleep" Kaka snapped stepwise

I just kept quiet, the next time I was in a step Kaka, decades rarely met because I used to live with Ortu in the city. I also feel sad, already in enemyin Kaka bladder plus Kaka step.

I also dare to answer sometimes, tired in the omeli is not clear.

" It's still a big toy Berbie, it's a throwaway doll" Bentak Kaka stepdad.

" I can't watch tv, play can't, keep wanting Kaka what?" Said I was down

" Get out of here, play out there, you know your parents never pay attention to me, you're good at being noticed from small, come here you just take care of it, just, your mom and dad didn't send you money" Kaka said.

I was silent, willing to fight the fear that she would see me cry.

I also wondered in my heart, if my father did not love me anymore. Just Kaka kandy I was there sent money.

Before long mom called to auntie's phone.

Aunt told me to send money.

" Tell your mother, send money to your snacks and your school" Aunty ordered.

"My mom why didn't I send money to the snacks?" Ask me

" Borrow while with aunty well son, I'm enough for your sister, your kasian Kaka there no one helps if lack, the new mother out of the job mom here not in salary, no help, mother same father is still odd, your aunt already I tell you" said mother

It turns out that this makes them not like me anymore. Rather than me dissolving in sadness mending play outside.

I remember the mother had told others, the aunt took all the inheritance of nene and kake, the mother could not part in the slightest, the aunt gave the property of nene exhausted for the needs of nene and kake. House relics nene and datu also sold aunt, mother was not able to part.

Mother has discussed, said aunt runs out for school kaka step fee.

My stepfather, not nurtured by his biological mother because of her biological mother many children from her previous husband. I don't want to admit it's his son because his real mother cheated on him. 

My mother was the one who nurtured as a connecting mother, because it was not accepted that the father's family did not recognize his nephew or grandchild from the father's family.

My mother asked nene and kake to take care of my step-Kaka, even nene and kake with pleasure. Nene and Kake are not people.

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I also remember not getting along well with male kaka. Given how ignorant he and his cousin were, I almost drowned in the gutter, fortunately my cousin's family saw me, I cried, still my bad.

When it was a walk into the forest to see the land to buy my family and cousins.

My hand is also twisted kaka I don't want to remember that anymore, because kaka I have a lot of ignorance against me. Because of my envy at that time I was noticed because the youngest child was small.

I miss the woman, I want to go home in the city but there is no money, I say who next year I send money.

My stepbrother could even go to town to see my biological Kaka, I was not invited.

Let me miss this I am a snitch. Crying or whining I was embarrassed in front of them.