Arinda, First Love

Satria's guilt

After chatting with Citra and mama Satria for a while finally Arin was escorted to the 2nd floor where Satria's room was located. Arin looked at the door of Satria's room with a heavy sigh until finally decided to knock on the door that was closed.

Tok tok, tock,

Satria who was sitting on the floor leaning on her bed immediately turned her head when she heard the sound of knocking on the door along with the voice of Arin who was calling her.

He was a little surprised to find that Arin was really there, but Satria also felt that she did not have the courage to appear in front of Arin .

It is still recorded clearly in his memory all the things that Arin's father and mother said yesterday. Satria is the source of all the suffering in Arin's life. If it wasn't for that Arin wouldn't have experienced all those heavy things.

The guilt in his heart was too domineering, making him even feel extremely embarrassed to even just reappear before Arin. Finding Satria who was just silent in the room, made Arin feel quite sad.

For the first time Satria just ignored him like this. A few things flashed through his head, could it be that something happened with Satria inside or Satria indeed just did not want to meet him.

"Sat, open this door I am Arin." cried Arin while knocking on the door many times.

"Sat, what the hell are you doing?"

"Open the door Satria!"

Tok tok tok, tok,

"Well, if you don't want to see me again. Don't expect you'll see me again anywhere." threatened Arin a little annoyed about to turn away after almost half an hour he screamed in front of Satria's room without the slightest response.

Ceklek, the door of Satria's room was opened on the follow-up Satria who immediately held Arin's arm who was about to leave.

"Excuse me." said Satria weakly while lowering her face.

Arin could only sigh harshly, then turned back and entered Satria's room. Satria's room looked dark and messy with lots of stuff strewn about. Arin immediately walked towards the window and pulled the curtains to make Satria's room filled with light from outside.

Srrakk

Arin did not talk much, in silence he began to tidy up Satria's belongings back in place. He also began to tidy up Satria's bed that looks messy while Satria just speechless sculpting did not dare to look at Arin at all.

Satria finally closed the door to her room and walked towards Arin who was making her bed. Without saying, Satria hugged Arin from behind.

"I'm sorry for all the suffering I've given you. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you. Sorry also because it is not on your side, when you experience all those bad things" Satria said slightly stammered.

His voice sounded raucous, even Satria's appearance looked so chaotic. He still wears the clothes he wore yesterday. For the first time Arin sees Satria actually crying.

His shoulders seemed to be shaking up and down in rhythm with his broken cry. Arin was secretly trying to hold back her tears so as not to spill. After trying to calm himself down, Arin finally released both hands of Satria that coiled around his body and turned around.

Gently Arin removed the traces of tears on both cheeks of Satria. He tries to calm Satria down and says that he is fine now. Seeing deep regret in mat Satria, of course, Arin also understood what might be said by his parents.

"It's all over, didn't you promise to give me a beautiful future" Arin said as he stared into Satria's eyes, still blushing.

"But I hurt you so much. Me, I don't know anything. I didn't know that I almost got you out of this world. I really feel guilty, I feel guilty and I feel like I don't pantes anymore for you." - Satria.

Arin smiled gently at Satria and then put both hands coiled on Satria's body. What Arin guessed was indeed true, Satria had known everything. Even the dumbest thing he's ever done in his life.

"I love you so much Sat, more than you think. More than I love myself. You are my first love, my current love, and my love in the future."

"I don't want to remember the past anymore which will remind me of the stupid things I've done in the past. If you are truly sorry, the only thing you have to do right now is fight for me. Until my father and mother can accept and bless you. And you can make me happy, for now and in the future that's the price you have to pay for everything I've ever experienced." arin said solemnly while looking into Satria's eyes while one hand gently stroked Satria's cheek.

Tangis Satria was again broken hearing what Arin said at this time. On the one hand he feels very lucky and happy to get Arin back. But on the other hand he also felt very sick because the cause of all Arin's pain was himself.

Arin hugged Satria again and gently rubbed Satria's back which was still shaking while trying to calm her down. Arin let Satria spill all her feelings back then.

He knew very well how much Satria loved him, therefore Satria must also feel sick and hurt because of the facts she had just learned from her parents. He could only pray in his heart that God would be kind.

To anchor their love that never changes even though more than a thousand years have passed. To unite them in pure and holy love. To link their relationship in a new phase of life in the sacred bond of marriage.

Satria now chose to lie down with her head in Arin's lap. His eyes seemed to be closed with regular breaths beginning to sound. After being satisfied to spill all his feelings and regrets Satria also fell asleep in Arin's lap.

Gently one of his hands was seen rubbing Satria's hair. While one hand the other was held tightly by Satria. Arin did not feel the slightest objection, he actually felt happy because there was finally no more secret between the two.

Arin only hopes Satria will not give up easily in the face of the rejection given by her parents. Although difficult, but Arin is quite sure if in the end they will get the blessing of both parents Arin.