Arinda, First Love

The wounds that repeat

Arriving at the house Arin immediately ran to his room and locked himself there. He shed all his pain for many years and tried to hide it in such a heartbreaking cry.

Father and mother were very surprised to hear the noise from Arin's room. They rushed her to the room and tried to knock on the door, asking her daughter to open it.

But Arin seemed deaf and did not budge in the least to hear the concerns of his parents. His heart was completely shattered and aching as if repeating the same wound.

It was as if it had just happened, like a dagger thrust right into his heart. Arin cried with grief, he remembered as if remembering something. Soon he woke up and ruffled his wardrobe looking for something.

After a while of searching, Arin finally got a box not too big and took it out. Arin unlocks the door of his room and rushes out without caring for his parents who keep asking because they are worried about him.

Her appearance was already messy with disheveled hair and traces of tears on both sides of her face. His eyes were swollen because he had been crying for hours.

With a quick step Arin brought the light blue box into the backyard and threw it. While both of his parents just quietly try to give space to Arin.

They followed his daughter's footsteps into the back garden. And once they get there, Arin is seen lighting a match and throwing it towards the box containing the photos and also the items that Satria had given first.

Arin kept it for years because he was always unable to burn it or throw it away. But now right in front of his parents, Arin burned everything down.

The poor girl could only sit in front of the blaze while beating her chest which felt so tight. Mom and dad came over and took her into their arms.

This time my mom and dad understood what had happened. They just tried to strengthen and calm Arin without asking a single question.

After a while the mother led her daughter into the house still hugging her. Now they are in the living room with Arin's condition gradually calm.

He was in a lying position with his head leaning over his two thighs. Her cries had already subsided and were barely audible, yet her tears were still falling down both of her cheeks.

Mother simply gently stroked the top of her daughter's head without saying a single word. After all these years is the first time Arin looks to completely vanish all the pain Satria gave her first.

Seeing her daughter just crying in silence made the mother's heart break. But he couldn't do anything about it, and that's what made him even more sad.

While the father chose to go to his daughter's room which now looks very messy. Slowly I tidied up one by one the items scattered on the floor.

he also looked at all the photos on the wall of his daughter's room. Where there are many photos of Arin since he was a child until he grew up. Dad was stunned to see a photo of Arin when smiling High School so brightly among his row of friends.

A father's heart was deeply wounded when he saw his daughter in such a bad condition that he could do nothing. For Arin's father life was like he had stopped at the age of 18.

After all the things that befell his daughter, he never really saw her smiling happily without the slightest pretense.

During this time the father and mother just silent and never dare to bring up about Satria to guard the heart of his daughter. He never expected that he would eventually see his daughter back in such a state of disintegration.

Father also rubbed one of Arin's photos with Meisya who looks very happy wearing a high school uniform. Slowly the father embraced the photo and cried bitterly on his daughter's bed.

After almost 1 hour, the condition of Arin's room was as before because the father immediately tidied it up alone. After he finished, the father signaled to his wife to take their daughter to his room so that Arin could rest.

While in a corner of a house filled with darkness, Satria seemed to sit down and cry.

His heart was very sick to see Arinda who looked very depressed and suffering.

It is he who is the cause of the grief of the girl he loves so much.

Even after 8 years, he still loved her so much. Not 1 day did he miss her.

He continued to curse his folly and beat himself up while screaming in frustration.

He was angry and hated himself .

To escape all his depression, Satria finally arrived at a night club in the center of the rainy city.

Satria finished all the drinks in front of him so that he could forget for a moment his frustration. He ignored some girls who came and teased him as if he had not seen them.

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After making sure Arin fell asleep, father and mother returned to the bottom. They immediately contacted Adrian and told him everything.

Adrian was very surprised to hear that because when Arin came to visit his house with Raka, Arin still seemed fine.

"Where is Arin now, ma'am?"

"Alhamdulillah is now calmer. Your sister is asleep now.“

" Thank God, then."

"Adrian, can you bring your wife and baby here tomorrow. Take them to stay here for a few days. So that your sister's mind can be switched."

"Okay ma'am, we'll be home tomorrow morning."

That's about the conversation and Adrian. Without father and mother knowing Arin has been awake since.

He just sat on the bed with a blank look. No more tears came out from her beautiful and brown eyes.

Only a silent voice in the midst of the immortality of his heart.

If only you were in my current position.

What will you feel now?

Do you know how I am doing right now?

I can't even close my eyes to sleep.

I even have trouble swallowing anything.

Do you know that?

When I saw you, I felt more devastated than the days before.

I feel like I'm dying and I'm going to die.

I don't know how much I could get hurt.

There's nothing I can do with that.

What if these crazy days were yours?

What if you're the one who suffered this destruction and not me?

Will you finally understand?

My chest was tight and felt like it was about to explode.

It was as if all the pain filled my heart.

Because I've only loved you, my whole life.