Arinda, First Love

Apprehension

Raka pensively looked at the white cloud clumps that looked to spoil the eyes. Now he is above 36,000 feet on his way home to Jakarta.

Her thoughts were now far away at her conversation yesterday with Arinda. The sad gurat on his face was enough to explain if he was very injured.

Flashbacks, flashbacks,

Raka approached Arin who was sitting on a swing made of wood while staring at the beautiful twilight.

"Ehem, no bother?" asked Raka starting the conversation made Arin turn to look at her.

"Eh, don't you. Here sit here." replied Arin as he patted the empty spot next to her.

They ended up sitting awkwardly next to each other and only kept quiet for a few moments while staring at the orange color before him.

"Are you happy here?" tanya Raka decided to break the awkwardness.

"As you can see, the atmosphere here is very calm and comfortable" replied Arin slightly curling her lips.

"You know that's not what I meant by Rin." said Raka again make the look of Arin's face turned sad.

"Are you happy to keep running away like this?" continue again by striking.

Some time Arin was just silent, he was seen sighing several times until finally back to sound.

"You're right Raka, I may indeed not be happy running away like this. Unfortunately, this is what I need now. I just want to pull away from all the things that make me claustrophobic and burdened." explained Arin as he looked directly at Raka.

"Well, when are you going to be here? Should I be with you?" ask Raka .

"No Raka, your place is not here." replied Arin made Raka's heart pierced.

"Is there really no chance for me Rin?" asked Raka again trying to strengthen her heart.

"Sorry Raka, for me you are the best friend I have ever had" Arin said honestly.

Raka's heart was like a big rock, so stifling. Arin just wants to be honest with himself, he doesn't want to hurt Raka more later on.

Although it sounds bitter to Raka but Arin is sure that what he is doing right now is the best for them. Especially for Raka herself, because she does not want to give empty hope for their relationship.

Raka is a person who means in his life but as a friend only. He does not want to try something that he knows the results will fail and definitely affect the good relationship between the two.

"I'm sorry that again I let you down." said Arin, looking down.

"There is nothing to forgive Rin, thank you for being honest" Raka said as she tried to put a smile on her face.

"Sure." said Arin while receiving a helping hand Raka.

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Raka also realized from his daydream when he heard the announcement if soon they will soon land at Soekarno-Hatta Airport.

Raka immediately woke up Dean who still seemed to be asleep next to him. They decided to go back to Jakarta.

While at his home, Arin seems to be cleaning up some books that Raka deliberately brought for him. Raka knows that Arin loves to read books. To fill the spare time Arin does often do it.

Dean decides to return with Raka to Jakarta. He could not stay longer even though he wanted to, because his leave permit had expired. And it just so happened to be Raka, so Dean was thrilled to make a traveling companion.

Arin seemed to think about Raka's words before leaving. The voice of his best friend was still ringing in his ears even though hours had passed.

He immediately went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. He poured water into the glass and immediately gulped it down to the toilet. Then he seemed to breathe out his bad breath for several times.

"God, Raka's words can always affect me. Though what he said was what my own family often said." said Arin with a little annoyance at himself.

"Don't hide too long, your real life isn't here. Everyone is waiting for you to come home. Let me know, if you're ready to return to Jakarta." said Raka just before he left the island.

That line of words continued to disturb his mind. Arin has not considered returning soon. But every sentence Raka spoke to him was as if slapping him.

His parents did not invite Arin to return to Jakarta immediately. Even so, they ask Arin to find activities to fill his time rather than just staying at home every day.

Even his father's best friend once offered a job at a Private Bank in the city center. It is about 2 hours by ferry from his home.

It was not possible to go home every day, and required him to find a boarding house there. But Arin rejected the offer on the grounds that he had not wanted to work for some time.

Although it was actually deep in his heart, he actually longed to go to work. And every time he remembered his work, he would be reminded of Herti and Andi.

Since leaving a year ago, he had completely cut off the communication between them. Not that Arin does not want to be in touch with his two friends anymore, only that he does not want to hear any news from them about Satria or Bayu.

Moreover, he is afraid that Bayu will be able to sniff his existence if Arin is still in contact with his friends. He just wants to live his new life in peace.

Arin will not forget what happened last time between him and his former boss. Arin did not tell that to anyone, he did not expect people like Bayu to act that low.

Not to mention, he even deliberately made a slander to trap Satria and put her in jail. Arin can not forgive Bayu for these 2 things.

Just because of a woman, Bayu can plunge his own best friend for his benefit. Not wanting to bother anymore with what he was thinking at this time, Arin chose to immediately go to clean up because the day had begun to afternoon.