AmiKas
not seeing him again
I saw again, but
Not seeing him again
I saw him because he sacrificed
He sacrificed so he could go.
I parted with her in a dream
And wake up already looking
But not him
He was in God's heaven.
I can't forgive
He who did not tell
He was the one who secretly helped
To sacrifice one sense because life is already at the threshold of heaven.
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Amis
'me where?' ask me to myself. My eyes see the multicolored universe, I see clearly myself. 'I can see again?'. I smiled thankfully and praised. There's someone I know and haven't seen in a long time
"aisha!"
I called him, but why was his view empty. I stepped closer to him
"sha"
I called him once again. He still looked blankly, but his typical smile emanated sincerely
"don't come near me mi"
My feet stopped walking. I looked at him strangely because his gaze did not move even once.
"why sha?"
Aisha smiled with a sweet hunch
"you take good care of yourself. I'm saying goodbye forever. I'm waiting for you in heaven"
"what? You meanwhat?"
I just stepped up to him. He walked backwards, and waved, before long he faded away and disappeared just like that
...
My eyes could not be opened, I moved my head to the right and to the left, my hands held my eyes, it turned out my eyes were bandaged. Why does it seem like something happened while I was asleep. I don't think this is in my room. I heard a familiar voice
"mom, ami's sober, ma'am"
That's the voice of the man I love, Raka
"dok, ami's sober, doc"
That's my mom and Sarah's voice. I'm confused, what's really going on? Why do they say I'm aware? Am I not just asleep?
"ami? Ami answer me"
It's the sound of dawn. I just nodded in answer.
"sit yuk mi"
I helped the dawn sit. Dawn cut the bandages that covered my eyes. I'm silent, not picking anything. Finally my eyes could breathe from the bandage that covered
"now open your eyes slowly mi"
Dawn directed me, I followed what dawn said. At first everything was still pseudo then my eyes blinked a few times. Finally, I saw the colors of the universe clearly and the shapes of the people I love clearly, I smiled happily
"i can see again"
My hand rubbed my eyes.
"eh his eyes should not be rubbed first"
I laughed at the dawn ban on my behavior. Mom and Dad came over and hugged me. They kissed my forehead one by one. My eyes stopped looking at someone I loved, Raka
"raccas"
Raka smiled with beautiful eyes. Dawn smiled at me too. Beside the dawn were mother aira and Pak shakir, mother and father aisha
"mother aira, sir shakir, where's aisha?"
"mother aira?"
"mom's okay mi"
I stared strangely. Why is mom aira so sad? And mr. shakir is so hidden in grief
"i want to see aisha mom"
Bu aira nodded her head, smilingly accepting bu aira's answer
"mother, my father wants to see Aisha right now"
Mom and Dad were staring at dawn while the doctor was handling me. Dawn nodded, I smiled happily with her answer.
"i want to walk on foot, Mom"
"yes yes" Mother answered with resignation to my request. I smiled spoiledly at my mother.
Mom and Dad walked next to me. I looked back, saw the raka and dawn that were walking together, I smiled at them. In front was bu aira with Pak shakir walking together. I am happy to see again. Me, mom, and dad are in the same car, Raka with the dawn in a different car, so are bu aira and pak shakir. Bu aira's car and Pak shakir's run first because I don't know where Aisha is.
Finally the car that Pak shakir was driving stopped as well. I looked out the window.is it not a funeral?, Is it aisha's house next to it?, but why stop here?.I opened the door and my feet stepped out of the car. My eyes looked at the vast cemetery. Ms. aira and Pak shakir walked into the cemetery without speaking, I couldn't ask anything. Raka's hand grabbed my hand, she led me into the cemetery without a word as well. I stared at the raka that led me without looking at me. I looked back, father, mother, and dawn followed with my head lowered. What happened without my knowledge?
The steps of bu aira and pak shakir stopped in front of the seemingly new tomb. Raka stopped the steps right next to bu aira and Pak shakir. I'm stalled too. I still stared in disunderstanding
"you've met aisha mi"
Raka showed me something with her hand. I looked at what Raka was showing. I saw her, I read aisha cika's name written on the tombstone. My feet go limp and drop. My tears fell straight
"why sha? what else? So is it true that the dream was our last meeting?"
I walked closer to Aisha who was in the embrace of the universe. I embraced the name of Aisha written on the tombstone.
"aisha chika! Why sha! we just met sha!"
I drowned with sadness that was so flowing. My hand hit my own body. Raka came up to me, holding the hand that was beating myself up
"don't hurt yourself mi"
"but ka"
Raka put my head on her chest. I cried until the flood on raka's shirt.
"there's this one from Aisha"
Raka gives a box of pink color with a white ribbon from aisha. I opened it, inside, there were pictures of me with aisha and the camera that aisha always wears. I stared at Raka, nodding my head at the question my eyes were asking. I took aisha's camera and turned it on. When the camera was illuminated, aisha was inside with a pale face, a head covering and a breathing apparatus
...
"hello my best friend amigea! I miss you"(Aisha smiled and cleared her throat)
"if you see this vidio, it means that my eyes are already on you and are yours. Take it easy, don't be surprised. This is my wish not dawn, raka, or whoever it is. I have been called by God and I do not want my friend to be unhappy. You don't feel bad about this, look at this (aisha releases the skull that covers her head) there is no hair on my head mi, this means my blood cancer is really severe. Not that I gave up, but I was invited to God's heaven. So I don't want me to be happy in heaven but you're not happy in the world because you can't see. God has set my eyes for you, my friend. Make it a reminder and a remedy when you miss you. I will miss you more in heaven, so don't forget to pray for me, I will pray for you"
Aisha briefly commas and drinks water on the side table
"oh yes, now I don't have to take you across the street because now my eyes have helped you. I'm sorry I never returned your thanks in person, but I still answered you in my heart. I have one request mi. I want you to live my mandate. I want you to see the people you love, make you happy by looking. Tell me your happiness through your vision, so that I can be happy. Do not be sad to see. But if it's unstoppable you can cry, as long as it makes you relieved. I beg you, please be happy yourself. And be with the people you love and care about. One more thing, take care of yourself well, I say forever, I'm waiting for you in heaven"
...
My tears did not stop falling. I hugged the box and it was filled. I stared at the photos that painted my story with Aisha. Ms. aira and Pak shakir came up to me, mama aira hugged me and fixed my eyes that I closed
"look at my mom, look!"
I opened my eyes at the request of Bu aira sobbing crying
"you don't feel bad. Aisha also lost it to you. This is indeed the desire of aisha and the destiny of God. You should be grateful not to drop yourself into endless sadness. Remember what aisha request you have to go through! You should be happy amigea"
I nodded my head and grabbed bu aira's hug again
"thank you ma'am"
Bu aira nodded her head "thank you to aisha with do'a, and thank God with gratitude"
"yes ma'am, sure"
I tightened my arms with bu aira. Aisha's face is reflected in my amygdalaku. The dream that had come was indeed my last meeting with him. It turns out I've been friends with wingless angels. He is worthy of Allah's paradise, may it be so, 'aamiin'
Bu aira let go of her embrace. His hand wiped my cry. I gave a smile to mom.
"yuk go home, let aisha rest in peace"
I nodded, then got up from sitting. My hand reached by her, Raka smiled at me, I finally saw her smile again. Me, raka, mother, father, mother aira, mr. shakir, and dawn walk up aisha. Even so, it feels like Aisha still feels her presence, because she does not deserve to be forgotten.
'i'll make you happy by making myself happy, sha. who is calm there my friend, I will surely miss you' my heart whispers to his heart that still feels good, 'aisha thank you for everything I can't repay'
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