AmiKas
slow down
In between be patient
Slowly everything improved
It's been like before
When he was with him, it was not why and why.
No one can count
Slowly he started with me again
Even though I forgot my memories
But, this is a sign that God will grant do’ me.
Slow down, that's for sure
It will go well
And will improve soon
Of course me and him will be together again.
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Amis
I push raka wherever this foot goes. From then on she was silent, not asking or talking to me. I was silent thinking what was with the raka. In front of me there was a hospital garden that was so cool, I saw an empty chair and floated with a tree that made shade, I immediately set a step there. When I got to the garden chair, I positioned my raka sitting next to me. I sat in the garden chair, and no movement or words came out of his mouth. I took a breath
“you why you? How do you look moody?”
“ah what?”
Raka asked me who asked
“you why?”
“oh, it's okay”
Raka's face when she answered did not convince me at all, I furrowed my eyebrows
“you can't lie ka”
Raka bowed her head as if guilty as I spoke
“i felt bad for seina when I was”
“deally?”
“akupun don't know why”
He looked back at me. Now he's not lying
“you like seina?”
“apa? I like seina? Nah! I was just friends with him from sd, maybe”
“maybe?”
“iya, maybe. Because I forgot everything”
“oh yes”
I smiled at the answer I should have noticed. Raka went back to silence, but now that she was gazing around the universe, there was a smile that she carved out bit by bit.
“amige”
Raka just called me with eyes that didn't see me but saw the universe
“iya?”
“what are you worried about in this world?”
“aku, worrying about someone I love and care about leaving without remembering me”
“who is it?”
Raka immediately replied with a curious look at my answer. I smiled laughing at him
“ya, just worry. For me that's the thing I worry about raka”
“oh so”
“if you ka?”
“i worry away from living with a state of forgetting everything, even I fear it happens mi”
‘i'm also afraid to hear it ka’ murmured me in my heart. I didn't answer anything, there I put my head down because it felt like tears had wanted to fall.
“don't be sad dong mi”
Raka teased with a laughing smile. I'm so embarrassed to see him laugh because it feels like I haven't seen him like this to me in a long time. I was the one who was wrong to make my hand reflexively hit his arm
“awww”
He let out a signal of his pain. My heart immediately pounded quickly fearing that there was anything because of me. Now my hands reflexively touch and stroke the arm I hit
“sorry to me. Which one hurts?”
I saw a raka arm that was now thinner than yesterday. I was waiting for a reply from him, but he still did not answer my question. I turned my eyes to her, and she looked at me so deeply. I waved my hand in his eyes straight away, but he was not aware of what I was doing.
“raka? raka fhaisal?”
He was still unaware of his eyes that were not looking at me. I thought in what way I realized it
“raka fhaisal!”
I mentioned his name by shouting right in his ear. He was immediately shocked to realize from the pokus staring at me
“eh uh, yes what?”
I laughed at him. The lower lip of the raka advanced slightly forward which meant that she was resentful because I laughed. Precisely because of that, my laughter could not stop. Until finally my stomach hurt suddenly because of the laughter that I could not stop. I held onto my stomach, which was aching with amusement laughing at the increasingly becoming-make his face by carving out a strange look
“enough ami. Don't laugh anymore”
Now her tone that sounded strange for an aging age was like raka, including me.
“ah nasty!”
Raka lowered. My laughter stopped immediately. There were eyes that stared sadly at Raka in the wheelchair.
“ka..” I call it soft. She looked over with a gentle smile from the heart, I replied with a sincere smile from the heart.
“ami?” he called me softly
“iya what raka?”
He turned his eyes away from my eyes
“you should be able to answer”
The arch of my right eyebrow reflexively rose upwards hearing raka's request
“why is my heart always pounding when looking and being with me?”
I was very surprised by the question of children but adults can be confused to answer it
“ya, where do I know Raka Fhaisal”
Raka smiled shyly. He looked me in the eye
“I want to know your face how mi?”
“you mean?”
“ya it” she so calmly asked
“cannot seem so ka, wear this veil there are rules and laws”
Raka kept smiling and kept looking at me without even a single cent
“yasud. You know, me and you never knew mi?”
‘not only know ka, we are always with’ I murmured in my heart. I smiled at him who was so enthusiastic in asking
“enthlah”
I smiled when I answered him. His face immediately carved a new look
“ko I don't know? Give me amigea certainty!”
He replied in a pushy tone. I smile to myself when I hear it
“akupun don't know raka. never seems to ka”
Raka's face immediately answered her disbelief
“I'm not sure mi”
“why?”
“akupun don't know”
“last?”
“already it's okay”
He smiled at so many meanings that he attributed to me. I want to hold her hand and talk about what really happened. But I'm afraid he's in pain again. I turned my eyes away from Raka, while raka still looked at me
“amige”
He called like pulling me with a lure that could directly look at me to him
“iya?”
He still smiled yet to answer my question
“I think, I like you”(down)
He was silent, I couldn't look at him. Nervous to rule me, I was at a loss as to what to answer.
“already, let's go home mi” he looks ordinary but still implies nervousness that he also feels
“oh, yes come” I replied nervously expressed in my tone, fortunately raka does not add to nervousness anymore
Me and Raka have landed in their place. Seina sat in the outdoor chair. She did not let go of her eyes seeing me and the raka that was starting to get close to her. When it came right in front of his eyes. Seina did not speak anything\-nothing, she instead lowered her gaze. There's no heart to see it like this, but how else.
“ami” raka calls me who is talking to myself in the heart
“iya?” I answered while looking at her like-minded face
“you can go home, I'm with seina”
“oh. Raka, seina, I'm home. Assalamu’alaikum”
“wa’alaikumsalam” (raka and seina together)
My move away from the footing of raka and seina. They are still standing where I am with them. When the intersection in the other direction, I look first to the back right raka and seina still there has not entered the room. Raka smiled at me, but seina was still like an unwilling feeling to me.
…
Amis
My leg has been lifted from the hospital. I breathed a sigh of relief. Today, all the mixed feelings, I was confused about where to tell Aisha. I was just about to pick up a phone to call Aisha, someone called my name, his voice taka sing in the ear
“amigea!”
I saw him calling, dawn. Has she come from ushering Aisha home or has she just come? I see the white coat still hugging him.
“dawn!”
I returned the call. He stepped closer to where I stood. I think there's something not as you wish
“jar? Where are you from?”
“aku? I just finished operating the fasien. I'm sorry mi, I can't deliver aisha home because there was a hit-and-run facial
“then aisha know?” I cut him off even though I knew he would explain what I was asking him
“iya aisha knows kok mi, just relax”
His face looked down like I was guilty, so I couldn't look at him like this
“iya is fine kok jar, which is important aisha knows. I'm afraid if he's waiting for you”
His face was back and he smiled at me
“you want to go home? Already done the same streets raka?”
“iya I want to go home. Raka has been accompanied by seina”
“i've brought you home or not? My job is done” anyway
He gave a smile that was decorated with hope, I would reflexively give him a smile too
“bener? I'm scared like aisha who didn't because there was an impromptu operation”
I taunted him accompanied by hesitation to accept his invitation
“ won't mi, picket me only until afternoon. Even if later there are patients who must be operated not I am the doctor who will operate but the doctor who is the picket part of the afternoon until night”
I couldn't help but laugh as he explained what I already knew but I doubted. Even though I only tested it, I also knew if the surgeon had a picket work schedule.
“iya jar, I also know kok”
I replied with a prank that was always etched into my face. Dawn smiled shyly, her hand immediately took my hand and she led me to her car not far from where I was with the dawn standing from earlier. I think there's something bad to continue
“dawn! Release my hand”
Hand-cranked reflex releases my hand
“forgive me mi, I forgot”
I stroked the back of my hand. I just nodded my head to answer
“forgive me amigea”
His face was so guilty to me. Even though I had forgiven him, it was just that I did not express it verbally
“iya dawn god I forgive you”
She smiled embarrassedly at my answer
“nah dong if forgiving says. What if I buy you?”
“(knitting one right eyebrow) for what?”
“ya, not for nothing”
“already come walk”
He smiled happily. I walked ahead of him, a strange dawn. Why am I walking in front of him but he's still behind
“dawn come!”
He was instantly aware of the strange behavior present when I accepted his offer. He ran after me who was far enough away from him that he and I walked together until the rhythm of the kakipun came together. I'm right, dawnpun right. I'm left, dawnpun left.
“ih, we're following me in step jar”
Dawn laughed out loud, I followed along laughing at the strange dawn. His laughter grew even more so, now he was laughing and his hands were pointing at me. Yeah, rather he laughed at me. I don't want to lose, I repay him the same way. It turns out that laughing is also exhausting not only fighting for someone who does not fight back. My laughter died down, and the dawn died down
“ayo, enter car”
It turned out that I was laughing with him, me and dawn had arrived in front of his car. It's true, happy is forgetting everything. I nodded and then got into the car.
In the car, the dawn focused on the road that was challenging him. I enjoy a pretty comfortable dawn soup if I sleep. I felt that there was something lacking in this car.I just realized the silence created from the lack of ability between me and the dawn
“jar, can you play music?”
“ya may mi. just turn from your phone. In my car there is no music, usually I play from my phone”
He replied with eyes that did not turn away from the road. I immediately picked up the phone in my bag and connected the cable to connect to the music player in the dawn car. In my music collection I immediately chose Ed Sheren with the title perfect. I sing along to the music I play
‘I found a love
For me’
“you like songs like that mi?”
Raka asked when I was listening to the sound of raka who always sang when I heard this song.
“not just that. I really like this song, as well as Raka”
“raka?”
“iya, me and raka always sing together if they hear this song played anywhere and under any circumstances it”
As I spoke, the amygdala brought me back to that time. Until I saw dawn was raka
“forgive me ami”
I was awakened by the dawn that apologized. The figure of raka instantly disappeared from my shadow.
“sorry for what jar?”
“sorry for the question that made you think of raka”
“(laughs a little forced) it's okay jar”
Dawn just smiled not retorting anything. Maybe he doesn't want to make me think of raka anymore because of it anyway, taka da that has to be answered again after I forgive him.
“ayo mi down, already up to”
The sound of dawn resuscitated me who was conversing with a heart that always remembered the raka at dawn. For some reason, every time I was with dawn, the thought of raka was always there, even if it disappeared for only a few seconds, after which it came again for me to think. I always felt bad when I saw the dawn was raka. Not once did I see the dawn become see raka, I have often realized if the dawn calls me three or more times.
“mi?”
“oh yes?”
Surely dawn called me again because I was still trapped in the arms of raka love.
“ayo down already until”
Raka got out of the car. I tidy up my slightly messy bag before getting out of the car. Just as I was about to open the door to get out, dawn had already opened the door from outside the car, I received his banquet to get out of the car. He took me to the beach, a lot of vendors were going around the stretch of beach oasir. I feel fresh staring and feeling the beach angina. I looked at the dawn, and the dawn was watching me. I smiled ashamedly at him
“ayo”
Dawn went straight without, as usual, grasping my hand. I smiled at him who had walked without seeing me who was still in place. Suddenly he stopped, he looked back
“ami come!”
He calls with a volume that is quite loud because here the waves are quite loud and make the universe reflect his voice, so those who stay here always harden the sound when talking to a partner he said. I immediately followed the dawn which continued its path without waiting for me to walk parallel to it.
Now I walk parallel to dawn. There was no response when I was with him. The dawn is focused on looking ahead. Until arriving at the beach, the dawn just stopped its pace, I also immediately stopped because of it. now he looked and then watched me. He smiled and narrowed his eyes which already looked narrow due to the glasses. I replied with a smile too. The bellows begin to appear on the glass of the mouth. Now he smiles showing his teeth and dimples are present because he is moved. I lowered my head because the shadow I saw the dawn had started to turn into raka.
“amige”
He called out as nervousness began to control. I forced him to return to his sight
“iya?”
There's a coma that dawns to answer my question. His gaze was now so deep from the view of the ordinary days that had already passed.
“amige”
He called my name again. I made him a little upset because he had been secretly teasing me
“apa fa.”
Just as I was about to reveal his name, he covered my veil-covered lips with his index finger
“dawn god loves amigea”
At once, it was like lightning was passing through and hitting me. I'm weak I don't know what to say let alone what to do to change this mood. I don't want to be cooped up by the expression of his feelings for me
“ami is fine. I'm not asking you to return my feelings, I just want to express them to you”
I just nodded back at her calmness that sounded painful to her.
“forgive me dawn, I want to go home now”
He hasn't returned my request. I tried to calm myself down, until I finally saw the dawn again. He was still staring at the dark universe.
“while ami, I want to see sunset”
I just nodded and went back to enjoying the sunset with dawn.
It feels like today, so many feelings are felt by me and so many feelings are also expressed for me. I am so grateful, there are still many people who love and love me. But if the person I love is really sick, just as happy this is not entirely the case. Although many people who approached and suddenly came\ bring a taste, it would not be that easy I feel the same way with someone.
“ayo home mi”
He made me realize who was talking to the universe about today.it seems all too enthusiastic about my story that has been witnessed by him, until it entered the night he still showed me the red mega of twilight.
The car arrived in front of my house. During the journey of taka da cakap who decorated, I was busy listening to music in Bluetooth earphones covered with hijab. When I open the door to get out
“ami”
Dawn called me, she looked at me too. I also looked at him with a banquet of questions implied in my eyes
“thank you and sorry for today”
His eyes were so shady as I stared, I sat under the shade of his eyes. I nodded without replying with a single sentence or word to her. My sister stepped out of her car. There was no final word for her, I was nervous and worried for her heart, I was afraid of creating feelings for her again. I do not want to account for his feelings because until now I still expect him who still forgets himself. I finally got to the gate of my house
“tit”
Dawn honked, the car disappeared from my sight. Immediately, the memory of the moment on the beach was immediately heard and I felt I had to take responsibility for the feeling of dawn even though I did not accept it.
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