AmiKas

do not

I can't stay still

Because I can't do anything

Should trouble the one who loves me

They should stay away from me.

Don't

I don't want the pity that undergirds it

I can be alone, even if it's hard

I better trouble myself.

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Amis

"ami, let's get up, it's morning"

I opened my eyes. I don't think it's morning yet, because of the black I keep seeing. I wake up from sleep. I don't know what to do, but Mom still feels right next to me

"let's eat first, son"

"i want to take a shower first, Mom"

"well, pandikan's mother"

"i want to be alone"(my face is flat)

"are you sure?"

"i can ma'am, I beg you"

"well, I'll take you to the bathroom"

"i can also do it myself, ma'am"

"but.."

"i can be mom"

I slightly raised my voice. I feel guilty for refusing my mother's help, but how else, I don't want to feel any more useless. My feet went straight down to the floor. I walked, walked, and I hit the table

"awww" I complained of pain, my mother ran to me

"coup worries mom. There's mom son, I'm gonna help you"

"but I feel like a useless kid"

"you are the mother's son, the mother who gave birth to you"

Tears sang a song of sadness for me and my mother. I immediately asked mom and mom to hug me.

"let's look at your pandikan mother"

I accepted mother's request.

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Rabbet

"assalamu'alaikum"

I knocked on the door of Ami's house. Mom opened the door shortly.

"eh raka, what's up, son?"

"raka wants to take ami to bu road, can you?"

"just go in yuk"

I nodded and followed the arsyi maam who was following me.

"mother call aminya first"

I still answer with a nod. Ms. Arsyi went a long way and entered the room. Shortly thereafter, Arsyi ma'am came to take care of ami. There was sadness that immediately perched when he saw ami's eyes.

"raccas"

Ami called out to me, I immediately stood up to greet ami.

"we take a walk, calm down I will take care of you"

"can mom?" ami asked mother

"yes of course can be my son, take care of the mother's son yes raka"

"get ready to do ma'am" I saluted to receive my mother's message. Mother smiled with my behavior, ami also smiled behind her veil that spread the beauty of her heart.

"just be safe"

Mom asked me to take care of ami. Ami nodded her head allowing me to lead her. My hand grabbed ami's hand, I led her all the way to the car

"ayo ami ride in the car"

Ami only replied with a nod of the head.I smiled sadly looking at her like this to me, even though I knew her heart was not silent like this. I've been driving a car. My hand pressed the music player, the music played perfect Ed Sheren, this was already the first music played in my car. Ami bowed her head, I watched her, her eyes were still as shady as ever even in these circumstances.

I finally arrived at the beach. I stopped the car in the shade.

"yey, ami's here"

Ami nodded her head. I got out of the car and rushed to open the door to get out. I grabbed his hand, and got out of the car. I led him to the beach.

"ami, you know where it is now?"

Ami shook her head, I thought for a moment

"we answer me with your voice that I miss"

Ami is silent and does not dwell on anything. I'm a little sad about the one I'm replying to

"amme I love you under any circumstances"

Ami shook her head, there was a strange sense of sadness to see her shake her head

"why mi?"

"you deserve more than I deserve you"

Finally, I opened my voice. But his voice was a heart-wrenching piece of music. I can't make you sad because I know you love me too, it's just circumstances that make you hide your feelings

"but what I deserve is you mi"

"no ka, you're not blind, don't go blind"

My tears fell for the first time accidentally due to the sound of ami.

"i'm not blind, you deserve me"

"don't be like that, raka! i'm blind!"

Ami was crying, she was holding herself in the sand. My tears aren't falling anymore, but crying just like ami. I equalized the position with ami. Ami is still crying

"ami" I greeted him with a hand that approached him

"don't touch me raka, I beg you!"

"why mi?"

"i told you, I don't deserve you raka"

"my heart wants you ami"

"i don't want raka"

"don't want what ami?"

"don't make me any more inappropriate!"

"ken.."

"i want to go home, right now!" ami immediately stopped the word that was about to come out of my mouth. I was still sobbing with tears yet to answer her request

"please you, I want to go home"

I still calm myself down yet can't reply to him

"i beg you"

My hand grabbed me right away. I knew my heart's eyes weren't blind, and I felt his love for me.

"yes let's go home"

I replied with a tearful voice. I helped wake my mom from sitting. My hand clasped and his hand led to the car in the parking lot. Arriving in front of the car, and my hand opened the driver's side door

"i want to sit in the back"

"because.."

"i want to lie down"

"yes it is"

I walked over and opened the back seat door. My tears just fell, ami why do you make me feel so much more unable without you?. I went in and drove the car. Every now and then I look back, the right ami is lying down, maybe ami is tired all day. I don't want to be lonely in the car, I immediately play the perfect song Ed Sheren. I was driving a car with tears falling.

Finally, the house of ami was already visible. I looked back, ami was still lying, so I couldn't bear to wake her up. The car stopped in front of the house

"have you reached?"

Suddenly I woke up and felt the car stop

"yes, we're here"

I went straight out, and rushed to open the door for ami. My hand reached for my hand, it felt cold. I led him to the door. My hand pressed the bell beside the door. Shortly after, Arsyi opened the door. Ami immediately let go of my hand, and walked slowly to the arsyi bu.

"where are you going, son?"

"i can go to mom's room by myself"

"wait, son, raka's still there"

"let him go home, I don't want to be with him anymore"

I and Miss Arsyi did not answer him at all. I looked at each other with Miss Arsyi.

"mom, don't accept him here again.I don't want to be disturbed"

"yes son"

Miss Arsyi replied by looking at me. I saw him walking without looking alone

"mom, raka can't be without ami"

I showed eyes that didn't want to lose it

"mom knows son, but how else?.for now, you're patient first, and pray that ami gets an eye donor".

I just nodded my head. Miss Arsyi is crying with me

"we both need to be patient. Now you go home, rest"

"wait a minute, ma'am, there's a seat from my mother"

I ran to the car to get something. After that, I ran back to Arsyi. I gave something to Miss Arsyi

"this is the wand from mom to ami"

Ms. Arsyi smiled and her hand stroked my shoulder

"tell your mother, thank you. Must be ami happy"

I nodded my head to answer Ms. Arsyi. Arsyi smiled at me

"yasudah ma'am, raka pamit. Assalamu'alaikum"

"wa'alaikumsalam"

Ms. Arsyi waved her hand, my hand returned a wave of her hand as well. I got into the car and honked my horn to sign I was going to walk. In the car I imagined the ami sitting next to me and the ami lying behind. I also played the song Perfect Ed Sheren and memories with ami.

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