AmiKas

day seven

Not playing the pain

Why did the universe find

I'm with him

Is there a mistake?

Apparently, he's the cause

Or he's the one on the cause

Will you know all this?

Everything that happened to me

My mind is not finished

Which one is pretending

And who is guilty

Why is it like this?

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Amis

"Raka.."

I said spontaneously, I held the head that had been embraced by white gauze, my head was like hitting something, the pain that I felt made my eyes look around this room white, green curtains, green, I looked at my mother and felt her hand

"Ami, my son"

I smile thinly at the sound of mother's voice, mother crying, surprise especially after this, will father and mother separate? What else is god?.

I remember one incident before this, I saw a shadow of Raka's memory that saved me from the big car and I was the one she got rid of

"Where is he, how is he?"

However Raka who had saved me from the big car that almost hit me, I should not be important to my ego just because of the incident at Raka's house, although I really thought this happened

"Raka in the ICU room, she's in a coma?"

I was shocked by what Mom said, my eyes could no longer lie, I loved her, I didn't want her to do anything.

"I want there mom, I want to see Raka's mom"

My love, by holding my mother's hand very tightly

"You just realized from earlier mi, you are also in a coma from yesterday's incident, Raka is okay, she is just looking for blood donor O because she has a lot of bleeding from her stomach"

My tears have become a flood on my face. I was crying, feeling guilty, Raka was innocent of nothing, the only wrong was dad.

I called the doctor to check on me. Fortunately the doctor understood, I was allowed to walk out breathing air even with a wheelchair. I asked mom to take me to the ICU room, just as Raka was lying down from her coma. There is no mother Raka and father where they go, the heart once left Raka alone in the room. I saw Raka from outside the ICU window, women are indeed easily carried away if something happens to the people she loves. I was crying, so crying.

I saw Raka's mother who stepped into the ICU room, at this time I do not want to meet Raka's mother, I immediately asked mother to take me away from here.

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Amis

In the afternoon I was immediately allowed to go home by the doctor, I was uncomfortable with the atmosphere of the hospital, immediately wanted to pack to go home, although my heart still thinks of Raka.

I got bored at home, made my amygdalak remember Raka, and made my eyes shed tears again. I got out of bed, and came out of the room that made me remember Raka.

My path is still staggering, because my immune system is still weak, attracting the attention of mother and bi Ros who are cooking in the kitchen

"Non where to go, nih ma'am is cooking fried rice favorite non who does not eat every morning"

My steps stopped after hearing the last word from BI Ros

"Where are you going?"

I remained silent, and moved closer to my mother

"Mother, what happened?"

I hugged my mother tightly, with a cry that had been dripping since I looked into my eyes

"Let's explain, if you're there"

Mother stroked the veil that covered my aura. I nodded my head and strengthened my embrace.

"Mother, take me to the nursing home for love, okayo"

Mother nodded and I immediately clasped my hand leading out of the house, and asked Mr. Ahmad to drive the car.

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Amis

I smiled out of the car, looking at Ms. Cika who was sitting on the park chair. Immediately I pull my hand, and bring her closer to Miss Cika.

"Mom's assalamualaikum"

Sapaku to start the conversation, mother cika smiled and immediately hugged me

"Waalaikumsalam Ami her beautiful mother cika, your head why".

I lowered my head, then looked at Ms. Cika with clear tears.

"What's the matter, dear, story to mother, where's Raka?"

My tears were getting broken.I immediately told how I could be like this and why Raka did not come along.

"Assynogaic"

The voice of the woman I just knew yesterday is now in front of me.

"What's wrong, ma'am?"

Ma Cika turned her back and saw Raka's mother.

"Sadah?"

Mom's eyes are widened, I remember the story of Mr Fhaisal with his love named Sarah, Raka's mother?, Sarah?, Mr Fhaisal? Daddy's? And Raka?

"Madam cika"

Lirih IBu Raka, immediately limp and sat on the garden grass, holding onto Bu cika's knee and bowing her head to Bu cika's knee, before long the sound of crying was heard from iBu Raka and Bu cika.

"You've gone anywhere Sarah, Fhaisal's fucked up"

Bu Cika's cry broke as she spoke, next to me mother stroked my shoulder

The cry of Bu Raka defeated the cry of Bu cika. I was silent to Raka's mother's final words that led to my father, and my mother also cried.

"Then, where are your sons and Fhaisal now?"

Ask Bu cika with a high tone but

"Raka Bu, Raka Fhaisal"

I answered without permission

"Mom, where's Fhaisal Ma'am? Fhaisal is still there, isn't she? I still love her, even though I have a husband, but I have never been in bed with my husband, because I am haunted by the shadow of Fhaisal every time I see Raka's eyes, and now Raka is in a coma, he needs O's blood, and Fhaisal's all I hope for, because Raka's blood is from Fhaisal bu".

Sarah's mother, Ms. Cika, me and my mother wept bitterly, knowing the reality of life and we all embraced each other.

"Come, we'll meet Fhaisal"

Take Bu Cika, who immediately walked to the room where Mr. Fhaisal was.

"Kang.kang Fhaisal this is Sarah"

Mr. Fhaisal who was looking out the window, immediately turned his body, saw Ms. Sarah and immediately approached her. Droplets upon drops of tears Fhaisal sir fell, his hands stroked and wiped away the tears of the weeping Mother Sarah. Mr. Fhaisal clung himself, and hugged Ms. Sarah's leg

"I'm sorry Sarah, I'm sorry for these twenty years, I was wrong, I didn't want to accept the consequences of my mistakes, I'm sorry, and my heart still remains for you Sarah, Sarah, every night that I close, I don't dream, but it casts a shadow on me and you, Sarah"

Fhaisal's crying immediately broke and Ms. Sarah asked Mr. Fhaisal to stand up

"As long as you know sal, I still love you, you know I married a man at my mother's behest, and I'm with him never slept together, you know? Our son, Raka Fhaisal who always made me feel like I was always with you, and now that he's in a coma in the hospital, he needs blood donor O, sal"

Mr. Fhaisal's eyes were shocked to hear the name Raka Fhaisal from Ms. Sarah

"Raka? Raka Fhaisal?"

Asked Fhaisal who directly set his eyes on me. I just replied by nodding my head, because I was just as crying not holding back reality.

"Let's go to the hospital, my blood O, open Miss Cika, open!"

Shouted Mr. Fhaisal made Bu cika immediately open the bars.

"My dear, thank you for bringing my mother together with Fhaisal, you still do not forgive Raka?"

I smiled back at Ms. Sarah,

"Call down Mom, I must have forgiven Raka, after all Raka was not wrong, now that I understand the implied storyline of my life, I will meet Raka after I gather with my mother and father"

Sarah's mother smiled and waved from inside the car.

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Amis

My mother hugged me on the way home. I opened the door, saw a man\-man standing in the middle of the family room, father smiled, opened his hands. My feet ran and grabbed her arms, my father returned my arms, and kissed my forehead, before long my mother joined in this embrace of affection.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

I asked who was still wondering what I meant by what Dad did

"My son, you've been strong for twenty years, I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I know you remarried, but I asked to keep it a secret from you, because you know, you know, I don't want you to go along with the trouble I caused you"

I put my lips to the left

"What made you marry Aunt Sarah?"

Dad breathed

"First, I was forced to marry Aunt Sarah because I bumped into Sarah's mother, and she asked me to marry Sarah if I didn't want to go to jail, I don't want you to be known as the kid whose dad was in jail, kid, you were so little at the time".

My mother and I hugged my father, I did not expect behind the scenes of my life, it turned out that too many roles were sacrificed for the people he loved

"We started everything from scratch, my son, my wife, we opened a new page".

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Amis

I remember something I had just walked into my room for a short break, I remembered someone who had given up his life yesterday and was almost gone, I came straight out of my room, I called my father and mother who were just about to go into the room already I was holding back with a shout calling out

“dad mom, I want to see raka”

Father and mother smiled and nodded their heads, and I went back to the room to get ready to meet raka, yes raka fhaisal

During the trip, the car that protected the three of us, the air conditioner was cold but warm because of the comfortable conversation that embraced my family, how grateful I was to God. And how I only realized what raka said when she took me to the plateau two days ago

“mother father, now I have real family meaning to me”

Mom looked back where I was sitting, and Dad stayed focused on driving without venturing to look at me, reminding me of the figure lying in the hospital and why I'm in the car right now, I just smiled

“oh yes? What does family really mean, you think my son?”

Father asked lovingly, his words seemed to embrace me without materializing but it felt warm, I smiled and mother smiled

“in my opinion, the real meaning of family is where no one wants to see his family sad, who is willing to look sad for the sake of his family, and everything is only for the family, and everything is only for the family, to be willing to look vile and indifferent just because he does not want his family to look vile and indifferent, and family is everything to me mom, yah”

I only realized when I saw the white clouds of my mother cloud overcast and shed tears, I held my mother's hand, and she returned my grasp very firmly

“for your mom more everything nak”

Mom hugged me, and without me knowing the hospital had a car, dad put on the car, just pulled the car keys, dad hugged me and mom, how complete I feel right now.

I saw Sarah's mother and Fhaisal's sir were pacing back and forth in front of the raka ICU room, I felt something wrong had happened until there was a nervousness between the look on the face of Sarah's mother and fhaisal sir who was very anxious, even bu sarah to bite her index finger.

“assalamualaikum sarah, fhaisal?”

Dad started with a greeting

“waalaikum greetings saka, mila, ami”

Ms. sarah and fhaisal answered compactly and I realized there was a smooth harmony as they replied, I wonder what happened to raka, I lost my mind so much that I thought about the no-no

“how is raka bu, sir?”

Ms. Sarah immediately sat on the chair while looking down at the floor, my clouds started to dam, I felt a pain that was so painful to see the mother sarah who was very confused

“ibu also does not know ami, raka has been donated blood by fhaisal, but why when he was conscious, he did not know mother let alone fhaisal, he did not know mother, ami, he did not know, and now the doctor is examining the raka inside, but until now it has not come out, the mother is afraid something happened to raka”

I immediately dropped to the floor, my hand touched my head on the knee of sarah's mother, without being able to bend, I cried, I drowned in a puddle of guilt that twisted when this incident hit the raka

“this is all my fault ma'am, if only I hadn't escaped, and I wasn't silent confused in the middle of the road. Raka will not fall flat like this ma'am, I'm sorry”

I didn't dare see Sarah's face, but Sarah made me see her

“ look dear ami mother, you are not wrong, absolutely not wrong, nothing is wrong, this is already her destiny, and the destiny of all of us, no one can blame, no one can blame, because if you have to say mother is also wrong, but do not let anyone blame, we pass this together yes ami, raka dear to you, and mother love equally raka, I love you too amigea”

I immediately grabbed the hug of sarah's mother, sarah returned my embrace, by feeling my mother and father holding me from behind, and fhaisal hugged sarah's mother from behind. Right now me, mother, father, mother sarah, sir phaisal are locked up with bars of anxiety about a man we all love and care about.

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