AmiKas

admission readiness

There's something different

If what happens is not wanted

What will happen

If what you want is forced.

Which is happy

There must be sadness

For fear of forgetting

The heart that breaks.

Long time does not guarantee eternal

the shock also does not guarantee a run-off

it's not about time

but about god's giving.

...

Rabbet

My eyes opened as soon as I felt someone open the window curtain. The sun has already raised the light. Seina tidied up the stranded thing on the floor. Since yesterday, seina hasn't spoken to me much, she's spoken as necessary. Seina's eyes, which seemed to avoid meeting my eyes with her, showed a sense that she was craving for herself. He was always happy with me. He took the glass on the table. If I don't see wrong, his hands are shaking

"prang!"

The glass he took, just fell down. The glass is slapped on the floor. I lifted myself from the bed that bored me. I approached him

"hey.."

Just as I was about to help her who was picking up the broken glass pieces, she held back with a hand that was holding me close.

"don't you, danger"

He threatened me without seeing me. I felt something was wrong with him

"what is seina? You why?"

I immediately asked what had been assembled earlier for him. Seina just shook her head

"why na?"

I persuaded with a soft grip of his hand. Seina gave back the look she gave off. There was a puddle reflected from the clear of his eyes

"there's nothing ka"

He answered with eyes looking down.

"seina look at me! look me in the eye"

I persuaded him more and more, asking him to look at me who was worried. Seina finally saw me again

"what's the matter na? why is it that since yesterday afternoon you were different?"

He still shook his head but his eyes still looked at me. I was upset because it made me feel wrong to him

"i beg na. what's wrong? Don't worry me"

He shed tears from his eyes. A cry was heard in the ear

"hey?"

I called him the one who was carried away by a stream of sadness who had no idea what the cause was

"i'm afraid of losing you, raka"

Just like that, as if there was a lightning bolt that struck the reality behind the reality of life. I tried to calm down with seina's confession. I thought of what a neutral answer would be to reply to a confession

"you won't lose me"

Seina smiled with eyes that held back the water to fall again.

"i'm afraid of you"

"don't be afraid" those words just came out of my mouth. I don't feel like a real man

"what?mi?"

"no, you heard it wrong"

Seina smiled laughing at the answer that should have been given to the child sd.

"oh, I heard it wrong"

I nodded in convincing him who already knew the truth

"i loved you from the beginning with Raka"

His confession is becoming more and more. I turned my face away from her eyes asking for love for her. I saw the corner of his smile, his hand turned my cheek and made my eyes look back at his eyes

"i'm not asking you to repay my love. I just want me to not lose you"

"iya sei, I don't want to lose a friend like you either"

Seina and I smiled at each other. He looks so beautiful now.

"already, I've calmed down. Thank you"

"thank you for what?"

"for everything"

I offered a smile to her who was so amazing.

"oh yeah, what about the amigea?"

"how is sei?"

"today's raka fhaisal's birthday"

"yes? Why didn't you tell me seina? "

"i forgot you forgot your memory. So I'm just gonna relax, not tell you"

"you've been following through on forgetting your memories"

"hehe. Forgive me then"

He laughs that aren't funny. I smiled at her answer like a child.

"wait a minute, I have something"

He ran out of the room. I don't know what he'll show you until it's outside the room. Not a second of stepping on the number ten, he went back in. I don't see anything he's carrying.

"what's that thing?"

He smiled wickedly at me

"no!"

He reached out a hand holding the round cassette without a picture.

"it's yours"

"mine?"

"yes, I found this while I was cleaning your room. I'm curious because of the inside"

He opened the safety of the round CD box. There, engraved letters that string the sentence 'amika'

"what's amika?"

"the answer is on this tape"

"assalamu'alaikum"

Mom, dad and the doctor came in with greetings. I snorted annoyed that they entered at the wrong time. I looked at seina, seina just smiled calmly.

"good luck, can you go home. Your condition is improving" said the doctor

"right doc?"

The doctor nodded with a reassuring smile.

Take mom to me and seina

"eyyyy"

I cheered happily. I was finally able to get out of this boring room.I immediately reflected in my smiling eyes. I want to meet ami, to say a do'a together for her. I can't wait. Something came to my mind

"where are we going?"

I looked at my mother who was packing clothes and things.

"yes, go back to our paradise"

I answered my question to my mother. I don't understand my father's answer a little

"did you mean?"

"yes, go back to our paradise. Our house"

"oh, jannati baiti"

"that you know"

"i don't know why I know ya"

"just be grateful" now the mother answered. Mom smiled very happily. I was so happy to see a happy mother.

"let's go home"

My mother gave me a wheelchair. It seems my heart says no to this

"no ma'am. I'm strong"

"but.."

I stopped my mother's voice

"no mom, I'm healthy"

My mother did not answer me anymore. I smiled at the mother who did not want to lose but now lost.

"sad mom" promised me by taking her hug.

"father?"

Dad showed me his face

"dear to be a pity too"

I hugged them both. They both rubbed my hair. I was comfortable for a long time in this state. Mom released a hug, dad also let go of the hug.

"already, let's go home"

take the father with a glance that looks at the watch

"luck!"

I immediately replied with an excited cheerful tone.

"luck!" I reached out with a hand to seina who had been silent to watch my conversation with mom and dad. Seina gave me a smile, she returned my helping hand with hands that immediately embraced each other, seina already like my own biological sister.

...

Finally, the garage of the house has the car in. I can rest in my own room without any lingering infusions.

"until!"

Dad cheered for the home trip. Mom and Dad go out first

"let's take you to the room"

Mom opened the car door that protected me.

"let alone aunty who delivered raka to the room"

Seina expressed her willingness to help my mother, but her eyes looked at me. I know there's something he wants to talk about again, maybe about earlier

"iya ma'am, I'm tired. It's okay ma'am"

"yes, be careful seina"

"yes aunt" replied seina with a face that revealed a feeling of relief.

Seina led me down the stairs because my room was on the second floor. On the way to the room, there was no unraveling ability, there was a seina gaze that looked at me with deep meaning. Finally, the door of the room was in sight, opening it all over. Seina and I entered together. This room is so foreign to me, so many books are written in my own right, but I don't know when it's there. I can only stroke my chest if there's something I don't know at all.

"you sit on the bed first"

Seina sat me on a neat bed. Seina was also sitting next to me.

"where's the CD?"

I directly thrust it to seina. I don't know what it is, so I don't really want to know what it is

"raccas"

Seina called. I only answered with eyes that revealed question marks

"you love ami?"

My eyes widened to hear a question that just seemed to reveal.

"why indeed?"

I didn't answer him, but I gave him another question.

"i love you too" seina said without glancing at me

"you mean?"

I was confused by what I was saying

"yes, I don't understand. I've been with you for a few years, while you've been with amigea for only a few days. You already love amigea, but you don't love me. I love you"

In the last sentence, Seina laughed at herself with a smile

"keep me forgetting memories" I said, ignorant

"iya ka. You have forgotten the memory. But the truth is you don't love me, I love you. And it seems like your memories are gradually recovering but you are not aware of it".

"what is recovering? I don't remember anything"

I firmly disagree with what Seina said

"you've been with the amigea since she hasn't worn your veil!"

I was limp for a moment. In my amygdal I was recorded yesterday-yesterday with the amigea

"The CD will answer my words. It's your ka. Here I found directly in your drawer filled with photos of you with amigea"

Seina pointed at the drawer she was referring to. I looked at the drawer. My head hurt a little at that moment. I held the part of my head that was in pain. Seina lifted her body from sitting down, she stepped towards the drawer she had pointed at. When he opened it, he took some photos. He gave it to me. I saw what he showed me, this is a picture of me with the amigea before wearing the veil.

"wait, her face is like I've seen it"

I asked while looking at the photo that did not know where the plot of the place and time

"yes, you saw it the first time you woke up from a coma, but you were in pain when you saw it"

"then why is she wearing a veil?"

"that's his isikharah's answer"

Suddenly my head hurt like that

"enough sei. It hurts!"

"you can you, it'll be okay"

"but sick sei" I screamed a little, my hands firmly holding the aching part of the head

"believe me, you. I've asked my mother's father a doctor in Korea. He said, if a person forgets the memory of a headache when remembering a person he loves, it is the rumination of your memory! You hold it, just for a second. Trust me"

I just nodded my head in response to what I explained

"now we play the CD ok"

I still nodded my head. Seina stepped foot into the CD player. He immediately entered the CD and the recording of the incident just played out. I seem to go back to the time that the CD was recorded.

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