AmiKas

when I remember again

Finally lock the door to my memory

Found my best friend from adolescence

He loves me, though,

But he was kind enough to beat the heart.

I remember again

I remember who I love

Apparently, I love him sincerely

He loves me sincerely too.

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Rabbet

"so.."

My mind went blank when I saw the vidio on the twisted cd. There was a lot of laughter revealed by the cd, in the closing there was a saying 'happy birthday amigea, I love you'

"happy birthdays? Means.."

Not all the words that were strung in my mouth were revealed, my head was already in unparalleled pain, the pain was now so different from what I had previously felt. This pain was accompanied by rounds of events that I lived. I held back by holding onto the part of my head that hurt. I can't take it anymore, I leave it to the almighty.

"CRUMBLE!!!"

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Rabbet

"raka help me!"

Someone called me from behind. I immediately reflexed the turning of the body. Amigea. He looked at me blankly. I still have not answered his request. Her eyes that were still staring blankly shed tears.my hands immediately grabbed ami's hand, ami also directly released my hand

"why ami?"

Ami was still staring at me blankly, I felt something strange from her eyes

"ami?"

He still looks at me blankly. Usually if he did not reply verbally, he always replied with a look in the eye.

"ami why are you looking at me weird?"

He's bending his eyes. My hand raised his downward gaze.When his gaze had aligned with mine, he was still staring at me blankly. I wonder what happened. I waved my hand right in her eyes, and she still looked at me directly. My heart stopped itself from beating. My tears are already soaring in the clouds of eyes

"am I seen you?"

Ami didn't answer me at all. Her tears kept on relentlessly

"amigea answer me!"

I slightly raised my voice. Ami still did not answer, she was frightened to hear my voice

"amigea can you see me? your view was empty"

Her crying is sobbing. I wiped her falling cries

"we answer me"

My tone of voice has hardened again and now it's forcing

"iya raka! I didn't see you raka!"

Without me asking, my tears fell from her mouth. I looked into the eyes of the ami who so often endured the sorrow. I stroked her cheek

"you lied to ami! You lied!"

My voice was getting louder and now accompanied by tears that made a so heartbreaking sobbing sound.

"i'm blind ka"

...

"ami!"

I control the breath that blows out of control. My body is soaked in sweat. I looked around, again I was treated in that room. I'm alone, where's father, mother, seina, and ami?. Ami?. Like someone's getting into my memory. I see, I know, I remember. Who is my mother, my father, my best friend from smp, and the woman I love. I also remember that cd was a gift for my birthday.

"aaahhh"

But there is still pain that gnaws. My hand took the bell to call the doctor. My head kept holding my head in pain. Shortly thereafter, the doctor came dawn with his mother and father. I didn't see seina.

"try to massage her head sus"

The dawn doctor asked the nurse to massage my head. I remember what I said to me when I forgot my memory. My hand immediately refuted the hand of the nun who was about to massage my head.

"i'm fine. I remember again"

"what?"

Mom immediately asked me.

I listened to the doctor's advice at dawn. The lost memories, now entered slowly in my memory that was empty. I shut my eyes and replayed the memories. Now I remember again.I opened my eyes again, a smile just like that.

"i remember mom, dad"

Mom and dad came up to me, hugging me so lovingly.

"Allah is God"

Mother gives thanks to god. Something was dripping down my shirt. When I let go of my mother and father's arms, they wiped away the tears that had fallen.

"mom, daddy don't cry, I'm cured"

"yes you're healed"

"where's seina?"

When I asked seina. Mom and dad shake their heads. Something strange worries my heart

"why mom, dad? Where's my best friend seina?"

Mom gave me a piece of paper that was wrapped in white tape. I accepted it with questioning hands. My hands opened with doubt. The paper is strung with letters that tell the story

Hello raka fhaisal

Surely you already know this writing, because I know this letter will land on you when you already remember everything.

It's me ka, seina whom you always call 'sei'. You know, you're one of those people who know me who calls 'sei' so when I'm in Korea. I miss you so much.

When I had the thesis, my heart immediately asked to meet you, because I love you. Relax, I'm not done talking.

Maybe this is God's answer to the feeling I always tell him when I worship.

I'm thinking. When you forget a memory, you can still love the amigea even if your memory is not there. That was god's answer. It turns out your truth is only for ami, and you really love her.

I was thinking about getting you drunk, so I could get you hooked. Because I know, in your religion you should not marry with a different religion, oh yes you must forget that I am with you a different religion. I am clearly different from your religion.

Come on, my hands are writing

Thank you raka fhaisal

Because of you, I know what love is

Because of you, I can keep myself strong

And because of you, I know which god is worthy of worship and which god created me

I ask your prayers not to forget aunt sarah, om fhaisal. Oh yeah amigea and his family too

I had embraced Islam when you fell asleep one day yesterday, and now I'm going back to Korea to see my father and mother and tell them I've converted. Alhamdulillah in Korea, my father and mother neighbors with Muslims as well, not infrequently father and mother ask about Islam to them. I asked for his prayers for me, my father and my mother.

Oh yeah, we're still best friends, right?

Welcome to raka fhaisal

Assalamu'alaikum yes sohibi

Your best friend

Seina princess

"so seina it?"

Questions just slid from my mouth, while my eyes still pay attention to the letter from seina

"iya ka, seina is different from us. That's what keeps you from loving her even if you've been together a long time"

My tears just fell. There was a haru that was enveloped by seina. Why are so many injuries secretly holding no account. I feel bad for Seina

"what's after this, ma'am?"

Mother bowed her head, not answering me at all. I feel like there is something covered besides seina

"mother? Daddy's? doc? Why diem? I asked what else?"

I saw tears in my eyes. My mind is in no other direction. I was worried for no definite reason

"mother?" I called mom. Still no response for me

"in that case, I went to the next room, yes, there is a patient that I have to check"

The dawn doctor immediately turned over, I felt that he was also covering something from me. There was a bandage covering part of his head. What the hell happened to him?

"dok" I called him slow. His steps stopped, but he did not turn his face back

"is there nothing, Doc?" I asked with resignation and trembling

"iya raka.insya Allah is nothing"

The doctor of dawn continued his stalled steps again. I smiled at the word 'insya Allah' spoken by the dawn doctor.

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