Akad Shackle

Confessions (2)

Rahma was still glued to where she was sitting, her gaze pointing at the head that was still lowered in her lap. His hands were still tightly grasped, no sign of being released.

The atmosphere was silent, Anggara still let out a sobbing sound. Rahma took the initiative, having previously breathed in as much oxygen as possible to fill every alveolar sac in her lungs.

"Everything has happened and become the past. As long as you and he regret all the deeds you have done in the past and repent, I will try to just know enough, will not question anything else. Let everything stay in the past. Our time is today, yesterday is past and tomorrow is not. You have become my husband, with all your shortcomings and advantages I will sincerely accept it" Rahma spoke calmly, making the head that had been lowered was immediately looked up with puffy eyes.

"Honey, until whenever I don't want to lose you" Anggara kissed Rahma's hand in turns.

"I beg you, no matter what happens don't ever leave me" Anggara sighed, pausing his words. His gaze led to his wife, asking for an answer. Rahma nodded her head.

"Honey, he's back to collect on my promise. The promise to never leave him after everything that happened between us. I rejected him and said that it was not me who left him but he who chose to leave. But..." Anggara paused his words again,

"But what is it?" Rahma began to again wonder what her husband would reveal, apparently there is still something her husband is hiding.

"But he came to Mama and said everything. She even told mom and dad that she was willing to be a second wife" Anggara took a deep breath, and looked into Rahma's eyes, which were implied by her gaze.

"I'm sorry Rahma, at my mother's request, I was forced to marry her"

Deg ....Rahma froze instantly, the news she heard was like an electric shock on her body. His chest rumbled, his mind drifting somewhere. No words were spoken, his body was unmoved. His gaze was suddenly blank, not knowing what he was thinking. In her ears kept ringing the phrase 'at the request of mama, I was forced to marry her'.

"I'm sorry dear" Anggara grabbed Rahma's body into her arms and held her tightly. Apologies continued to fall from his lips accompanied by sobs. Rahma is still flinching.

"Let go of me Mas" after a few minutes passed finally the sentence that came out of Rahma's lips in a flat tone.

"Dear, I'm sorry. I'll never let you go. I love you, I love you so much" Anggara kept trying to convince Rahma that if in her heart she had occupied the highest place, she did not want to lose Rahma and would not let go of Rahma.

"If I get pregnant, will you let go of her?" the question was suddenly uttered after the silence was created long enough. Rahma thought that the reason Anggara married her ex-lover was because she wanted a child.

A great scholar explained that the emergency condition with which a man is allowed polygamy is because a husband who wants offspring, but it turns out his wife can not give birth to children due to infertile or disease.

"Honey.." slowly Anggara unraveled his embrace, he looked at the wife questioningly.

Rahma took a deep breath, trying to neutralize her feelings in order to think properly in the face of the thorny problems of her household.

"I know for a long time you wanted children, as well as mama and papa. It seems not only because of your past that makes mama and papa ask you to marry your ex-lover but because I have not been able to give you offspring. Now, again I ask if if if I'm pregnant you'll let her go?" Rahma asked with a sharp enough gaze, there was a wound as well as hope implied from the intonation of her speech and body language.

"Darling, I'm sorry...." Anggara rested in front of Rahma.

"Jawab only Mas" said Rahma to the point,

Anggara lowered his head again, he threw his breath rough. His brain was spinning, his desire to make a confession had long been planned, but it still took courage and a strong mentality to be able to convey everything correctly.

Anggara still did not make a sound, he still chose and sorted out the right words to answer his wife's question. However, he knew that what he would say would still hurt Rahma.

"I can't let go of him" Anggara replied in a crushing manner, making Rahma take a deep breath and exhale violently.

"Now she is pregnant"

Duarrrrr. Knowing if the honey is pregnant means that their marriage has been going on for quite a long time.

"What do you mean, Mum?" asked Rahma with trembling lips.

"I'm sorry dear" Anggara again grabbed Rahma's hand, but was brushed aside by her.

"Explain everything Mas" said Rahma firmly,

"Friska is pregnant, her gestational age is four months. We've been married for six months, Friska now lives in my mom's house because she's worried about anything happening if she has to be alone. I often leave him not only for official duty but when I have to visit you. Mama and Friska have been asking me to be honest with you for a long time, but I really didn't have enough courage to do that. I'm afraid you're hurt, I'm afraid of losing you, I love you so much Rahma."

"But today I finally ventured to say it all, Friska and Mama continued to urge, the four-monthly thanksgiving of her pregnancy will be held soon. He wants all family members and neighbors present, and he wants your presence. With your presence it means that if you approve of our marriage, and Friska is not an actor" Anggara explained at length, he said everything that his second wife and mother asked without anyone being missed.