Akad Shackle

Anggara's Apology

In the same hospital but different room from before, Anggara was rolled weakly on a white bed. Several hoses connected to his body. The situation is very alarming, anyone who knows himself in the past will not expect if the weak lying at this time is the same man.

"Assalamu'alaikum" Rahma becomes the first to enter Anggara's ward followed by Tama who leads Athaya after previously meeting Friska outside.

Silence, there was no word from inside the room. Anggara seemed to be asleep unaware of their presence in his room.

Chequek...

The sound of the bathroom door made the three people who had just entered the room turn their heads, mama Angga just came out looking shocked to see the three of them there.

"Mama, Assalamu'alaikum" Rahma first said hello, but the surprise of the middle-aged woman who still looked fit but still did not disappear, proved that no words were spoken from her lips, he even answered the greeting of Rahma.

"Grandmother" calls Athaya immediately shifted focus Mama Anggara, flat face that was surprised was immediately decorated with a smile when he saw his favorite grandson.

"Grandmother's..." Mama Anggara immediately hunted the grandchild and hugged him tightly.

"Thank you dear, thank you for coming" said mama Anggara with teary eyes.

"Thaya wants to see me, Grandma" Athaya said truthfully,

"Yes dear, thank you" replied Anggara mother unraveled her embrace and did not forget to kiss the forehead of the granddaughter who missed so much.

"Eummmhh.." in the atmosphere of haru, Anggara muttered, making all who were there turn to the bed where Anggara lay.

"Son, are you awake?" Mama Anggara immediately greeted the son. He hoped this time the son would respond.

"I want to go home, I want to go home to Garut" Anggara murmured without opening his eyes, soft but still clear in the ears of everyone who was there.

Rahma turned her head towards her husband, in her heart she was very anxious to fear if what she was worried about all this time turned out to be true. Anggara's mind goes back to the past, a time when it was still with him.

"Yes, son, you must recover first" said mama Anggara by wiping the tip of the eye that returned watery.

Ever since he realized from his stupor, that was all Anggara was delirious about, he said he wanted to go home to Garut because Rahma was waiting for him. According to the doctor, the depression experienced by Anggara made some of his memory lost. It could even be that he was as if withdrawing from his current world, trying to get out of the regret that was ensnaring him at the moment.

After realizing from his stupor at that time Anggara only slept and slept, he seemed reluctant to open his eyes. No more Anggara daydreaming, laughing, talking to himself or going berserk. He just fell asleep with small murmurs like that. Drugs and nutritional intake can only be given through an infusion, so that his body weight dropped dramatically and weak during this week.

True according to Friska's explanation on the phone earlier, since waking up from fainting a week ago Anggara's state really dropped. He no longer wanted to take any medicine or food.

"Relax baby, we help him together" whispered Tama in the ear of the wife slowly, Tama seemed to know the anxiety that was whacking his wife.

Rahma nodded, grasped Athaya's hand tightly and led her closer to Anggara's bed after getting a nod from Tama.

"Try calling father, son" whispered Rahma in Athaya's ear who also looked frightened,

"But Bun..."

"Don't be afraid there is a papi here" Tama grabbed the other Athaya's tiny hand, she held it tightly as if to drain the power so that the son would dare.

Before entering the room Tama and Rahma had consulted with the doctor who handled Anggara with Papa Anggara who welcomed their arrival after being told Friska if Rahma and Tama would come.

"Dad.." Athaya's soft voice rang out loud in the hospital room, Anggara's gnawing eyes slowly opened to hear the voice.

"Dad..." Athaya again called out to the father who had begun to wake up from his long sleep. Those open eyes were circling around looking for the source of the sound.

"Dad, this is Thaya. Get well soon!" yelling Athaya who is now in the lap of Tama, he also approached the Anggara bed with one hand holding Rahma's hand.

Anggara just stared flatly at the child who called him father, his lips twitched like he wanted to say but looked as if he was confused.

"How are you Anggara? I brought Athaya to see you, he's Athaya your real son" Tama began to speak up, he hoped Anggara would return to his consciousness.

"You.." Anggara's voice made everyone flinch, especially the mother, father and also the doctor who just entered the room looked sparkling, they saw Anggara respond what Tama well, Tama said, even his eyes were no longer empty. Previously anggara papa who was consulting with doctors got word from Friska who was standing guard at the Anggara nursery door that Anggara was awake.

"I'm Tama, Pratama Ardhan" Tama continued, confirming his name,

"You're Rahma's superior, right?" anggara asked after a while with his weak voice but started to recognize the person before him.

"True, and now that I'm her husband" Tama said, hoping Anggara would come to her senses.

"You mean you're married to Rahma?" ask Anggara again, this time the response is faster than before. Anggara is currently sitting on his bed with his body upright.

"Yes" Tama replied briefly, she focused on looking at Anggara whose gaze was only on her, she looked still unconcerned about the surroundings.

"So I've really divorced Rahma?" anggara asked softly, his head lowered, his face immediately turned sad.

"For a long time, we have been separated, even we divorced when you were married again to Friska" this time Rahma who said, the voice, mama Anggara who heard what Rahma said rounded her eyes at Rahma for fear that what her former daughter-in-law said would make the son go on a rampage like before, Anggara always rampaged when he heard the name Friska called.

"Roman..." Anggara looked up, his gaze now turning to Rahma who was standing right beside Tama.

"Yes, it's me. My husband and I brought Athaya to see you. Get well, your son and your other children still need you." Rahma begins to dare to speak at length, according to the direction of the doctor if Anggara really needs to be made aware by people from his past to stimulate his memory.

"Rahma, I'm sorry.hikss.." Anggara suddenly cried, he came back down with shaky shoulders.

The atmosphere was immediately gripping, between fear, pity and haru, everyone felt their hearts cut when they heard Anggara's cry full of regret.

"Rahma.." said Anggara after a bit of calm, he actually shed his tears long enough.

"I'm sorry I can't be a good husband to you, I'm sorry I can't protect you, I can't keep you, I'm sorry I can't be the strictest man who can make the best choice even for my own life. I realized all this time I've hurt you a lot, I don't even deserve your love and devotion, you're too good to be my wife, I'm sorry Rahma.hiks.." the sound of sobbing was heard again after Anggara spoke at length, he was taking out everything that had stuck in his heart all this time.

"I was wrong Rahma, all these years I harbored this guilt, even I was too embarrassed to meet and apologize to you. I'm too despicable to get your apology" Anggara resumed his words, saying,

"Now the Lord is punishing me Rahma, hiks.." Her tears broke again, now Anggara hugged her knees and drowned her face between her knees.

"I'm ashamed of you Rahma, I'm so ashamed. Even just to look at you, I was so embarrassed. I'm not a good man, I don't deserve to be a husband, I don't deserve to be a father" Anggara said on the sidelines of his cries. He continued to blame himself for what had happened to his household.

"I'm sorry Rahma, I'm sorry. I'm sorry Rahma, I'm sorry.." the apology continued to be spoken from Anggara's mouth, accompanied by a sobbing that never stopped he increasingly drowned his face deep.

Not only Anggara who cried sobbing with his confession of guilt, the mother also Friska was not even able to stem his tears. They both did not expect Anggara to bear such a burden even though fully open Anggara's own mistakes.