Akad Shackle

Dilemmas

The sound of a bedug that is sprinkled as if waking nature, reverberating adzan sahutan signifies if the sky will soon change color, the sky will change color, the darkness of the night will soon disappear with the emergence of dawn that adorns the universe a sign of new life is about to begin.

"Alhamdulillah" Rahma ended listening to murotal and dhikr the morning he stel from his cellphone, it has become a habit if he was prevented from praying Rahma changed the habit of teaching him by listening to murotal.

Rahma opened the window curtain of her room which was right facing east, the time had shown at six o'clock less the sky began to change color. The green rice fields began to turn yellow right behind Rahma's room making the sunlight clearly visible and entering her room without any obstructions.

Rahma breathed in the fresh morning air that entered through the window of her room. His eyes even closed enjoying the cool air in the morning.

The sound of the room door was open, Anggara had just returned from the mosque. At dawn before the father-in-law, his brother and sister-in-law invited him to congregational dawn prayers in the mosque. Rahma also prepared a sarong cloth for Anggara prayer which she borrowed from her sister's closet.

"It was so fresh" Anggara immediately approached Rahma and ambushed her waist. Whether conscious or not with what he did, Anggara is currently hugging Rahma from behind who is being closed enjoying the coolness of the morning air. Anggara even dropped his chin on Rahma's shoulder. While Rahma's body pecked at a moment to get a sudden treatment from Anggara.

"Mas, it looks like you're wrong" Rahma tried to take off Anggara's embrace and succeeded because Anggara was made shocked by Rahma's words,

"What do you mean I'm wrong?" Anggara changed position because Rahma pushed her chest,

"You're the wrong person, I'm not your lover" Rahma replied sternly,

"Yes you are my wife" Anggara said casually,

"And you have another woman that you used to hug, so it seems you were wrong" Rahma moved on, tidying up her bed that Anggara slept with last night.

"No, I'm not wrong" Anggara replied still in a relaxed fashion, to be honest he felt an incredible calm after from the mosque. Prayers congregate and follow the dawn study. Even though it was only a few minutes but what was delivered ustadz in the mosque earlier made his heart warm.

Having a sakinah mawaddah warahmah family is the dream of everyone not to refuse including himself and one way to have a dream family is to have a wife of shalihah.

All ustadz explanations about the criteria of the wife of shalihah are recorded in his memory well and somehow during the ustadz was discussing the criteria of the wife shalihah Rahma shadow is always present in his mind.

"I realized that I was hugging you" he said,

"Then we have betrayed our lover, did not at the beginning of our marriage say we have promised him never to touch me" explained Rahma in a landslide, reminding Anggara not even struggling.

"actually who betrayed whom" said Rahma,

The conversation between himself and Anggara just before the dawn adhan honestly made Rahma think. How can Anggara ask her to sign a marriage license again and attend her husband's wedding.

Even though there is no love in Rahma's heart for Anggara, but as a woman who greatly upholds the bond of marriage and is firm in the commitment that has been held by her will not be difficult for Rahma if she has to learn and get used to and her heart to love her halal man.

Since Rahma committed to not having a relationship with the opposite sex without halal ties, she will try to accept and love anyone who is her soul mate. Rahma believes that the man she is her soul mate is the best destiny God has prepared for her, loving and being devoted to her divine partner is a testament to her gratitude and devotion to the Creator.

Rahma only needs to improve to get the best soul mate, is not our soul mate is a reflection of ourselves. He gave all the affairs of his heart to the Owner of the Heart, for the affairs of his taste and heart his duty is only to raise the rest of his hands let God interven.

But unfortunately it turns out that the commitment that Rahma planted in her heart is now actually bringing her to a shackle agreement that makes her actually feel extraordinary pain. Must share a husband, no. even she did not get half of herself or her husband's heart because the first man who had been legally her husband was already labeled another woman as his.

Anggara mobile phone that since last night in silent mode is now back on. Anggara also took his cellphone and ignored Rahma's words.

"Call..."

"I've been in front of your in-laws' house, because you've reneged on your promise" a woman's voice shocked Anggara with her words,

"What? .. don't mess with you, I'm at my in-laws' house you don't make them suspicious" Anggara joked on his phone,

Rahma sighed, knowing who was calling her husband.

"You break your promise" replied the caller,

"Yes, I'll see you soon, but give me some time to say goodbye to them. All family members are gathered I do not feel good if you have to leave suddenly" explained Anggara asked the understanding of the person who called him who was none other than Friska his lover.

"Rahma...."

"Go mas, I've been reminded to fulfill your promise" Rahma busied herself by tidying up her equipment that she brought from home. After her husband left, she planned to leave her parents' house to avoid questions about her home life.

"Where are you going?" asked Anggara who was also surprised to see Rahma packing,

"I want to go, too. You don't want my family to interrogate me about our domestic life" Rahma replied without looking,

"But where are you going?" Anggara stopped Rahma's movements by holding her hand.

"Mas, let go" Rahma rebelled,

"No, before you answer you go where, it's a holiday" Anggara clutches Rahma's arm.

"I'll be back home after I've finished helping with all of Maya's wedding preparations, today we'll be shopping for all the wedding necessities. Now please let go of my hand" Rahma kept trying to get her hands off Anggara's,

While Anggara seemed unconcerned about his wife's whining, he looked at Rahma with a deep gaze, a close distance made him able to see Rahma's face clearly. Even their current position was more intimate than last night. The sense that last night suddenly rippled in the heart of Anggara this morning is back present, even his heart racing so fast.

"Damn it, what is this feeling?" Anggara cursed at his own feelings, he sat in a constant battle between his heart and his mind, he said,

"Tea had a guest looking for Mas Anggara" Yusuf shouted from outside the room because the door was not opened after several times he knocked on it,

"That must be your lover Mas" said Rahma rebuked Anggara who immediately released his hand grip on Rahma's arm.

"Damn it, why is he here anyway" Anggara jokingly, slowly but still heard by Rahma.

He is confused what to answer if asked by Rahma's family if asked about her lover. However, the image of the ideal son-in-law who is a condition of flattery from the family and Rahma's neighbors when he followed the congregational prayer in the mosque did not want to disappear just because of the presence of Friska in the middle of the family Rahmas.

"Rahma, I want to ask...."

"Begging you to disguise your relationship status in front of my family?" continued Rahma who saw the restlessness from Anggara's face,

"Yes, I beg you. In exchange I will do whatever you ask Rahma, please" Anggara pleaded, looking at Rahma expectantly,

"Yes Dek is coming out soon. Mas Anggara is still bathing, tell her to wait for her guest in the living room" shouted Rahma from inside the room, making Anggara breathe a little relieved because Rahma was willing to help him, she said,

"Assalamu'alaikum, who's sorry? Mas Anggara is bathing" Rahma first greeted the guest who turned out to be a beautiful woman with a tall slim body and straight black hair scattered over her shoulders.

Sure enough the prejudice of the guest who came was Friska Anggara's lover. Although Rahma never met the woman directly, but from her posture Rahma was sure if she was Friska, the woman who became her husband's lover.

Maya looked up when she heard Rahma's voice, she was serving a cup of warm tea with a fried banana snack that mom had just made. A little astonished that Rahma did not recognize her husband's own friend, she returned after slightly nodding her head towards the guest,

"I have to do with Anggara, we promised to meet this morning" without answering the greetings of the woman explaining her arrival,

"Then please wait a moment, please enjoy this alakadar treat while waiting for my husband" Rahma pointed to the dish on the table in front of him, he slightly pressed my husband's words when saying his sentence and it turned out that he managed to make the look on the face of the woman sitting gracefully in front of him instantly turn like she was holding back anger,

"His guest was waiting" Rahma turned her attention away from Friska when she saw Anggara coming from the direction of the living room, she greeted her husband with a sweet smile,

"Whose guests are Dek?" at the same time Budi Rahma's brother entered after returning from his morning run,

"This is A, his friend Mas Anggara" Rahma replied casually, he stood up to leave the living room,

"Where are you going? here accompany me" unexpectedly Anggara grabbed the hand of Rahma who was about to move from her seat, saw her brother-in-law in the middle of them Anggara acted quickly by being romantic towards Rahma, he said,

Rebut the thing Anggara did made Rahma stop her foot that was about to step, while she stared at the hand held Anggara quite tightly. Almost Rahma would dismiss him but his mind immediately realized considering that the brother was still in the same room with him, he said,

Not much different from Rahma, Friska was also quite surprised by Anggara's attitude. He did not accept Anggara touching Rahma's hand.

"I'm just gonna get you some tea. Do you want green tea or jasmine tea?" Rahma diverted the awkwardness by asking Anggara,

"I want green tea" Anggara replied with a thousand-watt sweet smile on his lips, making Friska's chest grow increasingly rumbling not to accept with the affection of the two lovebirds.

"Will you too?" Rahma turned to look at her brother,

"Of course, I want green tea too. But please we ask your brother-in-law to take him to the side garden of the house" said Budi, the side yard of the Rahma family house which is quite extensive used as a gardening land with various medicinal plants and spices, His father deliberately made busy so that in his retirement he did not feel bored and lonely,

"Well A" Rahma turned her body towards the kitchen, while Budi was saying goodbye to go to the garden beside her house,

"Why are you here" Anggara lowered her voice as they stayed together in the living room,

"I'm just proving my point, if you don't come at the time you promised then I'll come" Friska replied with a grinning smile,

"You know where I am, right? you should know the situation especially all the members of Rahma's family are gathering. I don't want them to be suspicious of your arrival" Anggara said with an angry expression but still in a soft voice,

"I don't like being made to wait and I don't want you to be here. Today we are awaited by both of my parents to ensure our marriage. I hope you've talked about it with the woman" Friska changed positions and sat on the same sofa as Anggara, she grabbed Anggara's hand and held it tightly.

"I'm afraid of losing you, all night you've been with him. This hand also held her hand, your lips also smiled full of charm. I'm afraid you're leaving me.." Friska's voice rattled, she seemed to be holding back a cry making Anggara not have the heart to see it. Since Anggara at least could see Friska crying, his heart always melted when he saw the woman crying.

"Once again, everything will go according to plan. We're going to have a wedding soon, Rahma has agreed to my request to sign the letter and she will be present at our wedding" Anggara calmed Friska who had started making the drama, but still with restrictions he even removed his hand from Friska's grasp for fear if suddenly anyone came.

"Now go back to sitting where you were, do not spoil our plans with an attitude that makes Rahma's family suspicious" said Anggara meekly, Friska also according.

Unbeknownst to them, Rahma had been standing behind the door that connected the living room with the living room, from the door that had a glass bulkhead on top of it, Rahma could clearly see what her husband was doing with the woman. He even heard all the conversations between the two of them.

Again his heart was pierced to see and hear everything. It was like she gave up and told her family her husband's behavior, but the words of the mother when she made green tea for her husband again ringed.

"Teh, I'm very happy to see Aa, but she's married with the right partner. Mr. earlier said that in the mosque many who praised the son of Angga for his skill when chanting iqamah and reading the Qur'an. Already handsome, have a position, sholeh, friendly again. Mother is calm now tea, especially Maya also Alhamdulillah will marry God willing with a good man too"

"Mother wishes you always get along, have a sakinah household, mawaddah warahmah. Mutually understand and complete the shortcomings, and be happy for the advantages of each of you. Aa was happy, teteh was happy, soon Maya followed Joseph's stay, but she was still willing to pursue the ideals first he said. Thank God he went to school honestly and proudly. Mom and Dad are so happy with tea"

"Mothers like to smell, horrified by the children of bi Tati, their Ujang mang said they were divorced, even though the new marriage is corn. Naudzubillah do not let the children of the mother mah experience such a thing. Married quite once, together until old and death that separates" Mother thrust a plate of fried bananas that she had just lifted from the frying pan and handed it to Rahma to give to the Father who was behind.

Rahma took her breath in, her mind in turmoil. The dilemma between self-esteem and family happiness.