Adolescence

Episode 55's

...Love Triangle...

He spoke only a thousand languages, but he did not speak at all when I told him, as I let go of his tight grip but he was not willing to take his hand off me at all.

It's always like this, the victim is none other than me. Because I know nothing at all.

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Conspiracy theories begin when the moon meets the night, then they greet behind the distance while waiting for the dawn to come even though the actual time of dawn is very long and also time-consuming, then the moon was forced to wait for the coming of the sun but when dawn broke, the moon dimmed and unable to greet the sun. The story is almost the same as you and I who could not possibly meet because of the many obstacles and also obstacles, coupled with the calculation of the time where the fact states that the moon and sun are different, the sun only exists in the morning and also in the afternoon while the moon only exists at night. Just like me and you who can't possibly be together because you are you and I'm just someone who waits behind the distance saying "already, you may already be with another" I can only what? I'm just someone who bows me while holding on and can't stand back even if I fall.

Only silence cares for despair, and only the weird fight against longing because this heart may not be yours nor am I someone worthy of you, thank you for loving the most beautiful memories even though we are just two people who do not like to say hello to each other. Nature sometimes greets me with the sweep of the season wrapped with the sky that smiles sweetly at me, like the melody of spring sometimes he seduces me with melodies and melodious tones. But I didn't realize I was just shaking unconscious, thinking, stroking my chest "may I see the sun tomorrow morning" then when I woke up in a quiet place with my mind floating I always cursed myself because I was unable to change the course of my life.

I just realized that love sometimes torments you, with a spoiled seduction it comes then it goes back like a butterfly wooing a flower then it plucks a memory behind beauty. I'm grateful that even so I'm not that easy to string words together, I'm used to pretending to smile even though I'm actually lying to myself with a million things I'm trying to avoid. Behind the distance I chose to remain loyal to myself by trying to bury every memory I had ever experienced deeply, even though I was not someone that strong to be able to stand still. In the silence of the night I whispered and told the moon "quiet, I do not want to be alone. Every problem occurs and approaches me constantly like a perfect metamorphosis, but my imagination is not in line with reality" in my heart I could only curse myself even though I realized I was just a cowardly fool and always avoided it.

"What is the difference between me and a raindrop, he came in with a drip and then went inundated with a greeting that left nothing but a wound"

You are so meaningful and special to live forever this taste, it is impossible to replace. I was silent for a thousand languages, yet you came and went leaving a wound on the chest. "Don't just be quiet and act like you're the only one hurting me, too"

"What's the same with Rian and Ada?" Ask Fanya in her heart

"Fany, what's wrong?" Much

"No" replied Fanya

But in the distance I saw that Fanya was eating Ara and also Rian who was in the park near the school was sitting alone.

"Hmmm," I said

"We're going to class!" I cried while holding Fanya's hand

There is no certainty, when jealousy makes you feel that you are the smallest person in the eyes of the world when in fact you are great in the eyes of your Lord. He is silent in a thousand languages in fact I cannot interpret every word and action, contemplate and try to escape from every bittersweet reality you experience. This foot is stepping, and trying to get out of every past that crosses the boundary space and also your time, never trying to make a smile but also can not make regardless of every self-limiting thing. It's just that I realized in my selfishness, who I am is just someone standing on leafy leaves trying to get away from every feeling that makes me empty.

I came to my senses from the old wounds that once scratched my heart, the seductive angel of my own when I was pensive in the void and also the silence of my heart. "Do what I regret" he said while cursing myself, only regret that I can but not my door was granted. It's all like a test that comes in a row, like a bolt of lightning in broad daylight, only I'm like an addicted loser. I was still standing by myself waiting for the sweetness of the honey of romance but I realized from my nightmares, I'm not me if I can't be myself.

One day I fell into a dream that then awakened myself in the sadness and also the pain that I experienced but then immediately I learned from my selfishness, it's just that I can't run any further.

I just kept quiet and stayed away from him.

"What the hell is he, just be quiet" I said in my mind

I was tempted by her sweet smile, but then I realized that the mirage God had given me was just a moment and then she disappeared away from my sight.

"What are you doing?" Much

"No!" He answered while embarrassed

It was five o'clock and at that time I was at home, meanwhile, he came while using a motorbike that he drove from his house which was quite funny far from my home.

"Sa, yuk road!" Aryan

"Hmmm" I pensively thought

"Where are you?" Raisa asked while thinking

"Kneel!" He said while holding my hand

"Oh my God, I went inside and said to my mama" I said

"What's the matter with Arya, she's tumben-tumbenan ngajak me walk" I said in my mind

Dwi Arya Dhika: commonly called Arya

Cool guy but also funny but his attitude is cool sometimes even make all his friends away from him, even so in terms of maths lessons he is number one even though he is actually a little clever but he is rather innocent and innocent. Even though he looks cool but his innocent soul actually makes him look sweet, I was actually not very familiar with him but because of the events of that time when we were about to go to school and almost rained, I was actually not very familiar with him, she's even an umbrella with me. I don't know why the incident actually makes me awkward, but it's a funny memory as well.

I remembered about her inviting me to come closer, but the other time she moved away, whether I was too selfish if I only expected her while her love was not for me. I always looked at his face in the distance, I didn't really remember all those times but when he said that it felt like I was complaining and shaking but I realized he was nothing to me. If only he knew even in the distance I would always keep him in his solitude and sorrow. But if he remembers me then he will be back to his former figure but in the meantime I feel not too fond of his former nature.

I'm Bianca Raisa Andriana usually called Raisa somehow in this story I was named as the main character even though in this story I was only in the middle of the story, not much I tell, but in every story I am more of a storyteller. I am a nobody who is not a producer or a story scriptwriter, if only I am the story maker I also do not want this sad story. But how else is everything here, I'm the first and only child in my family.

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