Adolescence

Episode 42

...True Friend...

Love can not be expressed in words, when you start to love maybe you will try to keep the taste even though you realize, that your affection for it may suddenly change.

"Where are you going?" Ask again

"A.anu.a" I replied trembling.

"Anu?" Ask Raisa

"What the hell, not clear" said Raisa confused

"Eh sob Lo said aje" said Rian while patting Arya's shoulder and suddenly Arya was shocked and almost peed in her pants

"Rian, you've got Arya!" Answer Raisa

And then the Aryan ran away.

"Why is he?" Ask Rian

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Conspiracy theories begin when the moon meets the night, then they greet behind the distance while waiting for the dawn to come even though the actual time of dawn is very long and also time-consuming, then the moon was forced to wait for the coming of the sun but when dawn broke, the moon dimmed and unable to greet the sun. The story is almost the same as you and I who could not possibly meet because of the many obstacles and also obstacles, coupled with the calculation of the time where the fact states that the moon and sun are different, the sun only exists in the morning and also in the afternoon while the moon only exists at night. Just like me and you who can't possibly be together because you are you and I'm just someone who waits behind the distance saying "already, you may already be with another" I can only what? I'm just someone who bows me while holding on and can't stand back even if I fall.

Only silence cares for despair, and only the weird fight against longing because this heart may not be yours nor am I someone worthy of you, thank you for loving the most beautiful memories even though we are just two people who do not like to say hello to each other. Nature sometimes greets me with the sweep of the season wrapped with the sky that smiles sweetly at me, like the melody of spring sometimes he seduces me with melodies and melodious tones. But I didn't realize I was just shaking unconscious, thinking, stroking my chest "may I see the sun tomorrow morning" then when I woke up in a quiet place with my mind floating I always cursed myself because I was unable to change the course of my life.

I just realized that love sometimes torments you, with a spoiled seduction it comes then it goes back like a butterfly wooing a flower then it plucks a memory behind beauty. I'm grateful that even so I'm not that easy to string words together, I'm used to pretending to smile even though I'm actually lying to myself with a million things I'm trying to avoid. Behind the distance I chose to remain loyal to myself by trying to bury every memory I had ever experienced deeply, even though I was not someone that strong to be able to stand still. In the silence of the night I whispered and told the moon "quiet, I do not want to be alone. Every problem occurs and approaches me constantly like a perfect metamorphosis, but my imagination is not in line with reality" in my heart I could only curse myself even though I realized I was just a cowardly fool and always avoided it.

"What is the difference between me and a raindrop, he came in with a drip and then went inundated with a greeting that left nothing but a wound"

You are so meaningful and special to live forever this taste, it is impossible to replace. I was silent for a thousand languages, yet you came and went leaving a wound on the chest. "Don't just be quiet and act like you're the only one hurting me, too"

I am indeed not a woman who is easy to save feelings once I have feelings I will consider it only an unimportant thing especially with the name of love.

"Fany, how come you have Arya's number?" Ask Raisa

"I don't have you ask Aryanya directly!" Fanya

"What's Arya's phone number for?" Ask

"Not just for the rat-nawing in the house of ajak" I replied silly

"You are there-there's ajah" he said

Saat itu kelas sepi dan cuma ada aku dan juga Fanya sementara Ara belum datang.

"Eh Rian you're not with Arya?" Ask Fanya

"No, why?" Answer

"I thought you were with him!" Mouthed

I'm a secretary in the class while the class president Arya and his treasurer Fanya, sometimes in the classroom so bothered themselves if there was no him.

"You're selfish Ra!" Rian

"It's far away from me" Ara said as she let go of Rian's hand

A journey of life when you try to forget every past that has happened but what you experience is when you see the figure of the person in front of your eyes turns out to be nothing but is a different person than you know.

I'm not an option, but I can't choose either. It's not fair to me, but it's crossed every line in my life. I'm trying to forget every single thing in my life, I can only try to forget every single problem in my life.

Somehow slow another time changed, the second also spoke at the time, the heart is not able to be separated but we are also unable to choose.

" It’s all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appeals you, rather than looking for love to love to a self love deficit.” — Eartha Kitt. 

(It's all about falling in love with yourself and sharing love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a lack of self-love.)

Never heard the story of Rangga and also Love, why this is like our love story. Why do you like to test me when I myself try to forget you, in my heart I sing hope one day you can see me back. I survived but I also did not know how, in life I can only try and pray even though sometimes hope is not in line with reality.

"Why did Ra Lo get away from me?" Rian

Suddenly Raisa appears in our midst.

Ease Rian let go of her hand from me, as well as me who was shocked.

"You guys?" Raisas

"Raisa, what's wrong?" Ara asked calmly

"It looks like Ara and Rian are covering up something, but what is it?" Raisa's Report

I can't think and I'm too poetic to speak.

"Don't say, if you don't want to think!" Ara said as she left Rian and then took Raisa away

"What's Ra?" Raisas

"Udah come with me!" Ara said while holding Raisa's hand

"Hey, where are you two going? How could I have done that!" Rian

"Tau ah" answered Ara

"Why then? Is it possible because I'm too tight on him" Rian said

He gripped my hand tightly without letting go of his hand so firmly that I trembled and dared not look at his face, even to speak I could not. Until I held my breath and then my heart was racing, I felt like I was on a very high and scary rollercoaster. He just looked at me while continuing to hold my hand, my fingers were not afraid to fight the hard grip of his hand.

He's not like him, he doesn't look like anyone I know, he's nice and considerate to me but he's overrated.

"Why do you think of me?" Raisas

He spoke only a thousand languages, but he did not speak at all when I told him, as I let go of his tight grip but he was not willing to take his hand off me at all.

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