Adolescence
Episode 32
...First Love...
Do not whisper, it sounded in the silent sky the footsteps of someone walking. I looked to my right and left, like someone was watching me just trying to pretend I didn't know.
"You're selfish Ra!" Rian
"It's far away from me" Ara said as she let go of Rian's hand
A journey of life when you try to forget every past that has happened but what you experience is when you see the figure of the person in front of your eyes turns out to be nothing but is a different person than you know.
I'm not an option, but I can't choose either. It's not fair to me, but it's crossed every line in my life. I'm trying to forget every single thing in my life, I can only try to forget every single problem in my life.
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Rainbow color in blue sky
Just a silent witness
Witness the story of my journey with you
When difference becomes beauty
The sky speaks
And humming ria
Sing a song between you and me
Oh best friend…
The sky speaks
Glad token
Welcome tomorrow where we will be together
Forever…
And listen, always listen
That's all about us, though,
sky language stories.
Not the story of Romeo and Juliet whose story is written and also filmed, nor about the famous Rama and Shinta. Not a rich man, just an ordinary man, not a writer but just someone who wants to express every feeling through the verse of words and also the ink scratches that I pour with my heart and feelings.
The sweetly written annual temple of my love story with him that sits in the courtyard of love together with my heart that is always ringing with the whispers of his love so sweet, so sweet, indefinitely revealed but I can't say. I'm just someone who adores him in the distance, I'm just someone who tries hard to stay loyal to him even if I'm just behind the distance, don't ask me how I feel if you can't move on from the past that haunts you because it's so unfair.
The splashing sound of the rain rushing from the drops to the sound of a loud, not enough one but thousands of puddles of water swept over my shoulders and drenched me, not enough one, I just fell silent while letting every puddle of rain and also the boisterous sound of the wind blow fiercely on my face. I'm a nobody, I'm not the director who made my documented life journey into a movie. Even in the crowd I was still alone and feeling lonely, like there was only a firefly accompanying me in the silence. I'm just me and not him, let me keep this feeling at a distance because maybe you're not for me and maybe this feeling will one day go away on its own.
Somehow slow another time changed, the second also spoke at the time, the heart is not able to be separated but we are also unable to choose.
" It’s all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appeals you, rather than looking for love to love to a self love deficit.” — Eartha Kitt.
(It's all about falling in love with yourself and sharing love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a lack of self-love.)
"Why did Ra Lo get away from me?" Rian
Suddenly Raisa appears in our midst.
Ease Rian let go of her hand from me, as well as me who was shocked.
"You guys?" Raisas
"Raisa, what's wrong?" Ara asked calmly
"It looks like Ara and Rian are covering up something, but what is it?" Raisa's Report
I can't think and I'm too poetic to speak.
"Don't say, if you don't want to think!" Ara said as she left Rian and then took Raisa away
"What's Ra?" Raisas
"Udah come with me!" Ara said while holding Raisa's hand
"Hey, where are you two going? How could I have done that!" Rian
"Tau ah" answered Ara
"Why then? Is it possible because I'm too tight on him" Rian said
He gripped my hand tightly without letting go of his hand so firmly that I trembled and dared not look at his face, even to speak I could not. Until I held my breath and then my heart was racing, I felt like I was on a very high and scary rollercoaster. He just looked at me while continuing to hold my hand, my fingers were not afraid to fight the hard grip of his hand.
He's not like him, he doesn't look like anyone I know, he's nice and considerate to me but he's overrated.
"Why do you think of me?" Raisas
He spoke only a thousand languages, but he did not speak at all when I told him, as I let go of his tight grip but he was not willing to take his hand off me at all.
It's always like this, the victim is none other than me. Because I know nothing at all.
He's not like him, he doesn't look like anyone I know, he's nice and considerate to me but he's overrated.
"Why do you think of me?" Raisas
He spoke only a thousand languages, but he did not speak at all when I told him, as I let go of his tight grip but he was not willing to take his hand off me at all.
It's always like this, the victim is none other than me. Because I know nothing at all.
"Lo again what's the same problem with Rian?" Ask Raisa
"Do not know me, complicated" answered Ara while embracing Raisa's hand
Sometimes love is confusing you will never know what it's like to be in love the first time, but if you feel the pain then you will try to hurt yourself when you realize maybe he is not someone God created for you. You are so meaningful especially in this sense forever, friends will not be replaced and remember today until we are old friends will never leave forever in the heart of my best friend is always hearted.
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