About Us 1 & 2

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"What if I'm just a missed story? One day, you will definitely find a man you can rely on more," said Evgen flat.

"Some day I will have to marry someone else. I still want to say to you, if I ever really fell in love with you. And I'm, happy to know you, Evgen."

Evgen stared at Shenina's face, inexplicable how she felt this time. Maybe this is a joy, but this is also the end of a story that leads to separation.

"Then how are you and Angga? Didn't he already prepare a scholarship for you huh? I see he's a good guy too. Maybe in the future you can accept him," said Evgen back.

Shenina sighed, changing her sitting position. Look at the empty street in front of him.

"Evgen, we do fight a lot, but I realize that from the fight we convey love to each other."

Shenina smiled gently, her eyes twitching far away. Remembering the past when he and Evgen still often quarrel and laugh at the same time.

"Only when I'm around you can I cry, joke, act stupid and be. Maybe if that guy wasn't you, I wouldn't know what real love feels like. And right now I just feel that love when I'm with you. Because of you, I believe in the word love and if love is real."

Evgen just remained silent, sighing with a little weight.

"Shen, why are you admitting it now. When do we really have to separate?"

"Evgen, may I ask one thing for you?" shenina asked looking back at Evgen's face.

"What?"

"Even if we have to separate. Please never say those words. Because when I decide to love you, I don't care about anything anymore, I'll never change. For me you are still you, and I don't want to replace you with anyone."

"Even if I don't say goodbye, in fact we will still be separated? What difference does it make if I say it or not?"

"Because when you don't say that, I can still think that you're still willing to be by my side. Even when I am far away, even if I think you are still on my side, I can do a lot of things. And I'm definitely able to fight all the painful things. Because ever since you were, your love always made me dependent. Therefore, let me be on your side, even though you are only a shadow in my memory," said Shenina bitterly.

Evgen swallowed his saliva which felt heavy. Why should this feeling be revealed when things have become like this?

Why is this not revealed when they can still choose a way to go through all these difficulties together.

A lot of things have already passed, and there may be things that cannot come back. But what is expected is also uncertain.

"Shen, shouldn't you forget me? Because I-i-"

"Even if you want to erase my memory. Or you want to draw your face in my mind. No one can control love, Evgen. Forgetting or defending, it is also not my power, because when I decided to express this love. I don't care about the end result, as long as I can survive, maybe if I have to fail. I will never regret it either."

"But what if when I come back, there is already a heart that fills my life. And it's not you anymore?" ask Evgen back.

Shenina smiled gently, she looked at Evgen's face. A set of water droplets flowed across his cheeks.

"That's your business. I don't care, Evgen. If the result is like that, then I'm waiting for you also won't regret."

"Why?"

"Because the love I want is only with you. If it wasn't you, I wouldn't believe love existed."

Evgen smiled again and shook his head. Should it really end like this?

"Shen, I thought forever you'd never fall in love with me. Because you always say that I'm rude and haughty. Who would have thought that you would also be crazy about me, hem?" evgen said as he played both of his eyebrows.

Try to make the atmosphere between them back mecair. He was unable to continue this conversation.

If Shenina continued to continue her expression of feelings. Maybe his determination to stay here will falter.

Shenina, the girl he had always fought with all his heart. It softens and becomes like this. How could he possibly be able to release it again.

Shenina grabbed both of Evgen's cheeks, staring at the clear twinkle of the man's eyes fixed and deep.

Trying to show her feelings. Because at this moment Shenina realized, that Evgen was trying to deny her own heart.

"Evgen, don't avoid it anymore. When your violence turns to tenderness, when your arrogance turns to sincerity. Everything softened just for one reason -" Shenina blinked her eyelids, dropping back the tears she was trying to weave from earlier.

"Love. For the reason you love me, all your attitudes have changed. But I was too blind, I realized it after you weren't around. Evgen, I won't run anymore, I won't be proud to admit it, but can't-" Shenina took her breath, trying to breathe heavy oxygen into her nasal cavity.

"Do not say the word separation?" shenina asked again dropping her tears.

Evgen lowered his gaze, releasing Shenina's handrails on both of his cheeks.

For a moment Evgen was silent, nor did he want to let Shenina off in his arms. But whose future knows?

Maybe five years, ten years, or for the rest of his life he'll be here. Who knows?

Then Shenina? Will he wait without certainty?

Evgen shook his head, he couldn't possibly let this girl survive in her void.

Evgen stretched his muscles, he got up and pulled Shenina's hand.

"Let's eat, I'm hungry!" take Evgen gently.

Shenina pulled out Evgen's hand to sit back down. Looking at the man's face with layers of glass in both of his eyeballs.

"Evgen, is it that hard for you to answer? I just want you not to say that word. Why are you trying to run?" asked Shenina bitterly.

Evgen just fell silent, he threw his eyes blankly.

"Evgen," call Shenina ketus.

"Evgen, look at me!" snapped Shenina growled.

Evgen turned his face away, looking at the girl's face with a dislike expression.

"Why? You didn't want me when I asked you to keep me from leaving. Why now you mean me not to say the word separate?" ask Evgen ketus.

"If you used to be proud to hold back, why not let go now?" ask Evgen back.

"Evgen, I knew back then I was too haughty. I realize all that, because of that, can you just let me keep waiting?"

"No!" answer Evgen ketus.

"Why?"

"Because I will never return to Indonesia" Evgen replied, turning his face away.

Shenina's tears came from her eyes. Hearing the man's words, it completely shattered his love that was just about to grow.

"Gue won't be going back to Indonesia again, Shenina. Later I will move citizens, and start a new life. Whether it's in London, Germany or Russia. I'm going to go where I can create my works, without being bound by love" Evgen explained.

Shenina shook her head, she regressed her seat. Make a distance between him and Evgen.

"Lu lied to Evgen? You intentionally make me this sick. If you don't want me to wait, why are you doing all this? Why are you here? Why do you want to walk with me and make memories together?" shenina asked growled.

"I'm not the one holding you here! But you're the one who's gonna survive here. I asked you to come home. But you asked me to stay. So, am I guilty again?" ask Evgen fiercely.

Shenina smiled wryly and shook her head. He tidied up his bag and got up quickly.

"Gue thought, after what has happened and we pass together. Once you know how hard it is to be together, you won't be as selfish as you once were. It turns out, I am too hopeful with you," Shenina said as she walked away.

Evgen cremated both fingers, his current state is also squeezed. But he could not choose, the path was already like this. How else to fix it.

"Evgen," call Shenina back.

Evgen averted his eyes, looking at Shenina who was still standing five meters away from where he was sitting.

"Gue can't forget you, I can't help but fall in love with you. Even though you no longer want me on your side. But may I say, that I'm really happy when we can fight together." Shenina smiled gently.

Returning to continue his steps that had stopped.

Evgen quickly ran over, took the girl's wrist and turned her back.

Evgen grabbed Shenina's two cheeks, landing a kiss on the girl's tiny lips.

"Give me five years, Shen. Five years, if I succeed in that time, I'll go home to be with you. But if I fail, then there's no need to wait, because I .. definitely won't come back."

Shenina let go of her smile, grabbed Evgen's two cheeks and disgustingly clenched her short legs.

Kissing Evgen's lips gently, he soon divorced her and returned smiling.

"Five years, I will wait for you with all my heart that is still the same as today. Love you, wholeheartedly and will not change one bit."