About Us 1 & 2

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Shenina smiled and looked ahead. For a moment they were silent to each other.

"Gue's not here to pick you up, Evgen."

"Then?" ask Evgen ketus.

"Gue's here, because there's something I missed," Shenina replied as she looked at Evgen's face wistfully.

"Why would it be so hard to come here if you just missed me? I'm not who you are anymore, it's a pity you spend money on free things." Evgen got up from his chair and walked away.

"Gue realized you were the person I loved the most after you left, Evgen!" shunina shouted loudly.

Evgen stopped his steps, taking a quick glance. Then continue his journey.

"Gue admitted, after losing you. The person who loves me the most is you, I realize now. I'm ... really in love with you," Shenina continued.

Evgen sighed and turned around. Stare at the girl with a bit of fierce.

"Why new now? Why do you have to hurt me first, then you're happy. Shen, I'm disappointed and I'm hurt. You think the pain will be that easy to pass just because of a conversation of love? I'm already sick, and I mutusi to stay here. So ... Go home, I'm not coming back." Evgen turned his back and put his hands in the jacket pocket.

Walked away leaving the girl back. Shenina chased after Evgen's steps, hugging Evgen's body from behind.

"Evgen wait!" hold Shenina fast.

Shenina stuck her head on Evgen's back. Holding his arms around Evgen's stomach.

"Gue knows I've missed you just like that. I also do not ask you to be able to return my love, but the name of the feeling, I want to express it. Later if we can't get back together, then there are no more regrets left in my heart" said Shenina softly.

Evgen lowered his gaze, looking at the circle of Shenina's hands tightly hugging her stomach.

"Gue knows it's too late, I know you've been disappointed and hurt. Sorry, I was too selfish to admit it early. And I'm sorry, I let you just pass by," Shenina explained gently.

Shenina closed both of her eyelids, shedding one by one her tear circles without making a sound.

"Sorry Evgen, when you protect me, I always try to escape. I know, I was wrong. But I miss you, you who pay attention to me, you who treat me warmly and gently. I miss everything inside you, I realize right now. Love without a heart, it will only end in hurting each other."

Evgen sighed, a feeling of tightness began to re-nest in his chest.

"I'm desperate to explain. I know you won't believe my words. As long as I can be on your side for just a moment, then that's enough to make me happy."

"But it's not fair to me, Shen. I used to love you so much, but you're trying to erase my feelings. Now when all this fades, you want me to go back to your side?"

Evgen smiled gently and took his breath.

"Well, when did you hurt me with your gentle demeanor? You shouldn't have come, let gentleness be cruelty. So that the pain that I feel also does not get deeper." Evgen let go of Shenina's embrace and turned around, staring at the girl's face.

"Go home, leave me here!" evgen commands gently.

Shenina closed her eyes again, enjoying the pain she was beginning to feel.

'So this is how it hurts when we struggle but are met with rejection. Really Evgen, I'm sorry for the feeling you've been feeling all this time.'

Shenina stared fixedly at the back of Evgen's body that was walking further and further away from her.

He fell down the clear liquid from both eyes. He did not regret that he had come here. But regretting why he let Evgen go.

Shenina broke her cries, again sitting on the chair that was lined up on the sidewalk.

Evgen stopped his steps, looking at Shenina once more.

Actually he did not have the heart to let the girl alone. Especially in a city like this.

Evgen sighed and looked around. There are many foreigners and criminal incidents in this city.

Shenina was still a common girl with no experience. What if something happens to her?

What should he say to Seta?

Evgen ruffled his hair and walked back, coming at Shenina who was still crying sobbing herself.

Shenina stopped her crying as she saw a pair of shoes stopping in front of her.

"Give me your lodging address. I'll take you to the front door. Here is not Indonesia, you will find it difficult if you meet bad people later" said Evgen ketus.

Shenina pulled out her phone and showed her the address of the inn.

"Let's go home!" take Evgen to ketus.

Shenina nodded her head, following Evgen's footsteps, down the street pavement.

Half way, they were silent. There's nothing to talk about. To be more precise, Evgen did not want to talk anything.

Shenina put her hand together as the snowflakes began to rain down on the earth.

Evgen glanced and raised one eye eyebrow.

"Let's get back quickly. Looks like there's going to be snowfall today." Evgen pulled Shenina's wrist, screeching the girl to speed up her pace.

Because of Evgen's big moves that he couldn't follow. Shenina occasionally ran to be able to keep up. Without him noticing, one of his shoelaces came loose and stepped on.

Shenina instantly fell down on her own footing. Evgen sighed and raised Shenina's body to stand up.

Shit, Shenina's shoes were damaged because of this incident.

Evgen glanced at Shenina, his face changing instantly.

"Wear this" said Evgen, taking off his shoes.

"No! Slippery streets, I can still wear these shoes."

"Just wear it, I can still stand it if it's just snow."

Shenina shook her head, refusing Evgen's help to her.

Evgen could only sigh, he crouched down in front of Shenina.

"Fine, we have to get home before the blizzard comes" Evgen ordered softly.

Shenina smiled gently, even in the midst of the snowfall today. He could still feel the warmth of Evgen's treatment of her.

'This boat, it feels very warm even in the snow though. Evgen, can I feel this warmth a little longer?' lirih Shenina in heart.

"Why did you get here?" ask Evgen softly.

"Because I want to say something I've been hiding all this time."

"Is it just for that reason?"

"Yes, just because of that. I just want you to know my heart. Even though we will eventually part ways, then I will never regret it" Shenina replied softly.

"You sure you don't regret it? London it's not a close distance, you've flown so far. Would it be okay to go home without success?"

"I don't really think much about the results. All I want, you know. Parting or being together, that's half of God's destiny" Shenina replied gently.

Evgen nodded his head, stopping his steps in front of an inn.

"What number is your room?" ask Evgen directly.

"39."

Evgen nodded, he entered the door of the building. Carrying Shenina up the stairs of the simple inn.

"Evgen, that broke my shoe, not my foot. So I can walk by myself."

As if not hearing Shenina's words, Evgen walked straight towards the room that Shenina was in.

Open the door of the room and place Shenina on the living room sofa.

Evgen looked around the room, he heaved a sigh with some weight.

"Stupid, it's winter. Do you want to freeze to death?" ask Evgen ketus.

"meaning?" shenina asked confusedly.

Evgen walked towards the fireplace. Put some wood together and bring it to life slowly.

"Take this fireplace, it doesn't need to be big. The important thing is that your room doesn't freeze like it did" Evgen said softly.

Shenina smiled gently and nodded her head.

"Next time don't come to a country of such indiscriminate people again. If you do not know, ask the owner of the house, do not just deliver life for the country of people," said Evgen ketus.

"Yes, sorry to bother you."

"Gue turned around, before the rain got bigger and I got stuck in the street."

"Be careful," said Shenina softly.

Evgen nodded his head, he got up and walked out the door. His eyes were shifted to the kitchen of Shenina's inn. There's nothing available there.

"Shen," call Evgen soft.

"Hem."

"Have you eaten?"

Shenina simply shook her head, she had no time to think about eating. He immediately looked for Evgen after putting his suitcase in the inn.

Evgen ran quickly, exited the inn and searched the nearest shopping center.

In haste, Evgen brought some canters with raw materials. Back to Shenina's house.

Evgen slammed the canteen on the table. Looked at the girl sharply.

"You really want to kill yourself, right? It's winter, fireplaces don't live, groceries don't exist. You think this is Indonesia? Every morning there is a vegetable lontong who travels around? This is London Shenina, you should be able to live by relying on yourself!" said Evgen without pause.

"Sorry, Evgen. I don't know, because when I first landed here, all I wanted to see was you."

"Don't use that excuse, I don't want to hear anything about the past anymore" said Evgen.

"Alright," Shenina replied in defeat.

Evgen walked towards the window. Closing the glass window that began to dew because of the gust of wind and snow began to blow hard.

"The snow has started to fall" said Evgen slowly.

"So how?"

"How's what? I can't go home automatically. Uncle Yohan must be worried," Evgen explained.

"I'm sorry" Shebina said.

Evgen sighed and sat down next to Shenina.

"Lu why the hell? Did you become a fool after stepping on London."

"You mean?"

"From now on I asked you to say, you just answered a word, two words. You're sparing to talk in a city of people?" ask Evgen annoyed.

"No, I'm just afraid I'll hurt your feelings again."

"Oh, now you're afraid of hurting me? Why should I be afraid? Whether I get hurt or not, I won't come back either."

"Gue knows, but it would be better if I didn't hurt you more than this" Shenina said.

Evgen was silent, his eyes constantly staring at the face of the girl before him.

He could have left the woman alone in this situation.

Although in his words he refused, but his heart felt happy when he saw this girl willing to fight this big for him.

"Go home tomorrow. This town doesn't suit you, "evgen softly said.

"But Evgen-"

"Aren't you here just to say you miss me? I already know, so there's no reason for you to stay any longer."