About Us 1 & 2

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Shenina scrunched her forehead, bewildered by Evgen's words.

"How do you mean?" shenina asked confusedly.

"My father has agreed to send you and Seta to school in London. Together with me," Evgen explained gently.

"What?" shenina asked in disbelief.

Shenina looked at Evgen's face, before long she turned her face away and rubbed violently.

"Why are you doing this Evgen? You asked your Papa to charge me? London's? How much money do you want Papa to make just for me and Seta?" Shenina sighed and shook her head.

"I'm sorry, but I can't accept it" Shenina said softly.

"Why? Is London not the city of your dreams? You should be happy to go to college there."

"Gue's happy, I'm very happy instead, someone wants to pay for my college there. But not from Papa you either, Evgen."

"What if it's from my Papa? What's the difference between my money and other people's money? It's the same, right?" ask Evgen ketus.

"Evgen, maybe you're unconscious. But I can work in Papa's hotel restaurant you only, I'm very grateful. I am here on a high salary, my work is also more respected. I feel very indebted to you, Evgen. I don't want my debt to you, I won't be able to repay it for the rest of my life" explained Shenina.

"Gue didn't ask you to pay for what I gave you, Shen. Papa I won't ask you for anything either."

"Gue knows! I know Papa you're willing to help others, Evgen. But it's London, the cost of school and my life alone maybe the expenditure is already very large Evgen. And you even asked my sister to go to school there? Evgen, if you're not the one asking, could it be that your Papa would give the same to someone else?"

"Of course, Papa I'm a conscientious man. He will give what he thinks he deserves" Evgen replied quickly.

Shenina smiled bitterly and shook her head.

"But it's not as easy as he gave it to me and my brother, is it?"

"Lu just have to accept it Shenina, should it be that hard?" ask Evgen fiercely.

"Lu said just have to accept it? Do you not know how I feel too? Do you think I'm happy when someone costs my life like this? Evgen I also do not want if only said your parasites," explained Shenina back.

"Who dares to tell me that? I'm gonna keep his mouth shut forever" Ancan Evgen was upset.

Shenina continued to look at Evgen's face. Staring at the man with a cynical look.

Evgen let out a sigh, resting his two elbows on the fence.

For a moment the two of them were silent to each other. Letting silence greet each one of them.

"Gue admitted this was all just for your good, Shen. I just want you to get what you're supposed to get" Evgen said.

"What belongs to me is forever mine, Evgen. I can't get that much out of you, I'm afraid, Evgen."

"So how do you want it?" ask Evgen ketus.

"Gue will achieve whatever my dream is, but with my own hands, Evgen. Thank you for your kindness, but I'm sorry. I can't take it." Shenina said as she walked away from Evgen herself.

Evgen rubbed his face, pounding the side of the fence in annoyance. Why does Shenina's mind sometimes have to be this complicated? His stubbornness is still very difficult to change.

"Why? Why do I always do you always refuse Shenina? Wh why? Why can't you, just a little bit? Open your heart to me?" asked Evgen to scream.

Shenina stopped her steps, she turned her body. Looked at the haughty man.

"You've done a lot for me Evgen. But I can't accept it all, it's been enough all this time what you've sacrificed for me. Please, don't make your kindness a burden that I have to bear forever because I can't afford to repay it, even if it's just a little."

Evgen let go of his bitter smile and looked towards Shenina.

"How many more reasons do you need to reject me? Just tell me, I still have time to listen to everything" Evgen replied fiercely.

"Evgen you misunderstood! I don't want to reject you, I just can't accept your kindness anymore. Because right now, I owe you too much, I don't want this debt to be more and more and make me unable to pay it off."

"Then what if you can't pay it off?" evgen asked as he walked closer.

Shenina lowered her gaze, the more Evgen opened his voice. More and more of Evgen's kindness came to Shenina's memory.

He was no longer able to count it. Too much he owed this haughty man. Without realizing it, he had relied a lot on the goodness of Evgen.

"Therefore I can't keep accepting everything, Evgen. I don't want to keep receiving from you, but I can't at all repay your kindness."

"Gue doesn't need a reply. Even to this day, everything I've ever done for you, I don't expect the slightest reply from you. Even expecting you to be able to reciprocate my feelings, no!" obviously Evgen was upset.

Evgen grabbed both ends of Shenina's shoulders and pressed her down a little strongly. Staring at the clear twinkle of the girl's eyes fixedly and deeply.

Hoping for the girl to understand just a little of his heart's desire. Hanua wanted this girl to be happy. No longer bear his own burden.

"Shen, when I fell in love with you. I was just thinking about how to make you happy with me. I keep giving what I have as proof of my feelings to you. But behind it all, I never expected you to return my feelings. I know, you never liked me, Shen. I know, whatever I do, it can never open the door of your heart."

Evgen sighed and smiled wryly. Tidying up the strands of Shenina's hair that had been carried away by the night wind.

"Gue know, a lot of my treatment during this time that makes you angry and hate the same as me. I know too, Shen. If in your eyes .. I'm just a spoiled man and can't be anything without the property of my family."

Evgen took off his handrails and walked back to the side of the fence. See the light from the city lights that adorn the darkness of the night.

"Gue realized, after everything I've done for you, but at least you've never had more of the same feelings as me. I try to understand that, because I admit, I do often ngajak you quarrel, I do often make you upset. But in the slightest, I never intended to hurt and hurt your feelings."

Evgen again sighed, breathing the cold air of the night. Trying to cool off his increasingly stifling feelings.

"Gue knows Shen. If all this time you are often forced to live a relationship with me. Actually I don't want to do all that equally you, but I can't fool myself. Like you said all this time, I always look for reasons to be close to you. I don't know why, but I feel empty when I'm away from you."

"Evgen, sorry. I don't want to hurt you. Just--"

"No longer need to be connected, I'm fine," Evgen broke up straight away.

Evgen glanced at Shenina. He smiled when he saw the girl's face.

"Shenina I'm sorry that I've been bothering you so much. Sorry if I hurt your heart so much. Right now I know, as hard as I can try to knock on your heart's door. Forever you'll keep your heart shut."

"Evgen, you misunderstood."

"Shenina I'm stupid, but I I'm not blind. You often look very comfortable when talking to Angga. But you kept shouting and getting angry while you were with me. Even when we are friendly, we can still fight. We are never in line, we are both stubborn and arrogant to each other's feelings."

Evgen touched Shenina's forehead with one finger. Smile back wide.

"There's already an Angga looking after you. He can even make you feel more comfortable than me, I'm quite self-conscious anyway. We can never fall in love with each other."

Evgen turned his back and walked towards the elevator door. Leaving the girl alone on the rooftop.

Trying to accept the circumstances that keep her eyes open. That all this time, only he's been in love with that girl.

Either because it's stupid or love needs a struggle. But whatever it is, Evgen can now see it clearly.

That their stories, indeed intertwined on the basis of their respective arrogance.

Meantime, Shenina simply fell silent. He was still trying to accept all the words Evgen had said.

His eyes continued to look at the back of the man's body which was walking further and further out of sight.

"Too many misunderstandings between us, Evgen. From the beginning the misunderstanding between us continues to grow and increasingly makes our distance stretched. I don't know what's wrong? Maybe because we are both hard and too proud to be able to give up. In the end, we continue to walk on a path like this." Shenina said bitterly.

Shenina bowed her head, trying to alleviate the pain that had started to arise inside her chest.

"You said I could never open my heart to you. If I say .. I've been in love with you for a long time. Are you gonna believe it?"

Shenina shook her head, dropping one by one her tears.

Why is it that when the man is no longer there and listens to him, he just dares to admit it?

"Maybe you're right, Evgen. We can't really fall in love with each other. Because when I get used to you, fate has to take you away from me. We are never in line, because we may never be meant to be together."