A Poem To Dila
Because you are his dusk
I tore up the paper I wrote just now and folded it into a paper plane, and I flew this plane out of the second floor window of the inn, hope that paper plane gets to Tangerang and stops in your room, Dila.
Three days passed after I was in Bali, I prepared to continue my journey to the next place, and from here my journey will be by land to more easily reach the nearest places.
During my travels, I explored various places in different directions, pursued beautiful twilight and tried to prove that there is no more beautiful twilight in the universe than you. From Seling Ombo Beach which offers a stunning twilight, Balekambang Beach surrounded by cliffs and exudes magical charm, to Ngliyep Beach, with its beautiful billowing waves and orange sky, it was just a faint humming that was imprinted in my memory compared to the twilight radiating from your smile. I wandered far and tired, hoping to find a miracle comparable to you. Every time the sun came down on the horizon, I watched expectantly, hoping to find the same touch of wonder as when I was near you.
However, even though this journey has taken more than four weeks, I have not found the slightest twilight that could rival you. No one can come close to your beauty, Dila. The warmth and joy of the twilight I longed for, which I always found while at your side, was unmatched by anything in this world.
And so, in the deepening longing and grief that struck, I realized that no twilight could rival you, Dila. You have conquered my heart with your invincible beauty. On this journey, I have discovered many wonders of nature, but the true miracle is your presence that has left an indelible mark on my heart.
Now, as I closed my eyes and imagined the twilight, all that came to my mind was your face emitting a golden light. I realized that the most beautiful and memorable twilight is the twilight we see together, as we share stories and laughs, as we string together dreams and understand the meaning of solitude together.
And so, with a heart full of longing and hope, I continue this journey with the conviction that one day, I will return to see the twilight with you, in the place where the indisputable miracle lies.
And before returning home to Bogor, I decided to stop for a while in Banjarnegara for two days. The reason is none other than the existence of Dieng Culture Festival, an event held once a year. The arrival of Dieng Culture festival certainly cannot be missed.
I was getting ready to leave for the inn located in Dieng Kulon. The festival will be held at Arjuna temple, which is located in Dieng Kulon area, Batur District, Banjarnegara Regency. In order to ensure my participation in the festival, I had bought the entrance ticket earlier.
Arriving at the inn, I immediately rushed to the Arjuna temple, the place where the festival would take place. When I arrived at the location, the scene that greeted me was the crowd of people who had already crowded the area. My steps continued to move towards the crowd, while trying to find a comfortable seat among the increasingly crowded crowd.
The sensation of excitement and excitement felt in the air was so thrilling. Tucked away hope in my heart that this festival will be an unforgettable experience. I felt a sense of cohesiveness and a spirit of unity among the eager visitors.
Walking past the rows of food vendors and various booths showcasing the richness of local culture, I felt how much this festival meant to the local people. Cheers of joy, boisterous laughter, and the sound of traditional music filled my ears, creating an atmosphere so lively and lively.
I tried to find a comfortable seat in the main stage area, in order to see the show more clearly. My gaze stopped on an empty chair located in a corner near the stage. I thank you for this good luck and immediately occupy the seat.
Sitting there, I looked around with enthusiasm. The sight that stretched before me was so stunning. The magnificent stage is filled with dancers and musicians playing traditional musical instruments. The stage light plays an important role in creating the magical atmosphere of this festival.
In a moment's silence, the cheers of the audience filled the air as the show began. I felt the vibrations from my phone that I put in my pants pocket, and when I checked it turned out to be an incoming call from the Stars.
“Hallo?”
“Oi, you where is ege? The cave has been 3 times to your house and you are not home, this has been almost a month?”
“Gua is still in Indonesia do not have to worry.”
“Gua is not worried about you, the cave just wants to tell you that Dila has broken up with her boyfriend now.”
I heard the voice of the Star saying that Dila had broken up trying to confirm it. “Seriously? You want to joke not funny ege?”
“There is no such thing as a lie cave job with you.”
“Lu know how Dila broke up from where?”
“Gua denger from cave girl, right she likes to confide in cave girl, and this time only your chance to make her dapetin, but there is a little problem.”
“What's theroblem?”
“He seems difficult to make back to Bogor.”
“What do you mean, the cave does not understand?”
“Lu try to check to group of same class group we.”
I followed the Star's advice and opened a class group and a class group. There, I saw the last message from the app stating that Dila had left the group.
“Look at the group, why did Dila leave the group?”
“Where yes, the cave is clear, afraid of wrong cave talking.”
“Ya by the way mumpung no one.”
“Dila broke up with her boyfriend because someone grabbed her boyfriend.”
“Keep the relationship Dila out of the group or difficult return to Bogor, and there are those who cornered her boyfriend what is the relationship.”
In a slightly awkward tone, Star told me who had cornered Dila. “That cornered Dila the Felia.”
“Serious lu? You no longer play?”
“Serious cave, you want to know why Dila seems difficult to return to Bogor?”
“Why?”
"The person who combed the Dila to be the same ex now, then the person who cornered the Dila, the cave did not know the details like how until the person cornered the Dila, then the person, but according to Dila's cave hypothesis why he got out of the group must have something to do with that guy."
While sitting and listening to the Star who was calling on my phone, I saw Fiersa Besari enter the stage full of charisma, holding tightly to her guitar. The sound of the crowd cheering filled the air as soon as he started talking.
"Here's the one whose love is clapping one hand?" fiersa Besari asked, creating a wave of screams from the audience.
"Many!" the audience, answered his questions with enthusiasm.
Fiersa Besari smiled and continued, "These are good words for those of you whose love is clapping one hand, and that person is breaking up with his choice."
Hearing those words, I couldn't help but feel bitter in my heart. However, as Fiersa Besari continued with the next verses, her words poured straight into the recesses of my fragile heart.
“I heard someone broke your heart? I almost used to clap this one hand, clapping while praising karma. But how could I possibly have the heart to see you grieving, what kind of fool would let you get hurt? You that I believe are created when God is happy, really deserve the best, or if not, let me try to give you the best.”
I who heard the words of Fiersa Besari at that moment immediately sighed and answered the words of the Star. “For the moment justin first he himself, it takes time for him to open his heart back.”
“Lu sure will not take any action, and there is no guarantee you can have a chance like this again?” The star asked with a hint of worry in her voice.
I thought about the words of Star for a moment before replying steadily, “Because there is something unfinished and the cave has not been able to meet him if it is not finished. There is still much to be done before the cave can consider the next step.”
“Oke-oke.”
After hanging up the phone from Bintang, I refocused my attention on Fiersa Besari who was ready to perform her next song. The voice of the audience clapped boisterously as he said, “This is for those of you whose love claps one hand.”
“Bilur is getting stretched, in a summary of asa... Sentences missing meaning of helpless logic... On the banks of Nestapa, the desire silenced... I don't know if I'm a coward, I don't know if you're insensitive... I crave you crave me... When you need ears to hear... Shoulder to lean body to take refuge... You must have found me on the front lines... Clap with one hand... You make me sure, angels don't always have wings... Let's wait indefinitely without reply... Keep the light in space... Which is hard to resist and hard to reach... I crave you... When you need ears to hear... Shoulder to lean body to take refuge... I am the one who is always there for you... Even if it's just friends... Sure you found me on the front lines... Clap with one hand..”
While looking at Fiersa Besari singing I thought about every lyric that was delivered, is it true that my feelings for Dila were just clapping one hand, while I myself have not expressed my feelings for her, and now Dila is in a position not okay for sure. If I meet him now, I will only make the atmosphere worse, and also the important things that I used to say to Dila I have not made. Ah I am so tired of my feelings, I want to be a bird that can fly and continue to peek at Dila who is sleeping.
The person beside me who saw me under a lot of pressure immediately rebuked me. “Oi, you are not papa, the clay cave from earlier you are rich in a lot of pressure?”
“Oh sorry sorry, cave bothers you huh?”
“Kak kok, the cave is just curious, people in the cheers listen to music, you even diem while dumbstruck like many thoughts aja.”
I just laughed when I heard that man say to me. “Hahaha. Cave again confused if it rains here how?”
“Please here will not rain, because it has been hired by the rain handler.”
“Thank God if it does not rain, because the cave does not bring a change of clothes.”
“Eh you don't think you're here huh?”
“Iya, cave is not a person here.”
The man extended his hand to me to invite me to acquaintance. “Reyhan.”
“Deni.” I said while shaking his hand.
“Lu original where?”
“Gua from Bogor.”
“Pantes aja of his style of speech is not like java”
I just laughed a little at his words.
After Fiersa Besari finished appearing other musicians, namely shady umbrellas, she also sang a song that Dicky had sung when I and my class were on vacation at the beach. While playing her guitar melody to start the intro song titled for women in arms, with a very beautiful melody of course I thought.
If there is more opium
From melody to shady umbrella.
Maybe it's your smile.
Three hours passed I was at the festival and now is the highlight of the festival, the release of a thousand lanterns to be led by the governor of Banjarnegara. I was invited by Reyhan to attend the event.
“Come, you will not fly lanterns.”
“Unfortunately papa, foreigners follow fly lantern.”
“Lu guess where this is? Here everyone is free to fly lantern.”
I also followed Reyhan to buy lanterns that have been provided there. After Reyhan and I got the lantern, I got ready to fly the lantern, but Reyhan gave me a message that was preparing the lantern.
“Lu don't forget to write your letter or hope and stick it in the lantern that you will fly.”
“OK okay.”
I also took out a paper and a pen that I kept in my small bag to write anything about Dila.
To Dila who is far away in Tangerang
A lot happened after the breakup.
Either keep saying hello, or pretend to forget the memory.
There's never been much said.
Just a phrase.
“How are you?”
After I finished writing, I put the paper in the lantern while waiting for the cue to fly my lantern. The governor also gave a cue for all of us who will fly the lantern.
“3... 2... 1...”
The lanterns were slashed into space simultaneously, adorning the night sky with sparkling light. The song "The Deepest" from Peterpan is beautiful, accompanying it with lyrics that are so deep in meaning. "I'm off everything I want... I won't repeat... I'm sorry if you love me... And if I can replace..."
I saw at once the sky was full of lanterns that lit up the night today which made the atmosphere similar to that in the film Tangled, but the difference was that I was alone, and Rapunzel was accompanied by Flynn Rider.
After the Dieng culture festival, I returned to my inn to rest, at the inn I immediately cleaned myself and went to my bed. Before going to sleep I thought about the words of the Star earlier, I did want Dila to not have a relationship with anyone but myself, but I also could not see Dila grieving.
We should be people who know each other.
I shouldn't have changed this admiration.
Be a new hope, to know how it feels to have you. You should still be someone far from my sight
And I shouldn't have known you this close.
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