A Poem To Dila

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When I was walking home, from behind Hendrik approached me, it seemed to have noticed me and saw Dila coming home with Ridwan.

“Bang ojek bang.” Said Hendrik while stopping his bike near me.

I looked at Hendrik. “Si anying, you haven't returned?”

“This cave wants to go back.”

“Lu want to cave between? But not free.”

I rejected Hendrik's offer outright. “Nmak thanks.”

Hendrik came back to me. “Handering cave, let's ride mumpung cave is still good ni.”

I got on Hendrik's bike. “Well it dong, you new friend cave.”

“Lu self-tumbent usually also with Bintang.” Said Hendrik while plugging the full gas motor.

“Eh anying do not speed up the cave still want to live, the cave is not married to Dila.” I said in a hysterical tone because Hendrik was jockeying on the road while driving me home.

Hendrik lowered the speed of the bike. “Bangsat, you blatantly want to marry Dila, just now the Dila was brought by the Ridwan you even diem aja.”

“Lu saw Dila just brought by Ridwan?”

Hendrik smiled. “Caves from the back of your ngeliatin.”

I hit the helmet Hendrik was wearing. “Lu no work ngeliatin people.”

“Bacot lu.” Said Hendrik again gas and scramble again until the front of my house.

I got off Hendrik's bike while staggering. “Fuck you, the cave will no longer want to be ushered home with lu.”

“Turnback cave yes.” Hendrik while returning to gas and leaving me.

“Crazy the person.”

Arriving at home I immediately entered to see the lights of the house that did not turn on I also assumed that there were no people at home, and sure enough at home there was no one ready, no one,  there's just a letter stuck on the refrigerator door.

“Umi, same brother you again visit your grandfather's house, at the end of the day you go home. Food is ready at the dinner table. Don't wreck the house let alone burn the house.” I who read the letter from Umi also directly contacted my friends to tell them to party at my house.

I called Hendrik. “Oi nge here nginep in our cave house party, mumpung cave parents no longer at home.”

“Gas lah, yes times not in gas si, later cave otw with children.”

“Lu don't bring weird to the cave house, last time you went to the cave house, you brought a spirtus that made the cave house fire.”

“Quiet gua—” I hung up immediately before Hendrik continued his words.

Two hours passed after I called Hendrik to take the children to stay at my house, finally Hendrik came with Robi, Zahid, Rifki, Yomi, Yaksa, Muladi, Azis, Alpin Ravhy and Bintang. While carrying a chicken that they think they have stolen.

I immediately approached Hendrik who was holding a chicken out of nowhere. “Oi nge, that chicken you gush where?”

“Barusan nemu cave behind your house, baby instead of wandering mending cave just catch, any time we can cook.”

“That chicken got cave ege.” I immediately took the chicken Hendrik caught and released it.

“Elu both do oi?” I asked Zahid and Robi, who were working on their bike.

“Den you can patch cave motor not?” Zahid asked me.

“Cave house not workshop ege.”

“Den cave bring ps same TV let's gas we play pes.” said Rifki and Yomi who are holding the ps.

I took a breath. “Finally there are also cave friends who are real.”

I walked into the house and approached the Star who was sitting on the sofa watching TV. “Si Ridwan where? She's not here?”

“Tumben lu nanyain him? Wouldn't you be nicer if she didn't exist huh?”

“No also cave ege.” I said as I tossed the piece of orange I held onto the head of the Star.

After they came I let them do what they like in my house and I just prepared the snacks I had and gave them.

“Oi nge you on laper n?” I asked them all.

“Yes hungry, you're still just.” Robi said to me while rubbing her big belly.

I took the money out of my pocket and threw it on the floor. “Nih first charge.” Others spend their money on each other.

“Lu want food directly so or must be cooked first?” Ask Zahid to all those who are in my house.

“Mending cooked first let hygenis.” Hendrik chimed in Zahid's words while peeling the orange I had prepared.

I reject Hendrik's words. “Against the mending that just so, last year you all cooked in the cave house, even the cave kitchen fire.”

“Kan used to be you who told the cave to cook in your house, because the stove is not on fire yaudah cave flush use a spirtus aja let on.” said Hendrik make an excuse.

“It's not a flame ege, it's a fire.”

“Yaudah buy directly so only.  Zis join the cave to buy food.”

Zahid and Azis went to buy us a meal and I sat on the balcony alone waiting for Zahid and Azis to return, before Hendrik and the Stars came to me.

“Oi you daydream!” Said Hendrik who sat down next to me and smoked the cigarette he had just lit.

“Nih ngerokok aja let your mind a little calm.” Hendrik gave me a cigarette he had.

I refused the cigarette Hendrik gave me. “Again, the cave does not demen the same cigarette.”

“Lu used to fit SMP smoking now why are you even anti-smoking?” Ask the stars while smoking the cigarette he was holding.

I smile. “Maybe because Dila.”

Hendrik patted my back. “Lu still thinking about the incident earlier.”

“Ya you if you really like the Dila talking instead of diem, Dila's turn is taken the same Ridwan lu galau.” said Bintang while teasing me.

“Gua used to be the same as you, but after the cave made up its resolve to express the feeling of the cave to Windi and regardless of the answer the cave did not care. Finally the cave can be relieved and even the cave gets a bonus from the cave results revealing the feeling of the cave, which is the cave can be the same Windi.” Back to smoking his cigarette.

I just smiled at the words of the Stars, before long Zahid and Azis returned with food and drink. Before he entered my house he left me a bottle of soda.

“Nih for you.”

I caught the drink that Zahid threw at me and immediately gulped it down. “Still.”

“Lu do not mostly drink soda, you like to mabok also if most drink soda.” The stars warned me.

“Berisik lu.” I said as I finished the soda with a slightly flushed face.

“New cave sayin, you are already drunk will be ribet ni if you already drunk.”

“Gua likes Dila but every cave deket same him, the cave can not even say if the cave likes him, the cave is even like a bego people who talk. But every Dila told others the heart of the cave even hurt. Dog.”

Hendrik wondered. “Nih people why?”

“Udah biarin, he if already drunk likes to digress is not clear.” Said Bintang answer the question Hendrik who was curious why I was suddenly drunk with soda only when there was no alcohol.

“Lu tau no Tang, the first time the cave saw Dila, the cave thought he was the son of SD who strayed to our school because of his small body, but each cave the longer he knew the cave even more like to be with him, the cave even more like to be with him, whether this is called love or just an obsession to have it but every cave thinks of its face it makes the cave even more like its own smile.” I said as I lay on the balcony with Bintang and Hendrik.

“But for some reason after the presence of Ridwan in the life of Dila cave only has a little space in his life, slowly the space that the cave contents began to be gerogoti by Ridwan.” I fell asleep right away.

Hendrik wondered to the Stars. “Nih boy why? just now he's babbling now even turu?”

“That's right, help the cave move this boy to his room.” Say the Star while lifting my body and walking towards the room.

“Oi is a boy why? Just now still conscious now even lemes that?” Yomi asked Hendrik and Bintang.

The stars brought me to my room. “Custom drunk soda.”

“Anying. Weak bet drunk same soda.”

I was taken by Bintang and Hendrik to my room after Bintang and Hendrik put me in bed, subconsciously I told Bintang not to touch the photos on the study table. The star and Hendrik who were curious because I said like that went straight to my study table and saw the photo that was there, Bintang and Hendrik just smiled when they saw the photo. And yes that photo is a photo of Dila and I that I saved on August 16th.

I who had been asleep for a long time also woke up at exactly two in the morning and walked to check whether the door was locked or not but after leaving the room I saw a messy house room and they also who fell asleep carelessly. After checking the door I saw a Star who was still not asleep and just played the ps alone.

I approached the star who was playing ps himself. “Lu haven't slept?”

“What's the nge? It's a cave.”

“Ya you can't? Don't make people surprised.” The star again picked up the ps stick he just threw.

“Lu want coffee?”

“Tumben you're good, you must have wanted yes?”

“Gua is good, even in slander.” I said as I took two bottles of coffee cans that were in the refrigerator and gave them to Bintang.

“Soal how later?” Say the Star to me while taking the drink I gave and sipping it.

I sat next to a star who was playing ps. “Gua ngikutja, already there is Zahid who is a producer and Rifki who is the class leader, so there is no reason and right to interfere about the show.”

Stars laugh. “Ya cave is also the same. The more the cave does not participate in the important role as well as free cave time to do other things, such as together with Dila.”

“Dila has a cave, you already have Windi also still want to take have a cave.”

“Ya if you do not reveal, it means Dila is still entitled to the same others, for example the same Ridwan?”

“Lu tau fitting we class 1 when to the beach, first cave be-plan to reveal the feeling of the same cave he was there, but shortly before the cave revealed the feeling of the cave, the cave suddenly froze and the sound of the cave suddenly came.” I said as I sipped my drink again.

“Yes first if you express your feelings at that time maybe you are now already the same Dila. And also already have Dila without having to fear losing him, what else is taken by Ridwan.” Say Stars while continuing to play the ps itself. “Lu here blatantly if you like Dila, but if there are people you even grimace not clear”

I laughed at the words of the stars and went to my room.

“Lu where else?”

“Gua back to sleep first, if it's morning wake up another.” I said as I went back to my room and closed the door.

After sunrise the Star woke me and the other children up because it was dawn, I heard that the Star woke me up straight from my bed to go to the bathroom.

“Oi you didn't wake up the others?” I said to the Star who returned to play the ps after waking me up.

“How many times have you awakened them, but they are cosplayed to the dead.”

“Lu not sleeping from semalem?”

“The stage is over.” Said the Star while looking at me with slightly red eyes and eyes.

“Cua to bathroom first.” I said as I picked up the towel and walked towards the bathroom.

Stars remind me. “In the bathroom there is the Yaksa again boker but from earlier.”

I waited for Yaksa to come out of the bathroom for ten minutes but she didn't come out and I went up to her and knocked on the bathroom door.

“Oi nge you want until when in the bathroom?”

Yaksa did not answer my words and I knocked even harder until Yaksa replied to my words.

“Oi bentar oi, the cave just overslept this responsibility has not come out.”

I walked out of the bathroom Yaksa was wearing. “Si anying where can boker while sleeping, where has not come out tuh taik.”

“Those cave friends nothing real.” I said as I walked towards the sleeping Star while holding the PS stick.

After sunrise all my friends finally woke up, I who saw my house was a mess told my friends to help me clean the house but they instead went home.

“Oi nge, you have made a messy cave house, put it home aja.” I say to all those who have boarded the bike.

“We go back first yes, afraid late later school.” Said Hendrik while yawning and going out of my house.

“Dogs, nyesel ngundang cave they made nginep in cave house.”

I also cleaned my own house, afraid it will fit the Umi to go home even I was homelinized. After thirty minutes I finished the house and I immediately prepared to go to school, just before I wanted to go to school the stars who had come were waiting for me on the porch.

I walked to the stars. “Lu just returned from the cave house, have you returned again just here?”

“Gua well loh, ngajak you together to school.”

I got on the star bike. “Yaudah gas, let's go.”

Me and Bintang left for school on their bikes, once at school I used to wait for the others in the parking lot to go straight to class because my friends were not parked and after me and the Star entered the class I saw all my friends who were asleep in their seats.

“Si bastards even on touru in class all.”

The star pushed me who was standing at the classroom door. “Awas cave to sit in the cave, cave is not strong sleepy.”

“Lu also follow ege.” I said to the Star that was walking towards its seat.

Jey approached me who had just entered the classroom. “Eh Den the kids why on sleep in class all?”

“They abis nginep in the cave, instead of sleeping they even play PS until dawn, let alone the Star.” I said to Jey while walking beside him.

Windi who heard the Star stayed up late and played PS until dawn immediately approached and woke him up.

“Lu yes, instead of sleeping even stay up until dawn, already know now the morning of school.” Windi grabbed the hair of the Star to wake him but the star who was drowsy was still not awake even though it had been snapped by Windi.

Dila approached Windi and calmed him down. “Updah-already Win, nybut Win.”

Windi took a breath. “Astaghfirullah hal adzim.”

“Again Win.”

“Astaghfirullah hal adzim.”

I walked to my seat and put my bag there and walked to the Star seat to take her to breakfast.

“Oi nge you want breakfast? was it time to leave we have not had breakfast?” Take me to the Star who is sitting asleep next to Windi.

“Gas come.” The star immediately got up and stood up to go have breakfast with me.

“Si anying cave from earlier did not wake up, now pas talking about food instead wake up, do not think the cave has a guy.” Windi said as he held his head with both hands as he dizzy at the thought of the Stars.

Me and the Star walked out of class for breakfast and suddenly Hendrik grabbed me by the shoulder. “Yu gas breakfast, you are treat yes.”

“Si anying is not much different from the Star when it comes to food gercep.”

Me, Hendrik and Bintang went out of school for breakfast because the porridgeman was out of school.

“Why baby porridge for baby, but chicken porridge is not for chicken?” Say the Star while chewing the porridge he was eating.

I chimed in on the word Star. “Chicken porridge will have chicken meat, well it means baby porridge..”.

Suddenly Bintang and Hendrik closed his mouth like he was nauseous.

I laughed while eating the porridge I was holding. “Canda, canda ege.”

“Joking woi, you guys are not taking seriously right?” I said to Bintang and Hendrik who were panicking.

“Hah? Yes no.” Reply to the Star in a panic.

After me, Hendrik and Bintang finished our breakfast back to school from a distance I saw Dila who was chatting with Jey and Windi then after that Dila looked at me and reached her hand to me, then smile.

Love is complicated.

Sometimes I question how I feel about you. Do I like you with love?

Or just a sense of wanting to have, wanting to make you just look at me. One thing is certain. Being around you, seeing you, inhaling your scent, looking for things about you, makes me happy. Being with you like this is also fun.

“Den? Sorry to bother you, but your inner voice is too big.

The star mocked me while continuing Hendrik's words. “Lu pee just not straight already thought of love, the first school that really nge.”

I refute the words of the Star with an annoyed face. “Lu has been annoying, slandering anyway.”

The stars are still hurting me. “What not to accept? Wanna fight? Can you?”

“Pocket to hit us.” I said with an annoyed face.

Hendrik broke me and the stars. “Udah-already.”

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