A Poem To Dila

Because everything is in you

Dila and I decided to go back to Villa because the day had changed. The night event began, with the opening ceremony of the balloons in pairs, hearing the word pair all the other children looking for their respective partners and suddenly Dila grasped my hand, I who felt Dila grasping my hand immediately turned to her and smiled slightly at me.

In a timid voice, Dila whispered in my ear, “Den, I pair with you, yes.”

I who heard Dila's words immediately clasped her hand tightly. Now we are both a couple. The event also began. Zahid, as the committee, explained the rules of this balloon dance. We were asked to dance in balloons, and beautiful music. Our job is to keep the balloon from falling or breaking. If that happens, we will be considered dead.

I who heard the rules of the event immediately made it clear not to follow the event. “Dila, Deni has never danced before so Deni must be stiff, like mending us blush rather than shy.”

Dila who heard my words just now turned her head towards me and stomped my feet hard. “Not giving up later I teach you, you just listen to my words.”

I immediately held onto my foot that Dila had just stepped on. “Sick Dila..”

“Only have you ever danced?”

“Never seen the hehe, but I often see in the films that have dancing so, so I think I know a little about dancing so.”

“Ciroins ever.” I said while standing back up.

Dila also immediately pulled my hand to start the dance, and the dance began approximately 17 couples who did balloon dance at that time including me and Dila.

I just followed Dila's words to keep dancing with her. “Yes that Den slowly you just need to follow my movements and continue like that while relaxing your movements.”

After I got used to Dila's movements, I finally and Dila were able to survive for two minutes and I looked around me it turned out that there were only three couples who still survived at that time, namely me and Dila, who were still there, Star and Windi, Hendrik and Yomi.

They were both the organizers of the event and also the class president and his representative so they participated to enliven the event. And I thought that Dila and I would win this race, as long as we could both last a little longer.

The optimists thought that Dila and I could win the event. “Dila we must-”

Suddenly Hendrik and Yomi hit me and the Star that made my Balloon and the Star break, to make me pushed forward and immediately embraced Dila's body and kissed her forehead.

Robi who saw me immediately laughed and said to me. “Wah the dog Deni looking for a chance in constriction.”

“Ciee..” Said everyone who saw me at the time.

“Eh, sorry Dila I don't mean rich so.” I said to him while letting go of that hug.

“Iya no papa kok.” Dila replied while talking shyly to me with a face that began to turn red.

And yes because I and the losing Star the winners of the event were Hendrik and Yomi, what a result that was beyond reason. And after the event was finished, the next event was started, namely fish burning. While the others were burning fish I decided to go to the beach while walking along the beach, feeling the night breeze that was blowing hard, and, the sound of the waves and my body that is illuminated by the full moon that is very bright. Suddenly the stars came with Windi and Dila to approach me who was sitting alone in a chair near the beach.

“Lu what is nge here? alone again? If you are kidnapped the cave will also be bothered.” Say the Star while walking towards me who is sitting on a chair near the beach.

“Where do you tell napa people first? You think this is our school? Play muddle aja?” Windi's voice chimed in on the words Star.

“You know from whom if the cave is here?”

“So Dila nyariin you everywhere, but there's nothing she keeps asking us to help her nyari lu, you, and the cave nanya to the Hendrik he said the Hendrik see you again road to the beach ya keep us following you here.”

I who heard the words of the Star smiled and went straight to Dila and stood before him. “Please Yes Dila have worried about Deni.” while smiling and looking into his eyes then rubbing his head.

Dila smiled sweetly while illuminating the full moon. “Iya hehehe.”

“Oi both of you if you want to mojok not in front of us also napa?” said the Star with the face of Kel saw me who was alone with Dila.

Windi directly hit the Star's head. “Lu see napa situation if you want to talk, disrupt the atmosphere aja.”

“Aduh... parchment-”.

“What? You dare to same cave?” Windi said with an intimidating face to the Stars.

With a frightened face and trying not to fight Windi. “Negak ko.”

“Oh yes, here we bring the fish to be grilled.”

Windi also put a frictional bag containing the fish he brought it on the chair I was sitting in.

I whispered to the stars. “Lu ever burn fish?”

“About a cave, you yourself ever?”

“Sama cave is also not, lah you why bring fish here if we can not burn the fish?”

“Yes create formality aja.”

“Formality-formality, all of you eat aja pormalin to last.”

Windi who saw us who were whispering immediately reprimanded us. “You guys again why on whispers?”

“No ahehehe, we don't whisper.”

“You guys from diem just help us burn this fish.” Windi said asking me and the Star to help them burn the fish.

Me and Bintang also approached Windi and Dila who were preparing the fish to burn, yes because this was my experience and the Star burned fish so we goru how to burn fish. So we just let the fish we burned on the fire burn without fanning the fish.

Dila who saw the fish that we burned not in fanning also immediately approached us. “Eh you guys again what?”

“Iya we again burn fish” I said to answer Dila's words while looking at her

“That's why not in the fish fan?”

“It should be in fanin?” Tanya Bintang asked innocently to Dila.

“Yes it must, if not in fanin later gosong kayak gini.” said Dila while taking fish that I and Bintang bakar.

“Elu si, instead of in fanin.”

“Elu is also the same.”

“Elu..”

“Elu..”

“Elu..”

“You can not si, do not quarrel?” windi said while hitting my head as well as the Stars.

After the fish that we had burned was cooked even though it was a bit charred, we ate the fish together while joking and laughing together.

If I hope that right now I can reveal my true feelings to you, I don't want to constantly be just a connoisseur of your smile I want all those smiles to be just me. I know I'm selfish and I also know I don't have the courage to reveal all my heart to you but just by looking at your smile I know I'm in love with you.

“Eh you daydream mulu, kesambet napa ni person.” said the Star who saw me daydreaming while looking at Dila.

I smiled as I ate the fish in my hand. “Hehehe you rich who do not know a cave anymore think what.”

Before long came Dicky, Hendrik and Yomi while carrying a guitar to sing along, Dicky this is my classmate and my friend also fit in Junior High he must be a guy, he said, with a slightly large body and curly hair he is also good at playing musical instruments and his voice is also good at hearing.

While making the campfire bigger by sprinkling branches around it, Hendrik also told Dicky to liven up. “Dick sing ****.”

“Gas.” Said Dicky who immediately sat down while sucking a cigarette and began to sing.

Dicky began playing his guitar by playing the excerpt melody and immediately began to sing. “Tak feels dark was falling... At the end of the night, towards a cold morning... There's only a few stars tonight... Maybe it's because of you, being beautiful... Then my eyes feel ashamed... The more embarrassed this time... Sometimes he is afraid... When he had to cross in the middle of his escape... In the evening... Towards morning... Little anxious... Many misses..”.

Dicky also sang a shady Umbrella song entitled For Women who are in arms, and without me knowing it turns out all the children of the class were gathered at my place and sang together, and I was not aware of it, did not feel the end of the event will begin, namely the release of Lantern. All the class children were told to gather on the beach to fly Lantern and I approached Dila to fly Lantern with him.

“Dila, I can buy Lanterns with you?”

Dila just nodded her head while smiling towards me as usual. Today is a beautiful day for me because I can have you completely even if it is just one day, I know I may never feel this day again, but I am so grateful to have known you Dila.

Before releasing the lantern we were told to write down a wish for the future on a paper, then stick it on the Lantern.

“What do you write Dil?”

I smiled as I held the lantern together with Dila. “Sometimes you will also know what I wrote in the letter.”

Mother who is my homeroom teacher as well as leading this last event gave the cues for the release of lanterns. “If you have finished writing down your wishes, after the count of one you can release the Lantern. Alright we count together.”

“3... 2... 1...” At last the lantern was flying all the children shouted happily and unconsciously that Dila was hugging me because it was carried away by the atmosphere at that time.

Dila instantly released her embrace from my body. “Eh sorry Den I accidentally.”

“Iya no papa, yaudah we return to Villa yuk already malem too?” I said to take Dila to the villa for a rest.

Dila and I went back to Villa, once at Villa Dila went into the room while I played cards at the dining table with Hendrik, Yomi, and Bintang, it didn't feel like two o'clock at night I was playing cards with them. Since I had no place to sleep, I slept at the dinner table with the three of them.

The cold morning air made me wake up from my sleep, after I opened my eyes it was already morning and I also saw my surroundings Hendrik, Yomi, and I, and the Star that was still fast asleep and no one had woken up, I also saw that I was using the Dila Jacket as a blanket. Somehow I could use Dila's jacket when before I fell asleep I didn't wear the jacket. I also walked out while looking for fresh air and from a distance I saw Dila was standing by the beach without using his jacket when the air outside was very cold.

I approached Dila who was standing on the beach while looking at the waves in front of him. “Please yes to the jacket last night, now you can use it for yourself because the air outside is very cold.”

Dila smiled as she took her jacket from my hand then put on her jacket. “Iya equally.”

“You want a walk?” I said to take Dila for a walk on the beach while feeling the cool air and the sun that began to rise.

Dila just nodded her head which meant that she accepted my offer to take her for a walk that morning while enjoying the cool air and the sky that began to light up.

While continuing to walk together with him, Dila suddenly stopped her steps. “Deni..”.

“Iya why Dil?” I said, turning my body and facing towards him.

“Eng... no deh.” he said as if he wanted to talk something.

Before long the sun appeared and all my friends went straight to the beach to play water there, all seemed happy that there was something else for the sand castle, he said, there are those in the tomb in the sand there are swimming and there are also those who just look at it, and we go to the last option, yes me and Dila just see them having fun.

Suddenly someone threw us using sand and made my clothes and Dila became a little dirty, but I wanted to enjoy the atmosphere of the sunrise comfortably, uh it turns out there is still a disturbing atmosphere. And of course the ones who threw the sand were Hendrik and Yomi who wanted to get me wet with them.

“Aduh..” Said Dila who was hit by a sand splash thrown by Hendrik and Yomi.

“Hayu or swim kos kos duyung wae sien ku cai” said Hendrik using Sundanese while throwing me again.

I immediately grabbed Dila's hand and asked him to run so as not to be sand-poured by Hendrik and Yomi still Hendrik was still chasing us, but because of our distance too far, Hendrik finally gave up not to chase us again.

I tried to catch my breath while sitting in a chair near the beach. “huff... Finally we can get away too, damn it Hendrik.”

Dila laughed while mocking me who was upset with Hendrik and Yomi. “Ehehehe.. you are funny well if again spes.”.

“Eh... Ehahaha can be you.” I said while holding my head and laughing

“Dila want to play do not come with another?” I said as I stood up from the chair and extended my hand to Dila while inviting her to go play with them.

Dila nodded her head and immediately clasped my hand, me and Dila went to the place before to play with them, then when I saw Hendrik and Yomi again wanted to throw the Star and Windi me and Dila also tried first to throw them both using sand.

Before me and Dila pelted they suddenly came from behind Robi and Zahid who caught me to be taken to the sea water because my clothes were not wet and Dila was also captured by Jey, Aida and Anita were both taken to the shallow beach to get my clothes and Dila wet as well.

“Dogs, the cave has not changed clothes, it has been told to take a shower.” I told them, and they only laughed including Dila as well.

“That mouth is still rough talking.” said Dila while washing me with sea water.

I just smiled looking at the sikaf Dila who was watching my every word, because my clothes and Dila are already wet I also invite Dila to play sea water while trying to pass the waves that are heading towards me and Dila.

I thrust my right hand at Dila who was on my right. “Dila, hold me.”

“Why emang?” Said Dila asking me while holding my right hand with her left hand.

I'm laughing a little. “Fear you are laughing at the waves, are you small.”

“Ih... ngeselin” Dila who heard my words then let go of his grasp and threw me with the sea water that was beside him and happened to sea water it slightly entered my eyeball which made my eyes twinkle.

Dila who was shocked because I glimpsed directly close to me and invite me to the beach. “Eh you are not papa?”

“This wealth will not heal, otherwise you blow.” I said to Dila while rubbing my eyes and walking towards the shore.

“Udah do not rub the existing even more painful, here let me blow.” Said Dila putting away my hand while holding my face then blowing my eyeball.

“Where? Ud meningan”

I tried to swipe both balls of my eyes. “Udah nih kanya.”

“Sorry yes just now the water hit your eyes.”

I smile. “Iya no papa, you are also responsible for blowing my eyes. Ehehehe.”

We also played on the beach until ten, after finishing playing we went to Villa to clean the body at once to get ready to go home.

After finishing cleaning up my things, I decided to approach Dila who was sitting alone on the terrace of the Villa. His eyes looked soft, hinting at the tiredness that was running over him. “You look sleepy, Dil?”

Dila turned to look at me with a sleepy face. “Slight si.”

“Yaudah let me just bring your stuff.” I said as I picked up the bag beside him.

I smile. “Udah no papa, sustenance can not be refused.”

“This one is called Sustenance?”

“Udah should not volunteer much, let's take the car.” I said as I pulled Dila's hand and took her in the car.

“Come aboard you too.” Said Dila who had gotten in the car first.

While keeping my bag and his bag next to her. “Before I go to the Star first.”

While shaking my hand.”Don't be long.”

I smiled and went straight to the Star that was standing with Windi. “Oi ege, you are behind first yes kenya cave will sleep nih.”

“Ya sleep-sleep aja lu, ngapain ngasih tau cave.”

“Lu think cave can sleep without nyender?” I said with a loud tone.

The stars are trying to blackmail me. “Yaudah we tukeran place but you pay kegua ceban?”

“Fuck you.” I said while giving my money to him.

I who swapped positions with the Stars sat next to Dila on the front. After I finished talking to the Star I immediately walked back to where Dila was and directly boarded the car.

“Udah finished you?” Said Dila who saw me ride in the car and sit next to her.

I nodded with a smile at him, showing him that everything was in order. Without words, the car started moving, taking us home. On the way, fatigue finally mastered Dila who had been looking very sleepy from the beginning. He fell asleep quietly, his tired head resting on my shoulder. Meanwhile, I fell asleep, head resting on Dila's comfortable head.

Thank you Dila for this one day I feel that you were mine and I always remember your beautiful smile at that Dusk.

So many fun things when you and I are together. What used to be so special. Everything that is heavy is like not a burden.

You're like the owner of the universe over do’a that I've always skipped. Meeting you led me to believe that there are many sincere people in this world. Some just don't go with each other.

In all the parts of the story that the universe has never heard, I want this part to be read with great confidence. There is no regret in whatever I have decided. For me falling in love and losing is a decision without a choice.

If I could choose, maybe I would continue to fall in love with you without any loss. Or choose not to fall in love from the beginning. But still, falling on you is indeed so much fun.

Thanks yeah…

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