The Unconsidered Fetus

Mindfulness

During my time on the plane, my heart continued to feel unsettled, and Teguh was busy talking to Mr. Jenson, I could not comfort Teguh or invite him to chat as usual, even though in my previous expectations, I could not entertain Teguh, I thought this trip would be a lot of fun, but it's a pity that it all turned out like this, thinking I kept focusing on Desi and Mike, there was a sense of anxiety in me about my brother, my brother, because somehow I know clearly how Mike's attitude really is, and despite hearing from Nayla how Desi was to me when behind my back, I still can't believe his words one hundred percent, he said, not because I knew Nayla, but I was just afraid that maybe Nayla was misunderstanding and misjudging my sister, I was afraid that my sister was like that because of the incitement from Mike.

I kept daydreaming about how Desi's current state was and what she did to the innocent Raysa. All of a sudden, Mr. Jenson clasped my hand tightly and he began to wake me up from a long daydream that disturbed my mind.

"Ros.have not been too thought out again, bad guys like them don't deserve you to mess around." Sir Jenson said to me.

"But her master was my brother, he was the one who took care of me and looked after me like my mother and my father's successor when I was a child, he was also the one who always supported me to become a celebrity. I just feel like there's no way he's gonna be that bad with me, right?" My reply was that my doubt.

"You will never know what is in someone else's heart, even if it is your own brother, even though he has been kind to you all along, what if it turns out that all the goodness is only to benefit himself, you are too good Ros and you always think well of everyone, so that it will make it easier for others to deceive you, including what your sister's done now." Reply Mr. Jenson explained it to me.

"If that's all true, then what about you, do you really like me, do you love me sincerely, or is all your kindness for the sake of Steadfast?" I began to doubt everyone's feelings for me.

I thought if my only real brother who clearly had the same blood as me and lived side by side for a long time, the bus did this badly with me, what about Mr. Jenson who from the beginning only wanted custody of his son, the thought made me even more anxious and unable to trust everyone else. While Mr. Jenson himself looks widened his eyes very wide, staring at me so closely and just keep smiling little, making me even more unhappy with him.

"Why are you smiling like that? Is it possible that I am afraid of right, you are also the same as Sister Desi?" I asked him to put up a bridge that was bent very tangled.

"Rose ..Ros.. Do you think my love for you is just to get a firm heart? That's all not true, because I can't possibly sleep haphazardly with women, you understand what I mean, right?" Mr. Jenson put his face closer to me, making me a little nervous for him.

"YES..What do you mean, we also slept because of an accident before and you also fucked me carelessly, how can I believe your words." My reply while looking the other way so that Mr. Jenson could not notice the nervousness within me at that moment.

Instead of angry Mr. Jenson himself actually felt challenged by what was said by Ros at that time, he brought himself closer and continued to urge Ros at that time. "That's me being framed and unconscious, but what we've been doing in my room lately, that's what I've been doing in my waking state and you're giving me permission in person, so do you think I'm just using you after everything I've done to you? I'm so disappointed in you if you think that." Reply to Mr. Jenson who instantly distanced himself from me for a moment.

He just kept staring straight ahead and noticed Teguh who was sitting on the front bench alone.

Soon I started to approach her again and tried to apologize to her.

"Ekm..sir.I'm sorry, but I don't think you're the same as Desi, nor do I think you're going to lie to me, it's just that I'm too scared for everyone beside me not to really love me." I spoke to him at the time.

Unfortunately, Mr. Jenson remained silent and sulky, as if he remained angry with me, I let out a lethargic breath and no longer knew what to do to persuade him not to be angry with me.

"Huh... Sir come on are you still mad at me, if you're not going to have a nice vacation anymore, I'm going to apologize to you, how else would you forgive me?" I said to him and still try to persuade him in a way he wants to do himself.

After I spoke like that, Mr. Jenson turned to look at me and a small smile was drawn at the time, making me feel a little suspicious of what he was thinking at the time.

"It's a kiss here and I'll forgive you." Mr. Jenson's words while holding his lips made me very surprised to hear the request from him.

"This man on the plane there's a lot of people who can see him, I don't want to." My words firmly refuse, moreover there is Teguh, I do not want a child of his age to see such indecent things.

"Well, if you don't want to, don't expect us to make up." His reply by back draping both his hands in front of his chest and continuing to turn his face back forward, left me confused and had no other choice.

I kept thinking out loud, and I finally dared to kiss her, doing what she wanted so she could stop sulking like a child to me, because if all of this keeps going, I don't want to ruin his vacation, let alone add weight to my mind.

But even though I had intended to do that, it still felt very nervous to say it to Mr. Jenson.