The Unconsidered Fetus

Decides

It was painful when I had to erase all the most beautiful memories of my life, including having to erase the good times when me and Desi were always together as well as Mike, but I have to forget them both, and I have to forget them both, because I know that if they are not really good people, they do not love me and do not consider me, as much as I gave them before.

And that made the pain in my heart even more painful and hard for me to forget, even when I managed to delete all the photos in the phone including all the files in it, I completely deleted Ros in the past, and I've really become the new Ros, the non-celebrity Ros again, the truly forgotten Ros of entertainment and social media, now I became poor Ros because life was so unfair and educated me too hard as now.

The career that I had built since I was a child with all the effort and hard work that I did without stopping was now completely destroyed and Desi easily replaced my position when I was already above as it is today.

I immediately returned to focus with the original intention of looking for a mobile phone was to give the phone to Teguh so that he could return to playing the game again, so that he could have another cell phone with his other friends and he could learn with the phone, while I immediately looked for a job on my laptop at the time, I continued to send a lot of applications through emails that I sent to all places and companies that were opening job vacancies for me.

Even though I am a former famous celebrity but at least I still have a little other skills in me apart from singing and playing roles, I immediately went to sleep after sending everything.

I don't want to think about anything else and can only continue to pray for myself with complete confidence in myself that I can definitely get through all these difficult times together with my old little son even he was not considered by his own father and today Teguh instead had to meet with a father who had never acknowledged his existence all along.

It felt so stifling to the chest that even I myself had to squeeze my chest tightly and try to calm myself back then when I knew that Mr. Jenson had already met Teguh, I'm just afraid she'll take Teguh away from me when she's this big, because I know that he really needs an heir and a descendant of himself to continue the company he had at that time.

Cause the last time I saw him, I, I can still clearly remember that his grandmother and mother always urged him to marry and have a wife but he did not acknowledge my son and me at that time.

I actually heard her talking to her grandmother right when I just walked into her room.

Until the next morning I have decided to move from that place and have decided that I will return to my home country and take the scholarship offered by the previous Teguh homeroom class, I thought I would be safe if I hid in my own country and used Rosa's name again like before, she had to stay away from entertainment companies and could only be an ordinary person, that way maybe I won't be known again by Mr. Jenson.

"Yes, I have to go to that country, if Mr. Jenson is in this country, then let me avoid this human who has no heart like him." I said as I continued to pack all of Teguh's clothes into the suitcase at that time.

"Eummm..mom, what are you doing in my room so early?" Tanya Teguh with her innocent face back then.

"Honey you're awake, let's take a shower, I'm getting your clothes done" I replied to Teguh at the time.

Instead of immediately going to the bathroom according to what I said, Teguh actually walked with a stagger because he might not have gained all the consciousness in himself at that time, and he immediately hugged me from behind by wrapping that cute little arm around my neck that made me turn to face him and return the hug back then.

"Mother...Where are we going? Why did you put all the Teguh clothes in the suitcase?" Ask her with half-open eyes.

Even when he was still in such a sleepy state, he could still ask me about something like this, He is indeed a very intelligent and critical child about everything he sees or hears around him.

"Honey you if you are still sleepy again, today is your graduation day, you only go to school later at noon to take graduation and take your scholarship to C country, you will go to school later today, you will live there and have a much better education than here, mother will also accompany you, so we have to get ready from now on, I'm so happy that you've always made your mother proud of all the achievements you've done, baby." I replied while gently rubbing Teguh's head a few times back then.

He smiled at me broadly and he kept nodding at me as he immediately returned to his bed at once, because I knew he was still sleepy at the time.

"Hoaamm...eummm.Then I want to go to bed again ma'am, I'll wake me up again if we want to go to school." Said Teguh as he walked up to his bed and pulled his blanket again.

She was really very funny and so adorable, I could only smile while shaking my head slowly at her behavior that could always make me laugh because she was so cute back then, I also continued all my duties again to take care of all the items I wanted to bring to country C one more week.